{"id":200214,"date":"2025-07-19T09:00:03","date_gmt":"2025-07-19T13:00:03","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=200214"},"modified":"2025-09-23T11:16:29","modified_gmt":"2025-09-23T15:16:29","slug":"jared-padalecki","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=200214","title":{"rendered":"&#8220;I think something once broken and put back together is even stronger.&#8221; &#8212; Jared Padalecki"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/tumblr_ot2firlODB1uwndibo1_1280-e1751737310183.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"450\" height=\"675\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-200217\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/tumblr_ot2firlODB1uwndibo1_1280-e1751737310183.jpg 450w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/tumblr_ot2firlODB1uwndibo1_1280-e1751737310183-133x200.jpg 133w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/tumblr_ot2firlODB1uwndibo1_1280-e1751737310183-267x400.jpg 267w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/tumblr_ot2firlODB1uwndibo1_1280-e1751737310183-67x100.jpg 67w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 450px) 100vw, 450px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>\nIt&#8217;s his birthday today. <\/p>\n<p>Jared Padalecki talks a lot about his process (when he&#8217;s asked, which is not too often unfortunately). He reads the script over and over again, reciting the lines over and over, as he takes a run, as he drives, as he walks around. The script vibrates through him. He doesn&#8217;t just get &#8220;familiar&#8221; with the lines. My interpretation of this process is that the lines are IN him, as a rhythm, so much so he doesn&#8217;t need to think about it consciously. <\/p>\n<p>I admire the thoughtfulness of this approach. Padalecki started working as a teenager, and absorbed lessons on the job. He was an adorable late teenager, with the floppy hair associated with early-2000s boys. The BANGS. He speaks about the vibe for young American actors at the time: it was all about introspective brooding. Maybe inspired in part by Jared Leto on <i>My So-Called Life<\/i>? Padalecki is many things, but he is not a brooder, at least not of the self-conscious variety. He tells pretty funny stories about his initial audition for Sam Winchester in <i>Supernatural<\/i>, and how he went in there brooding like James Dean. This wasn&#8217;t the right vibe for Sam and creator Eric Kripke wasn&#8217;t keen on Jared. Padalecki&#8217;s manager gave him the feedback: &#8220;Sam is smart. We&#8217;re looking for someone who seems smart.&#8221; Pretty brutal, but Jared took the coaching for the callback (because of course he got called back: he clearly had <i>some<\/i>thing). He abandoned the brooding and came in just as his smart self. And it shows. <\/p>\n<p>\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"https:\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/4_89Re97PUI?si=7znwOThALTrhCdIB\" title=\"YouTube video player\" frameborder=\"0\" allow=\"accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share\" referrerpolicy=\"strict-origin-when-cross-origin\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>\nHe&#8217;s so relaxed. It&#8217;s amazing because &#8230; there&#8217;s the character we all would come to know. There&#8217;s very little difference between the audition and what this same scene ended up looking like in the pilot. I can imagine Kripke watching this like &#8220;Well, there&#8217;s Sam.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>The audition I want to see is the &#8220;chemistry read&#8221; between Jensen Ackles and Jared, but it&#8217;s not available. Obviously the chemistry was right. The two of them said to each other, early on, during filming the first season, &#8220;We might get a couple seasons out of this.&#8221; This was very exciting and more than they could have hoped for. During the filming of the pilot, they commiserated: &#8220;This is &#8230; really good, actually. We might get picked up.&#8221; Never would they have guessed the show would be on for fifteen years.<\/p>\n<p>In the first half of the first season, Jared was finding his way. He had done <i>Gilmore Girls<\/i> and people still have affection for him for that, but <i>Gilmore Girls<\/i> didn&#8217;t really prepare him for Sam Winchester. <i>Supernatural<\/i> was dark and gritty and emotionally complex, and &#8211; at least in the first season &#8211; it was really only about the two of them. It was a heavy load. He&#8217;s in every scene. The characters were, at first, broadly drawn: Dean is the tough wise-cracking older brother (Han Solo), Sam is the intellectual idealistic younger brother (Luke Skywalker). <\/p>\n<p>\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/super24-e1751892614420.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"700\" height=\"399\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-200237\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/super24-e1751892614420.jpg 700w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/super24-e1751892614420-200x114.