{"id":108438,"date":"2003-02-14T04:55:40","date_gmt":"2003-02-14T09:55:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=108438"},"modified":"2015-10-18T13:24:15","modified_gmt":"2015-10-18T17:24:15","slug":"just-realized","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=108438","title":{"rendered":"Just Realized &#8230;"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s Valentine&#8217;s Day and the poem I just posted is all about loss, losing things, learning to master the art of losing &#8230; even when you lose someone you love. Ah, such cheery sentiments on this day of love. <\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;ve never been a huge fan of Valentine&#8217;s Day. <\/p>\n<p>First of all, because I am usually single, and for a single person, there is not a day more obnoxious than Valentine&#8217;s Day. <\/p>\n<p>Second of all, in my high school we had these horrific rituals called &#8220;flower days&#8221;. Did anybody else out there ever have them? Students would volunteer to deliver carnations around the school. You could buy one and say, &#8220;Hey, go send this to &#8212; [insert name] He has French II with Mr. Pittochi on the third floor.&#8221; So I&#8217;m in class, the door opens, the flower comes in &#8230; and no matter how bitter or jaded I was (and I was a pretty bitter and jaded 16 year old) I always held out this teeny little fragile hope that the flower would be for me. That my &#8220;crush&#8221;, whoever he was, would also have a crush on me and would send me a damn carnation. <\/p>\n<p>It never was for me. And it turned me off Valentine&#8217;s Day for good. My friends and I used to rage to each other about the injustice of &#8220;flower days&#8221;. Ha ha <\/p>\n<p>Third of all: I&#8217;m a Sagittarian. In general, I don&#8217;t think we go for the gushy romantic stuff. <\/p>\n<p>However: I don&#8217;t want to just post that poem about loss and dealing with grief and leave it at that. I&#8217;m still optimistic. So here is one of my favorite poems of all time. <\/p>\n<p><big>since feeling is first by e.e. cummings <\/big><br \/>\nsince feeling is first<br \/>\nwho pays any attention<br \/>\nto the syntax of things<br \/>\nwill never wholly kiss you; <\/p>\n<p>wholly to be a fool<br \/>\nwhile Spring is in the world <\/p>\n<p>my blood approves,<br \/>\nand kisses are a better fate<br \/>\nthan wisdom<br \/>\nlady i swear by all flowers. Don&#8217;t cry<br \/>\n&#8211;the best gesture of my brain is less than<br \/>\nyour eyelids&#8217; flutter which says <\/p>\n<p>we are for each other: then<br \/>\nlaugh, leaning back in my arms<br \/>\nfor life&#8217;s not a paragraph <\/p>\n<p>And death i think is no parenthesis <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s Valentine&#8217;s Day and the poem I just posted is all about loss, losing things, learning to master the art of losing &#8230; even when you lose someone you love. Ah, such cheery sentiments on this day of love. I&#8217;ve &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=108438\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[171],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/108438"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=108438"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/108438\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":108439,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/108438\/revisions\/108439"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=108438"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=108438"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=108438"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}