{"id":85922,"date":"2014-07-07T09:33:46","date_gmt":"2014-07-07T13:33:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=85922"},"modified":"2025-09-23T11:49:36","modified_gmt":"2025-09-23T15:49:36","slug":"supernatural-season-2-episode-1-in-my-time-of-dying","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=85922","title":{"rendered":"<i>Supernatural<\/i>: Season 2, Episode 1: \u201cIn My Time of Dying\u201d"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i2.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i2.jpg\" alt=\"i2\" width=\"846\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86355\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i2.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i2-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i2-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i2-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<i>Directed by Kim Manners<br \/>\nWritten by Eric Kripke<\/i><\/p>\n<p>Season 2 starts <a href=\"http:\/\/poetry.rapgenius.com\/Ts-eliot-the-hollow-men-annotated\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">&#8220;not with a bang, but a whimper.&#8221;<\/a> &#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221; is this perfect little snow globe world of an episode, which takes place mostly in one setting, with scene after scene after scene of talking people, talking, talking, talking, and gigantic beautiful faces filling the screen, and soft dark shadows, and soft whispered voices, plus tears, plus Venetian blinds, plus family drama and also, you know, enormous metaphysical and existential questions about life and death and the borderland in-between. After Season 1 wrapped up, with some major thrilling standoffs and a car crash and an exorcism, Season 2 starts off melancholy, quiet. It has room to breathe. There are a lot of pauses, and silence, and thoughtful moments where nobody speaks. Kripke structured a beautiful episode to open Season 2. It starts with a gasp of breath, and ends with a death.  And yes, the demon finally shows himself. And drops a few bread-crumbs of intrigue that will pay out over the course of Season 2. We&#8217;re shown a lot here, but the really important stuff is still in the shadows. It&#8217;s an intriguing way to go for the season opener. They could have decided to keep up the pace, and have it be a kind of race to the finish. A less-confident show might have gone that way. But &#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221; is elegiac and melancholy and troubled.  It hides more than it reveals. <\/p>\n<p>The title, of course, is taken from Led Zeppelin&#8217;s almost 13-minute howl of pain and fear and longing. It is a plea. It is a request. The lyrics are perfect for the episode, cracking it open like a walnut.  <\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"480\" height=\"360\" src=\"\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/xTrQ7vUZsIo\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>\n<!--more--><\/p>\n<p>\nIn my time of dying, want nobody to mourn<br \/>\nAll I want for you to do is take my body home<br \/>\nWell, well, well, so I can die easy<br \/>\nJesus, gonna make up my dyin&#8217; bed.<br \/>\nMeet me, Jesus, meet me. Meet me in the middle of the air<br \/>\nIf my wings should fail me, Lord. Please meet me with another pair<br \/>\nWell, well, well, so I can die easy<br \/>\nJesus, gonna make up.. somebody, somebody&#8230;<br \/>\nJesus gonna make up&#8230; Jesus gonna make you my dyin&#8217; bed<br \/>\nOh, Saint Peter, at the gates of heaven&#8230; Won&#8217;t you let me in<br \/>\nI never did no harm. I never did no wrong<br \/>\nOh, Gabriel, let me blow your horn. Let me blow your horn<br \/>\nOh, I never did, did no harm.<br \/>\nI&#8217;ve only been this young once. I never thought I&#8217;d do anybody no wrong<br \/>\nNo, not once.<br \/>\nOh, I did somebody some good. Somebody some good&#8230;<br \/>\nOh, I did somebody some good. I must have did somebody some good&#8230;<br \/>\nOh, I believe I did<br \/>\nI see the smiling faces<br \/>\nI know I must have left some traces<br \/>\nAnd I see them in the streets<br \/>\nAnd I see them in the field<br \/>\nAnd I hear them shouting under my feet<br \/>\nAnd I know it&#8217;s got to be real<br \/>\nOh, Lord, deliver me<br \/>\nAll the wrong I&#8217;ve done<br \/>\nYou can deliver me, Lord<br \/>\nI only wanted to have some fun.<br \/>\nHear the angels marchin&#8217;, hear the&#8217; marchin&#8217;, hear them marchin&#8217;,<br \/>\nhear them marchin&#8217;, the&#8217; marchin&#8217;<br \/>\nOh my Jesus.<br \/>\nOh, don&#8217;t you make it my dyin&#8217;, dyin&#8217;, dyin&#8217;.<\/p>\n<p>With all the religious symbolism that will start to come into play (not yet, although &#8220;angels&#8221; are mentioned in &#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221;), it occurs to me that the universe in <i>Supernatural<\/i> is not so much a Judeo-Christian one, but a <a href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Manichaeism\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Manichean<\/a> one. I&#8217;m no Gnostic scholar, let&#8217;s just state that out of the gate. There are only so many hours in the day. But what I do know about Manichaeism is that they believed that the cosmos was made up of light and dark, and man&#8217;s journey was about combatting the darkness and retrieving the light. They took this quite literally in some respects, seeing the constellations, for example, as actual evidence that the dark (bad) was being combatted by the light (good). And the world in-between? The world we live in, and the humans in it?  Light and dark were all mixed together (this was seen as a bad thing), and it was referred to as The Smudge.  Kind of beautiful, really. Light and dark smudged together. In other words, the Grey Areas of life. You know, they were onto something even though they were totally not down with the Grey Areas, and wanted to banish the darkness to its side of the fence. Darkness could exist, but it had to be separated out.  Like I said, I&#8217;m no scholar! If I&#8217;ve gotten anything wrong about this, please correct me.  The world in <i>Supernatural<\/i> feels very Manichean to me.  The desire is to banish the darkness. That is the goal. But darkness cannot be banished, because it is in us as well. Hoping for a world made up of ONLY light is foolish. But one monster at a time \u2026 maybe they can do their part.  It gets tricky when it gets personal, and &#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221; is extremely personal.  <\/p>\n<p>Because Kim Manners handled &#8220;Devil&#8217;s Trap,&#8221; they gave him &#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221;, and Season 2 is when Beauty starts to become a primary factor in how the show looks. They didn&#8217;t exactly take it for granted in Season 1, but they weren&#8217;t sure how far to go with it, or what to do with it. The look changes drastically in Season 2, and it&#8217;s difficult to clock sometimes what the difference is. There are certain shots in <i>Niagara<\/i> where Marilyn Monroe is filmed in such a way that her beauty literally does not seem quite real. She is an object of fantasy, a mystery woman. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Niagara1.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Niagara1.jpg\" alt=\"Niagara1\" width=\"640\" height=\"480\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86466\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Niagara1.jpg 640w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Niagara1-100x75.