January 10, 2006

Courage

A blogger who writes about his experiences, and his struggles, openly - like in this post. He was in the middle of a struggle when he wrote that post. He lets us in on his thought process, his vulnerability, his ups and downs with it - and he uses the blog as a way to keep himself in a dialogue with himself, and his issues - as a way to say: "Okay - so I notice that when THIS situation comes up, all of these buttons are pushed ..." Or "I am noticing that THIS is a huge trigger for me." Etc. It's all about becoming conscious, it seems to me. Stopping the automatic responses to things, and just taking a second to NOTICE what is really going on. Very hard to do, and even more hard to do in public.

Really courageous stuff. I love people who engage with themselves that way. Especially if they can write, and Stevie can.

He's on this whole "core belief" journey - and I'm really getting a lot out of reading his posts, where he explores these negative core beliefs he has - stuff he is really WORKING on.

Good for you, Stevie - and congrats on the successful completion of your big project.

Posted by sheila
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//I am another vendor, a farmer who has promised his next crop to the squire. If it's bounteous and worm-free, then we both rejoice; if it's not quite the bumper crop, well then, we are adults, and we recognize that it was a possibility when we struck the deal. I dutifully tended to the crop.//

This analogy may change my life forever.

Posted by: David at January 10, 2006 9:55 AM

David - he's really incredible, isn't he?

His whole thinking on "negative core beliefs" has really got me thinking as well.

Posted by: red at January 10, 2006 10:28 AM

Sheila, I'm bawling here. There are no words, just heartfelt gratitude - and a feeling inside like an eggshell cracking open.

Posted by: Stevie at January 10, 2006 4:29 PM

I've been thinking al day about it. Amazing, isn't it Sheila?

Posted by: Alex at January 10, 2006 4:37 PM

"All" day, not "Al" day. I don't even know who Al is.

Posted by: Alex at January 10, 2006 4:38 PM

Al is my Grandpa :)

Posted by: Stevie at January 10, 2006 4:40 PM

definitely don't have it in me to post something THAT personal. no way.

Posted by: beth at January 10, 2006 4:43 PM