The Sheila Variations

"It's better than they tell you"

This post has reduced me to tears.

I've followed the journey on Chez Miscarriage for over a year now ... all the ups, the downs ... and finally; the long waiting period of the pregnancy. It's just ... ridiculous and wonderful and bizarre that I can be so full of emotion and joy for a woman I don't know!! But look at her comment sections! There are so many of us! An outpouring of feeling and Mazel Tovs.

But something about this latest post just killed me. Killed me.

Wondering if I will have a child. It's something that makes my heart ache. Can't really think about it directly. But I always had a feeling that "it was better than they tell you". That the parenting books of today focus on the anxiety and how hard it all is, and how to be perfect, and etc. etc. (unlike Jean Kerr's wonderful books!!) - and seem to leave out the joy. The sheer animal JOY of it.

Beautiful.

Congratulations to getupgrrl, to Gefilte, to Mr. getupgrrl, to Sarah ... And thank you for letting us in on the whole crazy painful journey. I'm a better person for having followed along.

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