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Niagara1-200x150.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Niagara1-400x300.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 640px) 100vw, 640px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/2468038008_f23c5bc645.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/2468038008_f23c5bc645.jpg\" alt=\"2468038008_f23c5bc645\" width=\"500\" height=\"372\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86468\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/2468038008_f23c5bc645.jpg 500w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/2468038008_f23c5bc645-100x74.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/2468038008_f23c5bc645-200x148.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/2468038008_f23c5bc645-400x297.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 500px) 100vw, 500px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/cleo47-2010052385843-NIAGARA047-original.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/cleo47-2010052385843-NIAGARA047-original.jpg\" alt=\"cleo47-2010052385843-NIAGARA047-original\" width=\"768\" height=\"576\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86469\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/cleo47-2010052385843-NIAGARA047-original.jpg 768w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/cleo47-2010052385843-NIAGARA047-original-100x75.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/cleo47-2010052385843-NIAGARA047-original-200x150.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/cleo47-2010052385843-NIAGARA047-original-400x300.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 768px) 100vw, 768px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nHer makeup, her hair, her costumes, the colors, the shadows \u2026 every single shot is chosen and structured to highlight her extraordinary beauty. (She also gives a wonderful performance.)  Now Marilyn Monroe was always beautiful, but in some of her other films, most specifically <i>The Seven Year Itch<\/i>, she is <i>ogled<\/i> at by the camera. Her sexuality is treated like it&#8217;s some freaky abnormality in nature. <i>The Seven Year Itch<\/i> leaves me with a bad taste in my mouth, and even though she&#8217;s gorgeous and desirable, I feel that everyone involved is somehow making fun of this fantastic creature. When a director stops trying to punish her for being a Love Goddess, and instead lets her operate freely AS the object of fantasy that she is \u2026 really really interesting things can be the result, and Marilyn&#8217;s acting still gets short shrift by those who can&#8217;t understand that her beauty is not to be looked PAST. Her beauty is PART of her, it is PART of how her characters operate in the world. And yes, everyone desires her. Including her directors. And that love and desire shows in her best films. I think the whole Male Gaze conversation has completely impacted how people even SEE Marilyn, and they feel sorry for her no matter how delightful and funny and touching she is onscreen, they see it ALL as exploitative, and that seems entirely unfair!  <\/p>\n<p>But back to Beauty:  I wrote about <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=82318\" target=\"blank\" rel=\"noopener\">The Importance of Beauty in the &#8220;Shadow&#8221; re-cap<\/a>, and Season 2 is when that kicks in. Every shot is more beautiful than the last, and both Padalecki and Ackles are filmed with maximum lushness and attention to detail, in the same way Hathaway and his team lit Marilyn in <i>Niagara<\/i>. It actually gets a little bit overwhelming in Season 2.  Like: STOP. STOP WITH THE BEAUTY. GIVE ME A CHANCE TO REST. <\/p>\n<p>The lighting definitely has something to do with it, but I think it&#8217;s more a matter of makeup as well as an actual conscious decision (like, they had meetings about it) to present the beauty of Ackles and Padalecki in ways that are startling, baroque, and are almost distracting.  Beauty presented like that stops being just &#8220;beautiful people&#8221; and starts to become almost \u2026 philosophical in nature. And I am not sure how that occurs but I know it when I see it. I see it with Marilyn Monroe. I see it with how Hitchcock filmed his &#8220;cool blondes&#8221; and also how he chose to film Cary Grant. I see it with some of Elvis&#8217; pictures. Beauty on that level actually equals Desire, something we all understand. And Beauty also taps into other uglier feelings in the audience, things like envy and resentment. And so there definitely seems to have been an understanding that they needed to go in that direction, that the Beauty was not just going to be an accident or treated casually, but was going to be woven into the fabric of the show. <\/p>\n<p><big>Teaser<\/big><br \/>\n&#8220;Bad Moon Rising&#8221; continues to play through the misty night, sounding, frankly, psychotic, because the Impala and the 18-wheeler have crashed.<\/p>\n<p>Then we see a black boot on the 18-wheeler guardrail. A black cowboy boot.<\/p>\n<p>Season 2 goes into a pretty serious Western mode, especially once the roadhouse becomes a stopping-off point, like a trading post in the Wild West, and that black boot is the start of it.  The driver of the truck, who, hmmm, is not the same guy we saw in &#8220;Devil&#8217;s Trap&#8221;, not at all, but oh well, life goes on, is now clearly a black-eyed demon, and he saunters over to the Impala in his black cowboy boots.  He rips the door off the Impala, and there is Sam, bloody and battered, but holding up the Colt. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i4.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i4.jpg\" alt=\"i4\" width=\"851\" height=\"477\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86356\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i4.jpg 851w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i4-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i4-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i4-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 851px) 100vw, 851px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThe demon decides to exit the scene, pouring out of the poor guy&#8217;s mouth into the inky-black night sky (there&#8217;s a great shot where you see the darkness being filled with something even MORE dark), and then the poor sap collapses on the ground, and he&#8217;s back to himself, and he looks at the horrible crash, wondering what the hell has he done.  He remembers nothing. <\/p>\n<p>Sam, meanwhile, who can&#8217;t really turns his head, starts calling out in a panic for his brother, for Dean. No response.  <\/p>\n<p>Suddenly the blazing sun burns down, lens flares and all, and a helicopter hovers in the air. EMTs are loading Sam, Dean and John up onto stretchers to be airlifted out of there. It&#8217;s completely outside the normal <i>Supernatural<\/i> style, and it&#8217;s great, a great way to launch us into a new season, saying: &#8220;Expect the unexpected.&#8221; The show is usually dark, somewhat formal, and classically shot \u2026 and here we have completely modernist realistic film-making, handheld cameras, lots of chaos, the sound of the chopper, tons of extras, the Winchesters on stretchers.  It&#8217;s disorienting. Sam seems to be the only conscious one, and is screaming as they race him to the chopper, &#8220;ARE THEY OKAY? ARE THEY EVEN ALIVE?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i7.