{"id":7137,"date":"2007-10-16T16:44:17","date_gmt":"2007-10-16T20:44:17","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=7137"},"modified":"2010-07-18T08:45:32","modified_gmt":"2010-07-18T12:45:32","slug":"underwater-green","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=7137","title":{"rendered":"Underwater green."},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Human connection.  Brief.<\/p>\n<p><!--more--><br \/>\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"neon1.jpg\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/neon1.jpg\" width=\"500\" height=\"375\" \/><\/p>\n<p><p>\n<img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" alt=\"neon2.jpg\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/neon2.jpg\" width=\"500\" height=\"375\" \/><\/p>\n<p><p>\n<strong>The God Who Loves You <\/strong> <i>by Carl Dennis<\/i><\/p>\n<p>It must be troubling for the god who loves you<br \/>\nTo ponder how much happier you&#8217;d be today<br \/>\nHad you been able to glimpse your many futures.<br \/>\nIt must be painful for him to watch you on Friday evenings<br \/>\nDriving home from the office, content with your week\u00e2\u0080\u0094<br \/>\nThree fine houses sold to deserving families\u00e2\u0080\u0094<br \/>\nKnowing as he does exactly what would have happened<br \/>\nHad you gone to your second choice for college,<br \/>\nKnowing the roommate you&#8217;d have been allotted<br \/>\nWhose ardent opinions on painting and music<br \/>\nWould have kindled in you a lifelong passion.<br \/>\nA life thirty points above the life you&#8217;re living<br \/>\nOn any scale of satisfaction. And every point<br \/>\nA thorn in the side of the god who loves you.<br \/>\nYou don&#8217;t want that, a large-souled man like you<br \/>\nWho tries to withhold from your wife the day&#8217;s disappointments<br \/>\nSo she can save her empathy for the children.<br \/>\nAnd would you want this god to compare your wife<br \/>\nWith the woman you were destined to meet on the other campus?<br \/>\nIt hurts you to think of him ranking the conversation<br \/>\nYou&#8217;d have enjoyed over there higher in insight<br \/>\nThan the conversation you&#8217;re used to.<br \/>\nAnd think how this loving god would feel<br \/>\nKnowing that the man next in line for your wife<br \/>\nWould have pleased her more than you ever will<br \/>\nEven on your best days, when you really try.<br \/>\nCan you sleep at night believing a god like that<br \/>\nIs pacing his cloudy bedroom, harassed by alternatives<br \/>\nYou&#8217;re spared by ignorance? The difference between what is<br \/>\nAnd what could have been will remain alive for him<br \/>\nEven after you cease existing, after you catch a chill<br \/>\nRunning out in the snow for the morning paper,<br \/>\nLosing eleven years that the god who loves you<br \/>\nWill feel compelled to imagine scene by scene<br \/>\nUnless you come to the rescue by imagining him<br \/>\nNo wiser than you are, no god at all, only a friend<br \/>\nNo closer than the actual friend you made at college,<br \/>\nThe one you haven&#8217;t written in months. Sit down tonight<br \/>\nAnd write him about the life you can talk about<br \/>\nWith a claim to authority, the life you&#8217;ve witnessed,<br \/>\nWhich for all you know is the life you&#8217;ve chosen.<\/p>\n<p><p>\n<img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"gilio.jpg\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/gilio.jpg\" width=\"800\" \/><\/p>\n<p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Human connection. Brief.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[3],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7137"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=7137"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7137\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":22497,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/7137\/revisions\/22497"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=7137"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=7137"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=7137"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}