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/super24-e1751892614420-400x228.jpg 400w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/super24-e1751892614420-100x57.jpg 100w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 700px) 100vw, 700px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>\nSam spends the first season grieving the death of his girlfriend, and fighting with his brother about how to interpret their messed-up childhood. Dean is the leader, Sam the follower. This was how it was established. The lines in the early brother conflicts are pretty on the nose at first, and Jared hits the conflict hard. This is not a criticism. This is an acknowledgement of the challenges in the material early on, and also how young he was. This was new ground for him: he had to step into this new space, where he had more room to maneuver than he did on Gilmore Girls, where he had more room to develop a character, to keep exploring. The first half of the season, you watch him grow, and it happens really fast. It&#8217;s like you can visibly watch him expand in confidence and subtlety as an actor. It&#8217;s thrilling. I would say that, by &#8220;Asylum&#8221; you are watching him rise as an actor while simultaneously feeling the ground beneath his feet. <\/p>\n<p>\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/a45-e1751892954392.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"700\" height=\"392\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-200239\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/a45-e1751892954392.jpg 700w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/a45-e1751892954392-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/a45-e1751892954392-400x224.jpg 400w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/a45-e1751892954392-100x56.jpg 100w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 700px) 100vw, 700px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>\nOn the heels of &#8220;Asylum&#8221; is &#8220;Scarecrow&#8221; and then &#8220;Faith&#8221;. These two episodes show Sam the character finding himself and his voice, but it&#8217;s happening with the actor too. <\/p>\n<p>\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/f19-e1751894263753.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"700\" height=\"390\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-200244\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/f19-e1751894263753.jpg 700w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/f19-e1751894263753-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/f19-e1751894263753-400x223.jpg 400w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/f19-e1751894263753-100x56.jpg 100w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 700px) 100vw, 700px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>\nFor me, as a viewer, it was &#8220;Nightmare&#8221; where I feel Jared Padalecki really stepped into the role and into his own talent and strengths as an actor. In my <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=81262\" rel=\"noopener\" target=\"_blank\">massive re-cap<\/a> of &#8220;Nightmare&#8221;, at one point I said &#8220;From here on out it&#8217;s the Jared Padalecki Show&#8221;. It was a revelation for me. I suddenly SAW him. And I SAW what he brought. Most of this has to do with listening, and how listening is active, and how in the power of Padalecki&#8217;s listening IS his objective (or Sam&#8217;s objective). This is esoteric actor stuff but it&#8217;s super important when we are trying to understand what an actor is DOing. (My acting teacher at the Actors Studio always said, &#8220;The name of the job is ACT-or. Not FEEL-er.&#8221;)<\/p>\n<p>How Jared listens to &#8220;Max&#8221; is so active it&#8217;s an object lesson in the concept. The mistake actors make is to not realize listening is active. They focus on the lines and forget about the listening. I&#8217;ve said it so many times it&#8217;s probably tiresome but: <\/p>\n<p>All great actors are good listeners. There are no exceptions. <\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Nightmare&#8221; was when I really saw Jared LAND. And it was because of how he listened. I was literally like &#8220;WOW. THERE HE IS.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/n43-e1751893767174.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"700\" height=\"393\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-200241\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/n43-e1751893767174.jpg 700w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/n43-e1751893767174-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/n43-e1751893767174-400x225.jpg 400w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/n43-e1751893767174-100x56.jpg 100w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 700px) 100vw, 700px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>He&#8217;s the full package. He&#8217;s <i>hilarious<\/i>, and often &#8211; his funniest moments are his REACTIONS. This recalls John Wayne&#8217;s famous comment: &#8220;I&#8217;m not an actor. I&#8217;m a RE-actor.