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i7.jpg\" alt=\"i7\" width=\"843\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86357\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i7.jpg 843w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i7-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i7-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i7-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 843px) 100vw, 843px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><big>1st scene<\/big><br \/>\nExcept for the opening and one scene at Bobby&#8217;s, the entire episode takes place in the hospital. Naturally, because this is <i>Supernatural<\/i> it is dark as hell, and one would fear to be operated on in such a dungeon. <\/p>\n<p>I had NO idea what I would see next, so in a way &#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221; was even more of a cliffhanger than <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=85418\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">&#8220;Devil&#8217;s Trap.&#8221;<\/a><\/p>\n<p>Suddenly, Dean wakes up with a heaving gasp, coming up into stark profile against the window. He&#8217;s moving his mouth to get the taste of the tubes out of there. Dehydrated too.  He looks around, disoriented.  He is able to sit up. We saw him being loaded onto that chopper with a neck brace on, so he&#8217;s looking surprisingly mobile.  <\/p>\n<p>From under the bed (thank you, Kim Manners), we see Dean&#8217;s bare feet hop down onto the floor, and, in scrub pants and a T-shirt, head for the door. His body seems exposed. Season 2 starts with Dean stripped down. The vulnerability of his body is always &#8220;on the table,&#8221; it&#8217;s part of his landscape, it&#8217;s familiar to him, to us \u2026 he senses it, knows it \u2026 he&#8217;s a hunter so obviously Death is a reality for him, but so far (except for <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=80676\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">&#8220;Faith&#8221;<\/a>) it has not really factored into how he sees himself in the world. And &#8220;Faith&#8221; was very very important. It introduced those deep concepts for really the first time, letting us know that <i>Supernatural<\/i> would not shy away from existential matters, from philosophical and ethical questions.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i8.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i8.jpg\" alt=\"i8\" width=\"849\" height=\"476\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86358\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i8.jpg 849w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i8-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i8-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i8-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 849px) 100vw, 849px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThe interesting thing about Ackles&#8217; body is this: He&#8217;s huge. His neck is thick. His chest is big. He&#8217;s clearly a jock. He&#8217;s <i>solid<\/i>. But what is so great is that he has the ability to make us almost forget that, to see his flesh as something fragile, to feel the pulse in his neck, to feel the chill on his arms and his feet \u2026 We don&#8217;t normally feel worried about big guys like this. But when I see Dean emerge into the hallway, anxious and lost, looking around for his family, his body exposed like that, with a jagged cut on his forehead, cuts on his ears, his cheek, I get <i>worried<\/i>. I want him to at least put some shoes on.  Put on a coat, Dean. You might get a chill! <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i9.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i9.jpg\" alt=\"i9\" width=\"848\" height=\"476\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86359\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i9.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i9-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i9-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i9-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nDean is then seen from the end of the hallway, empty and dark and ominous. He seems even more vulnerable from that perspective. Especially calling out, &#8220;Dad?&#8221; He seems like a kid who woke up in the middle of the night and forgets where he is. <\/p>\n<p>Wincing, his arms sort of hunched into himself, still in pain, he makes his way down the stairs, the camera looping to the side in a delightfully diagonal way.  Why shoot something straight on when you can give everyone vertigo?  Dean walks into a magnificent from-below shot (of the kind that dominated &#8220;Devil&#8217;s Trap&#8221;), and here we see the strange dichotomy of the character made visible: He seems literally massive. Like he is 20 feet tall. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i10.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i10.jpg\" alt=\"i10\" width=\"847\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86360\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i10.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i10-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i10-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i10-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nA towering bulky figure. And at the same time, something about his pose, mixed with the hospital garb and the T-shirt, makes him seem diminished and small.<\/p>\n<p>We&#8217;ve talked a lot about bodies and how they are treated in these re-caps and in the comments.  Season 2 is going to be even more heavily about that.  Death. Life. The body&#8217;s need to live, the body&#8217;s draw towards death. The body&#8217;s strength, the body&#8217;s vulnerability.  Sam is going to start to surge forward in the narrative, his own body starting to become disturbing, marked, from the inside. It won&#8217;t be until the ending of the season that we understand what went down in that nursery, and THEN we have to wait until Season 3, and then on into Season 4, to see how all of that manifests. Patience!  But all of it has to do with the integrity of the body. Or, the seeming integrity of the human body. Nothing has &#8220;integrity&#8221; in <em>Supernatural<\/em>. No one is safe. You can be penetrated, possessed, taken over, co-opted. You can cease being you in a flash.  The line between life and death is not a strict border, but a porous one, with traffic back and forth.  <\/p>\n<p>Dean&#8217;s body is what&#8217;s at stake here. We can see it. I mean, hell, we see it twice in the very same shot, Dean being split off from his own body. <\/p>\n<p>But at this point, we have no idea that Dean is not, you know, in his own body. <\/p>\n<p>So, looking back to my initial reaction.  <\/p>\n<p>&#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221; worked a strange spell on me, a spell that has lasted despite multiple viewings. There&#8217;s a gentleness at work, a tenderness, a sort of raw openness that comes up in scene after scene &#8211; really, in every scene, even the ones involving John. Especially the ones involving John. After the twisted angry melodrama of the final episodes of Season 1, &#8220;In my Time of Dying&#8221; was a total revelation. It was not what I expected. It was not where I thought they would go.  And the scene with Tessa \u2026 which stretches out over a couple of interspersed scenes \u2026 and where &#8220;they&#8221; allowed  Dean to &#8220;go&#8221; in that scene, calling us back to the &#8220;should I live or should I die&#8221; questions first raised so memorably in &#8220;Faith&#8221; \u2026  The fact that the season opener for Season 2 was all about those issues, and that it really dug into those issues, (without sacrificing the plot that needed to move forward, the Colt, the demon, John&#8217;s whisper in Dean&#8217;s ear) \u2026 I appreciated it so much.  