The Books: “Dispatches” (Michael Herr)

I’m on my history bookshelf.

Dispatches.jpgNext book on this shelf is called Dispatches by Michael Herr. Michael Herr also wrote Apocalypse Now – or, he was one of the writers. Dispatches is his book about being a foreign correspondent over in Vietnam. But it’s not your typical book, written in a typical journalistic style. It’s raw-er. It’s poetic. It has a kind of of stream-of-consciousness to it that – is very freaky. The sentences are long, they just keep going and going … some of it sounds hallucinatory. Hunter Thompson went on record saying that the book blew him away, and that the book “put all the rest of us in the shade”.

There’s historical stuff in the book, background information, a sense of who, what, where, why, when – but the excerpt I’ve chosen doesn’t have any of that. It’s just plain creepy.


From Dispatches (Everyman’s Library (Cloth)) by Michael Herr.

There were times during the night when all the jungle sounds would stop at once. There was no dwindling down or fading away, it was all gone in a single instant as though some signal had been transmitted out to the life: bats, birds, snakes, monkeys, insects, picking up on a frequency that a thousand years in the jungle might condition you to receive, but leaving you as it was to wonder what you weren’t hearing now, straining for any sound, one piece of information. I had heard it before in other jungles, the Amazon and the Philippines, but those jungles were “secure,” there wasn’t much chance that hundreds of Viet Cong were coming and going, moving and waiting, living out there just to do you harm. The thought of that one could turn any sudden silence into a space that you’d fill with everything you thought was quiet in you, it could even put you on the approach to clairaudience. You thought you heard impossible things: damp roots breathing, fruit sweating, fervid bug action, the heartbeat of tiny animals.

You could sustain that sensitivity for a long time, either until the babbling and chittering and shrieking of the jungle had started up again, or until something familiar brought you out of it, a helicopter flying around above your canopy or the strangely reassuring sound next to you of one going into the chamber. Once we heard a really frightening thing blaring down from a Psyops soundship broadcasting the sound of a baby crying. You wouldn’t have wanted to hear that during daylight, let alone at night when the volume and distortion came down through two or three layers of cover and froze us all in place for a moment. And there wasn’t much release in the pitched hysteria of the message that followed, hyper-Vietnamese like an icepick in the ear, something like, “Friendly Baby, GVN Baby, Don’t Let This Happen To Your Baby, Resist the Viet Cong Today!”

Sometimes you’d get so tired that you’d forget where you were and sleep the way you hadn’t slept since you were a child. I know that a lot of people there never got up from that kind of sleep; some called them lucky (Never knew what hit him), some called them fucked (If he’d been on the stick …), but that was worse than academic, everyone’s death got talked about, it was a way of constantly touching and turning the odds, and real sleep was at a premium. (I met a ranger-recondo who could go to sleep just like that, say, “Guess I’ll get some,” close his eyes and be there, day or night, sitting or lying down, sleeping through some things but not others; a loud radio or a 105 firing outside the tent wouldn’t wake him, but a rustle in the bushes fifty feet away would, or a stopped generator.) Mostly what you had was on the agitated side of half-sleep, you thought you were sleeping but you were really just waiting. Night sweats, harsh functionings of consciousness, drifting in and out of your head, pinned to a canvas cot somewhere, looking up at a strange ceiling or out through a tent flap at the glimmering night sky of a combat zone. Or dozing and waking under mosquito netting in a mess of slick sweat, gagging for air that wasn’t 99 percent moisture, one clean brath to dry-sluice your anxiety and the backwater smell of your own body. But all you got and all there was were misty clots of air that corroded your appetite and burned your eyes and made your cigarettes taste like swollen insects rolled up and smoked alive, crackling and wet. There were spots in the jungle where you had to have a cigarette going all the time, whether you smoked or not, just to keep the mosquitos from swarming into your mouth. War under water, swamp fever, and instant involuntary weight control, malarias that could burn you out and cave you in, put you into twenty-three hours of sleep a day without giving you a minute of rest, leaving you there to listen to the trance music that they said came in with terminal brain funk. (“Take your pills, baby,” a medic in Can Tho told me. “Big orange ones every week, little white ones every day, and don’t miss a day whatever you do. They got strains over here that could waste a heavy-set fella like you in a week.”) Sometimes you couldn’t live with the terms any longer and headed for air-conditioners in Danang and Saigon. And sometimes the only reason you didn’t panic was that you didn’t have the energy.

Every day people were dying because of some small detail that they couldn’t be bothered to observe. Imagine being too tired to snap a flak jacket closed, too tired to clean your rifle, too tired to guard a light, too tired to deal with the half-inch margins of safety that moving through the war often demanded, just too tired to give a fuck and then dying behind that exhaustion. There were times when the whole war itself seemed tapped of its vitality: epic enervation, the machine running half-assed and depressed, fueled on the watery residue of last year’s war-making energy. Entire divisions would function in a bad dream state, acting out a weird set of moves without any connection to their source. Once I talked for maybe five minutes with a sergeant who had just brought his squad in from a long patrol before I realized that the dopey-dummy film over his eyes and the fly abstraction of his words were coming from deep sleep. He was standing there at the bar of the NCO club with his eyes open and a beer in his hand, responding to some dream conversation far inside his head. It really gave me the creeps — this was the second day of the Tet Offensive, our installation was more or less surrounded, the only secure road out of there was littered with dead Vietnamese, information was scarce and I was pretty touchy and tired myself — and for a second I imagined that I was talking to a dead man. When I told him about it later he just laughed and said, “Shit, that’s nothing. I do that all the time.”

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7 Responses to The Books: “Dispatches” (Michael Herr)

  1. DBW says:

    I have never read this. This excerpt is incredible–very compelling. I am going to pick this up, but I expect to feel drained when I finish it.

  2. red says:

    DBW – It’s a very draining book. Well worth it, though.

  3. jean says:

    Finally a book that I have read! This book is out of control. This book is one of those books that makes you swoon realizing how interconnected events and life and feelings and people are. This book was a history lesson onthe Vietnam War that I never got in high school (high school history never seemed to make it past World War II). Or, if you were Siobhan, it never made it past the movie “Reds”. Or was it “All quiet on the western front”? Or some other movie while Mr. Kimball was picking his teeth reading the paper?

  4. red says:

    Jean – I AM HOWLING WITH LAUGHTER … Siobhan marking US history by movies she had seen because of that teacher … hahahahahahahahaha the movie “Reds” … hahahahaha

    Can’t stop laughing!

    Actually Jean – come to think of it – I believe you were the one who made me read this. Oh, and also this and The Things They Carried – which is now one of my favorite books of all time.

  5. red says:

    By the way, Jean – speaking of movies in the classroom you have to read this (in case you haven’t already) it’s about a teacher in the Bronx showing To Kill a Mockingbird to his class ….

  6. jean says:

    Read it, cried, have goosebumps as I am typing this.

  7. red says:

    sniff, sniff – me too!!!!

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