&#8221; Jared is such a great example of this. There are moments in <i>Supernatural<\/i> when something absurd happens and the &#8220;button&#8221; on it is Jared&#8217;s reaction. It&#8217;s not schtick. It&#8217;s organic. There&#8217;s a moment in a later season &#8211; I think &#8220;Paper Moon&#8221; &#8211; where Sam and Dean are trapped by a pack of werewolves, who force them at gunpoint to kneel, and Dean says something grandiose and macho, a wisecrack in the face of death, and Jared flashes him a look like, &#8220;Oh God that was corny.&#8221; It looks involuntary. I would bet it is involuntary. (And perhaps is an example &#8211; of which Supernatural has many &#8211; where the two talented leads subverted the lines, adding shadings that might not be there in the actual text. Jared laughing at the corniness of the line.)<\/p>\n<p>I think my favorite moment of his in <em>Supernatural<\/em> comes in Season 6&#8217;s &#8220;Like a Virgin&#8221;. Castiel (Misha Collins) spills the beans about what happened to Sam during the previous whatever months. Sam had no idea. He&#8217;s shocked and upset, but he has to pretend like he already knew, mostly so he won&#8217;t alarm Castiel. He wants Castiel to keep talking. Tears flood his eyes, but on top of the emotion is this faux-casual expression, placed over the depths which have been STIRRED. Jared plays so many different things, simultaneously, in this small moment. My friend Dan Callahan, who writes about acting, says that so much of good acting is about <i>proportion<\/i>. A lot of bad or ineffective performances are mostly because the actor gets the proportions wrong. This small moment is in perfect proportion.<\/p>\n<p>\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/scrnli_wyHFkcQ0vB6PR8-e1752934061483.jpeg\" alt=\"\" width=\"700\" height=\"396\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-200392\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/scrnli_wyHFkcQ0vB6PR8-e1752934061483.jpeg 700w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/scrnli_wyHFkcQ0vB6PR8-e1752934061483-200x113.jpeg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/scrnli_wyHFkcQ0vB6PR8-e1752934061483-400x226.jpeg 400w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/scrnli_wyHFkcQ0vB6PR8-e1752934061483-100x57.jpeg 100w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 700px) 100vw, 700px\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Jared is well-known for his advocacy for mental health awareness and is disarmingly open about his own struggles. He has had to advocate for himself to get a handle on his anxiety. When he is able to draw on this in his acting, it&#8217;s immensely powerful. (The final section of season 8 in Supernatural, the section in season 7 where he hasn&#8217;t slept for weeks and is running on fumes.) This is not to say that art is autobiographical: I really dislike such assumptions. Jared is an ACTOR, and he thinks clearly and deeply about Sam. But when you play the same character for 15 years, it&#8217;s hard to separate: they are you, you are them, you have distance, you have no distance &#8211; it&#8217;s all the same. <\/p>\n<p>In the mid-2000s, Jared did a Christmas movie with Peter O&#8217;Toole. At one point, he got overwhelmed by the emotions in a scene and was teared up between takes. O&#8217;Toole intervened, telling him to give all that emotion to the character. It belongs onscreen, otherwise it&#8217;s just you. This advice from a veteran like O&#8217;Toole blew Jared&#8217;s mind. You cry real tears, you feel real feelings, but put it all into the story. <em>It&#8217;s not about you.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>I feel him do that, consciously, in those &#8220;sequences&#8221; I mentioned in <i>Supernatural<\/i>. He had to go to a very dark place. It&#8217;s difficult to even look at him in the &#8220;insomnia&#8221; section in Season 7, and the &#8220;trials&#8221; section at the end of Season 8. By then, he was a veteran actor himself. He knew how to work. He can be incredibly buoyant, and goofy, and his laugh is huge and free and joyful. Emotions come easily to him. He can go deep fast. He&#8217;s got easy access to what&#8217;s going on down there. A lot of people don&#8217;t.<\/p>\n<p>When he broods now, it&#8217;s because he&#8217;s lived it. My doctor told me once during the period when I was trying to get well, that I was going through life trying to drive with the emergency brake on. I could only go so far, I could only accelerate so much. I had to get the right diagnosis and get treatment before I could finally pick up some momentum. Once you face the monster, once you actually are brave enough to look at it and say &#8220;No&#8221; to it &#8230; you can accelerate. It&#8217;s such a good analogy.<\/p>\n<p>We&#8217;ve watched that happen with Padalecki, unfolding in real time, evident in his personal appearances as well as in his performance onscreen. But struggle, as it tends to do, has left its mark. It is part of what makes him him as an actor.<\/p>\n<p>\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2025\/07\/tumblr_inline_ogp8rs8ztq1rifr4k_500.gif\" alt=\"\" width=\"500\" height=\"281\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-200248\" \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>It&#8217;s his birthday today. Jared Padalecki talks a lot about his process (when he&#8217;s asked, which is not too often unfortunately). 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