THAT&#8217;S the <em>Supernatural <\/em>I respond to most palpably, the philosophical existential <em>Supernatural<\/em>.  And here it was, in its most open state, opening the entire Season! They didn&#8217;t &#8220;bury the lede.&#8221; They weren&#8217;t trying to work these issues in in a stealthy way, they brought them right up to the surface.<\/p>\n<p>The camera move here, as he&#8217;s on the stairs, sort of circling down to see the woman in the glassed-in booth and then circling back to Dean&#8217;s face, is a classic example of a &#8220;subjective&#8221; shot. It&#8217;s Dean&#8217;s world, it&#8217;s Dean&#8217;s point of view, the episode is through his eyes.  The camera is close in on his face, another clue of the subjective nature of what&#8217;s going on here. <\/p>\n<p>That subjectivity gets worse when he tries to talk to the woman behind the glass booth, asking where his dad and brother are. She doesn&#8217;t even look up. Dean snaps his fingers at her. Nothing. It&#8217;s scary, and he looks scared. He&#8217;s realizing. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i11.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i11.jpg\" alt=\"i11\" width=\"846\" height=\"476\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86361\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i11.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i11-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i11-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i11-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nNext we see him hustling down the hospital hallway, looking alarmed, and \u2026 like he knows what he is about to see. He runs to his own room, glances in the door, and sees himself lying there on the bed, unconscious, tubes in his nose, mouth.  <\/p>\n<p>Technical side note: They did some great stuff in &#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221; to suggest the two separate Deans. There was a body double in the bed at times, with basically a mask of Jensen Ackles&#8217; face molded to his own face. Creepy.  They also clearly did some green-screen type of work, where you could see Jensen in the same frame with himself.  Then they also used their classic &#8220;camera circling around to reveal the monster&#8221; thing to show Dean in the corner of a room where he wasn&#8217;t before, &#8220;his&#8221; body lying in the bed in the foreground, or whatever &#8211; they found a lot of variety.  It&#8217;s always elegant. It&#8217;s never cheesy or <i>Parent Trap<\/i>-y.  And it meant that Jensen Ackles had to spend a lot of time basically hiding in the corner, as the camera swung around the room, and then tiptoeing into place while the camera was off him.  They got some great effects, my favorite one being the scene with Sam and Dean and the Ouija board, but I&#8217;ll get to that.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i12.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i12.jpg\" alt=\"i12\" width=\"845\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86387\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i12.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i12-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i12-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i12-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nInstead of trying to make the EFFECT be the whole point (in essence wanting the audience to go, &#8220;OMG that&#8217;s so cool HOW DID THEY DO THAT?&#8221; &#8211; which would pull you out of it) &#8211; they went simple with it, so that you barely think of it as an &#8220;effect&#8221; at all. Instead, you&#8217;re watching these scenes thinking, &#8220;Holy shit, I want Dean to get back into his body.&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p>Less is more is the lesson. One of the best recent examples I can think of that shows the use of this kind of thing is Duncan Jones&#8217; <i>Moon<\/i> (2009), starring Sam Rockwell.  I don&#8217;t want to spoil too much if you haven&#8217;t seen it.  <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=30345\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">My review is here if you&#8217;re interested. SPOILER WARNING.<\/a>  But SEE it, first of all. It was one of my favorite movies that year.  And there are times when an &#8220;effect&#8221; is used and instead of thinking, &#8220;Awesome effect, zow-ee!!&#8221;, I think, &#8220;Holy shit, what a strange and intense situation \u2026&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s how the effects work in &#8220;In My Time of Dying.&#8221; A lot of this is due, as I said, to how the camera &#8220;reveals&#8221; that split-off aspect, and a lot (of course) is due to Ackles&#8217; performance.  His &#8220;spirit&#8221; has no layers to protect him. His feet are bare. He cannot protect himself, and his emotions come to the surface and never go back down. He is fully <i>present<\/i>, with nothing between us and him.  Dean, when he&#8217;s normally himself, is often doing that Burlesque Act thing I&#8217;ve often mentioned, revealing what he feels comfortable revealing, hiding what he feels he needs to hide.  His survival techniques learned over a violent and difficult life.  <\/p>\n<p><big>Digression on Survival Techniques<\/big><br \/>\nI do not resent those survival techniques.  I don&#8217;t think he should be stripped of them so he can be more &#8220;honest&#8221; or whatever else. I think he gets to make his own boundaries.  Especially since his boundaries have been so compromised in his life.  He gets to choose what he reveals, and who he reveals it to, and how.  This is going to become hugely important in the next couple of episodes when Sam, as a way of deflecting his own grief and guilt, gets on Dean about how Dean isn&#8217;t grieving properly, or at least grieving in a way that Sam thinks is healthy. Keeping in mind, of course, that the loss of a parent is an unbelievably traumatic event and there is no &#8220;right&#8221; way to go through it &#8211; Sam&#8217;s type of reaction is ALSO a part of it, something I&#8217;ve experienced, as I&#8217;m sure you all have too. Sam seems to be talking from the self-help culture, the one that Dean Winchester would never fit into, because dammit it&#8217;s too INVASIVE. They want to get INSIDE YOU.  NO. GET. OUT. It&#8217;s the culture that looks at something like working on a car for 18 hours straight as somehow NOT as healthy as joining a weeping drum circle (sorry, you can see which side of the bread my butter is on). But that whole conflict is so awesome because it&#8217;s so well-drawn and specific, and since neither of them are particularly erudite fellows there&#8217;s a lot of defensiveness and hurt and &#8220;forget it&#8221;s and it&#8217;s all so human, such a perfect representation of how disorienting death can be.<br \/>\n<big>End of Digression<\/big><\/p>\n<p>Slowly Dean moves forward, to consider himself. To look upon himself. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i131.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i131.jpg\" alt=\"i13\" width=\"846\" height=\"476\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86386\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i131.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i131-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i131-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i131-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nDean vs. Himself will be a constant theme, more so than with Sam, and I find that fascinating. We&#8217;ll also get into that with his &#8220;mirror moments,&#8221; which may actually warrant a whole post in and of itself.<\/p>\n<p>Sam also has to fight with out-of-control aspects of his own identity. I mean, he&#8217;s the Poster Boy for that. Dean&#8217;s fights, however, at least until Season 9, were always existential and psychological, purely.  That entire Arc has now come to its full fruition in Season 9, gone implicit to explicit &#8211; with the Mark of Cain.  <\/p>\n<p>When Dean catches a glimpse of himself in the mirror (as he will often, I&#8217;ll point them out as they come), he often stops, and just stares. <em>Who is that guy. Who am I. How do I reconcile what I feel with what I know, and what I feel with what I can&#8217;t show. How much longer can I keep doing this? Look at the price I have paid.<\/em> These, I must point out, are <i>private moments<\/i>, Dean communing with his own reflection. <\/p>\n<p><big>The Man In the Mirror<\/big><br \/>\nMen staring at themselves have a long history in cinema and the connotations are ALWAYS different than women staring at themselves in the mirror, which is a far more commonplace image. When women stare at themselves in the mirror (in cinema anyway), we know what they are doing, we know what they are seeing. They look in the mirror to perfect their mask: reapply lipstick, check the makeup, the hair.  It is practical, what they are doing. But when men stare at themselves in the mirror, they are trying to look beneath the mask, or, in the famous case of Travis Bickle, trying to pump UP the mask, psych themselves up into a public persona that will protect them. Huge difference. It is destabilizing when men stare at themselves in the mirror.  I have a list of almost 40 movies where that occurs, and I keep meaning to write something up about it. <\/p>\n<p>The most famous example, of course, is Travis Bickle in <i>Taxi Driver<\/i>. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/tumblr_lq5904ryX41qmr448o1_r1_500.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/tumblr_lq5904ryX41qmr448o1_r1_500.jpg\" alt=\"tumblr_lq5904ryX41qmr448o1_r1_500\" width=\"500\" height=\"262\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86476\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/tumblr_lq5904ryX41qmr448o1_r1_500.jpg 500w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/tumblr_lq5904ryX41qmr448o1_r1_500-100x52.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/tumblr_lq5904ryX41qmr448o1_r1_500-200x104.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/tumblr_lq5904ryX41qmr448o1_r1_500-400x209.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 500px) 100vw, 500px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>But there are others, and a lot of them come from 1970s and 1980s cinema, when male roles were being questioned and examined in the culture at large. There was a lot of anxiety about maleness, and what it meant within these new concepts, and so of course that would be reflected (literally) in the films of that era, with men staring at themselves in the mirror, worried, anxious. At first I thought that the &#8220;man in the mirror&#8221; thing started in the 1970s, but once I started looking for more, I was amazed at how much there was out there!  There are examples that go as far back as the dawning days of cinema, so the eruption of women&#8217;s lib in the 1970s isn&#8217;t the whole explanation.  <\/p>\n<p>In Fritz Lang&#8217;s <i>M<\/i>, the horrifying serial killer, played by Peter Lorre, stares at himself in the mirror blankly and then begins to pull his face in different shapes with his fingers, almost trying out different grotesque masks.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Peter_Lorre_M_large.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Peter_Lorre_M_large.jpg\" alt=\"Peter_Lorre_M_large\" width=\"900\" height=\"507\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86477\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Peter_Lorre_M_large.jpg 900w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Peter_Lorre_M_large-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Peter_Lorre_M_large-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Peter_Lorre_M_large-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 900px) 100vw, 900px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThere are more. Henry Fonda has a couple in <i>The Long Night<\/i>, the man considering himself, his crisis, his agony.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/the_long_night_03.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/the_long_night_03.jpg\" alt=\"the_long_night_03\" width=\"525\" height=\"402\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86478\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/the_long_night_03.jpg 525w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/the_long_night_03-100x76.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/the_long_night_03-200x153.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/the_long_night_03-400x306.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 525px) 100vw, 525px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n In the 70s, we have Rocky Balboa staring at himself and the childhood photos he has stuck in the mirror frame, wondering what will happen to him, to his dreams, to his life. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/rocky23.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/rocky23.jpg\" alt=\"rocky23\" width=\"974\" height=\"572\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86479\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/rocky23.jpg 974w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/rocky23-100x58.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/rocky23-200x117.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/rocky23-400x234.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 974px) 100vw, 974px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nMartin Sheen has an unforgettable moment with a mirror in <i>Apocalypse Now<\/i>, when he is drunk and flailing around, and he punches his own reflection, smashing the mirror and cutting his hand. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/tumblr_mrykuhHOeV1qg4blro1_500.gif\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/tumblr_mrykuhHOeV1qg4blro1_500.gif\" alt=\"tumblr_mrykuhHOeV1qg4blro1_500\" width=\"500\" height=\"211\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86480\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nIt became almost a requirement for movie actors in the 70s to have a big &#8220;let me consider myself in the mirror&#8221; moment. And again, when women look at themselves in the mirror in cinema, they do not look at themselves like this. Their reflections are to be perfected, quickly, practically, a dab of powder, a bit of lipstick, and then on with your day. But men when they catch a glimpse? They stop in their tracks. <\/p>\n<p>In <i>American Gigolo<\/i>, Richard Gere is always surrounded by mirrors, a perfect example of his almost-feminine brand of narcissism.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/americangigolo.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/americangigolo.jpg\" alt=\"americangigolo\" width=\"550\" height=\"370\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86481\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/americangigolo.jpg 550w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/americangigolo-100x67.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/americangigolo-200x134.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/americangigolo-400x269.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 550px) 100vw, 550px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nWhen Julian (Richard Gere) looks at himself in the mirror, what he is doing is more in the feminine vein: he is perfecting his mask, and glorying in his own perfection.  That entire performance is a revelation, and extremely androgynous, bringing us more into Dean Winchester territory.  The blend of masculine and feminine, the &#8220;Smudge&#8221;, as it were, is strong, and he is judged for it, he is an outlaw, but it is also the only way for someone like him to go.  Gere has a glorious private-moment scene where he picks out his clothes, dances around, and checks himself out in the mirror. Here, he behaves like a stereotypical woman (no judgment: we&#8217;re talking about stories and how they are told).  It&#8217;s a beautiful scene, one of the best in the film, and <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=28259\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">represents some of Gere&#8217;s best work<\/a>. <\/p>\n<p>So anyway, I will return to this theme: Dean Staring at Himself. It&#8217;s important.<br \/>\n<big>I&#8217;m Starting With the Man in the Mirror. I&#8217;m Asking Him to Change His Ways. No Message Could Have Been Any Clearer.<\/big><\/p>\n<p><big>2nd scene<\/big><br \/>\nDean stands in the shadowy hospital room, watching over himself, and Sam, battered and bruised, comes rushing in, right past Dean. Dean, although he certainly &#8220;gets&#8221; that somehow he is split off, forgets. I mean, wouldn&#8217;t you? You&#8217;d still try to communicate. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i14.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i14.jpg\" alt=\"i14\" width=\"848\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86364\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i14.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i14-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i14-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i14-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nAs far as Dean knew, all three of them had been killed. But here&#8217;s Sam, on his feet, in the room. Jared Padalecki&#8217;s work is wonderful in this episode as well. The struggles of Sam, his divided loyalties, or, at least, his ability to see outside of the Winchester Belljar\u2026 all come to a head here, as he finds himself the sole dude standing in his battered family.  John is clearly doing better health-wise than Dean, but Sam&#8217;s entire focus is on Dean, Dean, the big brother who can be so obnoxious but who &#8220;means well&#8221; (as people say again and again). Sam&#8217;s face throughout, gentle and scarred and thoughtful, is eloquent of what Dean means to him and what support like that has done for his life. I mean, you could also say to some extent that it has ruined Sam&#8217;s life \u2026 but that&#8217;s not the only side of it and that&#8217;s certainly not what Sam is present to as he looks down at Dean.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i16.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i16.jpg\" alt=\"i16\" width=\"844\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86367\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i16.jpg 844w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i16-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i16-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i16-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 844px) 100vw, 844px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nGreat effect: we see Dean hovering behind Sam, talking to him (and unheard), and then Dean leaves the frame, and the camera moves down so we see Dean lying in a coma.  It&#8217;s so elegant, so beautifully set up you barely notice how cool it is.  As Sam stares down at his brother, Dean anxiously stands off to the side, talking to Sam, nervous, trapped in his own dimension. He&#8217;s frustrated: &#8220;Come on, you&#8217;re the psychic!&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p>The doctor enters saying, &#8220;Your father is awake.&#8221; Sam turns into a gigantic super-dark closeup, with Dean a blur in the background, a classic Kim Manners shot, and the real LOOK of <em>Supernatural <\/em>in these early seasons. Shots like these operate on multiple levels:<br \/>\n1. They tell the story from an emotional standpoint. It&#8217;s not &#8220;objective,&#8221; it is entirely &#8220;subjective.&#8221;<br \/>\n2. They prioritize BOTH guys as equally important. It&#8217;s THEIR story. Whatever news comes at them, we need to see the reactions &#8211; in the same moment &#8211; from both of them. It&#8217;s juicy juicy, in terms of behavior. Two for the price of one.<br \/>\n3. It creates a mood, a dark and somber mood, especially with those damn shadows. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i15.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i15.jpg\" alt=\"i15\" width=\"845\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86365\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i15.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i15-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i15-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i15-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nDean is visibly relieved to hear his father is okay, and alive, but Sam&#8217;s reaction is more guarded. We&#8217;ll see that throughout. Sam has the protection of, oh, Being Alive. And &#8220;Corporeal,&#8221; a situation you take for granted until it is taken from you.  Dean, on the other hand, is all emotion. <\/p>\n<p>The doctor gives his pretty bleak diagnosis about Dean&#8217;s condition. Dean looks on, worried and afraid. Dean in the bed is shot like a gorgeous El Greco priest. Sam, half in shadow half in light, is as beautiful as he ever gets, even with the busted-up face. The emotion there. The power of listening, and how so often listening is connected to objective in acting &#8211; the two most important things (which I wrote about before, especially in terms of Padalecki, in <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=81262\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">&#8220;Nightmare.&#8221;<\/a>) <\/p>\n<p>The doctor is truthful and says that they won&#8217;t know more until he wakes up \u2026 &#8220;if he wakes up.&#8221;  It takes Sam a little bit to take those words in (reminiscent of his gorgeous moment with the doctor in &#8220;Faith,&#8221;) and meanwhile, Dean, off to the side, balks at this, protesting, &#8220;Screw you, doc. I&#8217;m waking up!&#8221; As Sam contemplates the doctor&#8217;s words, Dean understandably gets nervous that Sam will stop fighting for him, that he will say, &#8220;Okay, then I&#8217;ll just sit here and watch over him \u2026&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i18.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i18.jpg\" alt=\"i18\" width=\"846\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86366\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i18.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i18-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i18-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i18-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nAbandonment is the theme here for Dean. Please do not abandon me in my time of dying. Those Led Z lyrics again. And yet there&#8217;s that deeper level, the existential one, about Life and Death.  When it&#8217;s time to die, it&#8217;s time to die.  Of course the Winchesters constantly mess with that truth, and one could even make the case that their lives are so difficult BECAUSE they cannot accept death. It&#8217;s like they&#8217;ve been through so much, all in those formative childhood years, that there&#8217;s a flat-out resistance to any more pain. Dean has that going on in a more acute form than Sam, because Dean &#8220;took it on the chin&#8221; as a child with the death of Mom and Dad&#8217;s transformation into a drill sergeant. But both of them have a hard time letting go. <\/p>\n<p>Dean urgently says to Sam across his own coma-ed out body, &#8220;Come on, Sam, go find some hoodoo priest to lay his mojo on me.&#8221; Dean is then moved out of the frame as the camera goes in so close to Jared that it is inconceivable they could get any closer. Because we want Sam to hear Dean. But Sam is listening to the doctor. And who knows what Sam is aware of. Death has a way of blurring the boundaries. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i19.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i19.jpg\" alt=\"i19\" width=\"848\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86369\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i19.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i19-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i19-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i19-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>That enormous closeup of Sam is then bluntly interrupted by a gigantic closeup of a wallet, and huge hairy-knuckled fingers drawing out a card with some difficulty. Then there is John, handing his insurance card to Sam. It&#8217;s a great cut. It jumps us from one room to the other. It does so without those pesky &#8220;establishing shots,&#8221; which I go on so much about, where we see the room in its entirety and the placement of the characters in said room, before we go in close.  <em>Supernatural <\/em>doesn&#8217;t work that way. Cutting from Sam&#8217;s huge face to Dad&#8217;s huge wallet is emotional and strange, it keeps us on our toes, it destabilizes our understanding of the environment. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i20.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i20.jpg\" alt=\"i20\" width=\"845\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86370\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i20.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i20-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i20-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i20-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>The following is an amazing scene in conception and execution. It&#8217;s a scene that looks very different once all the secrets have been revealed. And the mystery of Morgan&#8217;s performance is that he is both playing it and NOT playing it. In other words, a master poker-face. The performance actually seems to change, each time I watch it. <\/p>\n<p>The short of it is: Sam wants to help Dean. John does too but tries to talk Sam down from impulsive action. John tells him to go retrieve the Colt. Oh, and to also have Bobby pick up some hippie-herbs.  Sam asks about the demon&#8217;s comment. John point-blank lies. Ghost-Dean witnesses the whole thing.  So that&#8217;s a lot of shit to get through in a scene that barely lasts a minute.  <\/p>\n<p>The scene also includes:<br \/>\n&#8212; charcoal-black shadows, dim blue shades<br \/>\n&#8212; a panoply of gorgeous wounds all over the three men<\/p>\n<p>Sam glances at the card, and grins slightly, &#8220;Elroy McGillicuddy?&#8221; The smile on John&#8217;s face is faint, acknowledging the absurdity of, well, their whole damn lives. &#8220;And his two loving sons,&#8221; replies John, which makes me think I need to get on that insurance plan pronto.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i21.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i21.jpg\" alt=\"i21\" width=\"853\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86371\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i21.jpg 853w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i21-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i21-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i21-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 853px) 100vw, 853px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThe best thing about Morgan&#8217;s work in the episode, and the most difficult thing, is how <i>layered<\/i> it is. He&#8217;s operating on a secretive layer, and it is just as complex and hard-to-pin-down as what was going on in <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=84585\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">&#8220;Dead Man&#8217;s Blood&#8221;<\/a> or &#8220;Devil&#8217;s Trap.&#8221; I think most of this is because John is not the protagonist. We see him through the conflicted confused eyes of his sons. He almost acts as a <i>projection<\/i>, and that is no small feat for an actor. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i22.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i22.jpg\" alt=\"i22\" width=\"850\" height=\"470\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86373\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i22.jpg 850w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i22-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i22-200x110.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i22-400x221.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 850px) 100vw, 850px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nJohn asks Sam for an update on Dean. Sam says they should &#8220;look for a hoodoo priest to lay some mojo on him,&#8221; so psychic-Boy is clearly getting some message from Beyond. John is not too gung-ho, but the way Morgan plays it you ache to know what the hell is going on with him.  You could certainly float out interpretations, and I sure as hell will, but there is always more to discover.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i23.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i23.jpg\" alt=\"i23\" width=\"848\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86372\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i23.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i23-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i23-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i23-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nIn my first viewing, I thought that John was putting the brakes on Sam, because HE wanted to be the one in charge, which we have seen from him repeatedly, especially when it comes to Sam. But even with that simple explanation, there are layers.  He &#8220;knows&#8221; about Sam. And so maybe he doesn&#8217;t want Sam in charge of jack-squat. If Dean has to die, then Dean has to die.  You could also say that John was being realistic with Sam, trying to manage Sam&#8217;s expectations for Dean, although I think the case for that is weaker. But it&#8217;s still there.  <\/p>\n<p>John says, &#8220;We&#8217;ll look for someone. But Sam. I don&#8217;t know if we&#8217;re gonna find anyone.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>Sam, not afraid or cowed in the same way Dean would be from a similar comment, says, &#8220;Why not? I found that faith healer before.&#8221; And yes, that went really well, didn&#8217;t it!<\/p>\n<p>Kim Manners has now chosen to go in very close. We are in a classic close-up to close-up scene, and the colors are blue and black, the shadows soft and pliable, spreading across their faces. They have beautiful wounds, and the wounds tell the whole story of their ultimate fragility. They are not indestructible. They are not superheroes. They&#8217;re just people. <\/p>\n<p>Sam pushes back against John&#8217;s reticence, and John gets annoyed. &#8220;I said I&#8217;d check. I&#8217;ll look under every stone\u2026&#8221; and blah blah blah John Winchester, thanks for sharing. Sam doesn&#8217;t like it. He wants to get started NOW on Hoodoo-Priest-Search-Terms. But he is so accustomed to his father being &#8220;the Leader&#8221; that he doesn&#8217;t take that initiative (like he did in &#8220;Faith.&#8221;)  I find Sam so touching in this episode.<\/p>\n<p>After a pause, John glances at Sam, with a cunning glint in his eyes and says, &#8220;Where&#8217;s the Colt.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i24.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i24.jpg\" alt=\"i24\" width=\"849\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86374\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i24.jpg 849w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i24-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i24-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i24-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 849px) 100vw, 849px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nAh, the Colt. There are many things I miss in the more recent seasons, but one of the biggest things I miss is the Eternal Glamour and Mystery and Seduction of &#8220;The Colt.&#8221;  It made so much possible.  <\/p>\n<p>It makes what happens next possible.  Of course the Colt has a purpose in the plot, but its real purpose is to <i>drive the Winchesters mad<\/i> and <i>turn up the heat<\/i> under their conflicts and either <i>pit them against<\/i> one another or <i>bond them together<\/i>. It&#8217;s an extremely useful object. Because here it heats up the underlying tension between Sam and John, never far from the surface anyway. The Colt is the &#8220;excuse&#8221; for Sam to call his dad out. &#8220;Your son is <i>dying<\/i>, and you&#8217;re worried about the Colt?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>So John re-caps the urgency, they need the Colt, the demon might be looking for them, and it&#8217;s all quite logical, albeit a little bit cold.  Sam says it&#8217;s the trunk of the Impala which had been dragged to a junk yard. John orders Sam to go get it, because what if someone looks in the trunk, and Sam says he already called Bobby. Bobby&#8217;s on his way to retrieve the Impala and drag it back to his Palace.  <\/p>\n<p>I find that small exchange extremely anxiety-provoking. My first boyfriend treated me like that, grilling me, and telling me to do stuff <i>that I had already done<\/i>. &#8220;Make sure you blah blah blah.&#8221; &#8220;I did.&#8221; &#8220;Okay, but did you make sure to blah blah beforehand?&#8221; No matter what I said, I came up lacking. And he would grill me until he found the one thing I hadn&#8217;t done. Why I put up with it for four years is inconceivable to me. It&#8217;s why I was anti-relationship and staunchly so for \u2026 Jeez, 15 years?  It&#8217;s so subtle, the exchange about the Colt and the Impala, and could be perceived in a sheer informational way, but every time I see it I remember being treated like that constantly. It makes you feel helpless. And eventually you find yourself in a state of <a href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Learned_helplessness\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">&#8220;learned helplessness,&#8221;<\/a> another way to label &#8220;depression.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>John tells Sam to go meet up with Bobby and gives him a laundry list of other instructions, and instead of responding like an emotionless drone (which is perhaps what is required, or certainly the most &#8220;relaxing&#8221; for John), Sam grins a little bit at all of it and says, &#8220;I think I got it covered.&#8221; He says it quietly, even politely, but look at John&#8217;s reaction. Again, you could put a label on it, saying &#8220;Here is what this moment IS&#8221;, but Sheila don&#8217;t swing that way.  The moment gets wider and deeper the more I look at it and consider it. It&#8217;s like John Wayne&#8217;s famous closeup in <i>The Searchers<\/i> (one of the most famous closeups in American cinema.)  In an interview with Peter Bogdanovich, Bogdanovich asked Wayne about that moment. <\/p>\n<blockquote><p><b>Peter Bogdanovich<\/b>: One of the most memorable moments of any picture I\u2019ve seen you in is a silent moment in The Searchers. After you see what\u2019s been done to the white women, there\u2019s a close-up of you, camera moves in \u2013<\/p>\n<p><b>John Wayne<\/b>: I turn back. Terrific shot. Helluva shot. And everybody can put their own thoughts to it. You\u2019re not forced to think one way or the other.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>I think it&#8217;s important to mention this, not because it&#8217;s fascinating (although it is) but also to just indicate where I&#8217;m coming from.  That in-between state, the rejection of &#8220;either\/or&#8221; analysis, the embrace of the murky grey areas in the no-man&#8217;s-land between people, The Smudge \u2026 that&#8217;s what I&#8217;m into, that&#8217;s what <i>Supernatural<\/i> does so well. It, more than anything else, is why the fans love to discuss the show.  It&#8217;s why I thought the final moment of <i>The Sopranos<\/i> was so fucking brilliant. It forced people to deal with ambiguity. It forced people to <i>not know<\/i> and sit in that uncomfortable not-knowing.  And yeah, there were people who tried to back up the case for what they thought happened  \u2026 but in the end, it was an interpretation only. There were some who could not bear that ambiguity: &#8220;It is OBVIOUS Tony died, because of this this and this.&#8221; And I don&#8217;t care what the creator says about it. And I don&#8217;t care about the backstage stories about why a certain thing was chosen or done that way. Because once it&#8217;s onscreen and out in the world, it&#8217;s MINE. It&#8217;s YOURS. It no longer belongs to those who created it.<\/p>\n<p><b>Edited to add<\/b>: Not that interpretation is bad! It&#8217;s that there really are some situations where you just can&#8217;t know for sure, and that&#8217;s the fun of it.  <\/p>\n<p>Sam gets up to leave, and John stops him, holding out a strip of paper with some things for Bobby to pick up. Sam scans the list, and asks what it&#8217;s for, and John says, &#8220;Protection.&#8221; Watch him nod as he says it.  Great. <\/p>\n<p>So far all they&#8217;ve talked about is the present crisis. The horror from the cabin, with the drooling Yellow-Eyed demon hasn&#8217;t been mentioned at all. And Sam mentions it now.  &#8220;The demon said he had plans for me and the children like me. Do you have any idea what he meant by that?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>John shakes his head and says, &#8220;No.&#8221; It&#8217;s another moment I never get sick of watching. <\/p>\n<p>Sam leaves, and the camera moves in on Morgan&#8217;s profile, as close as it can get, and as it circles, we suddenly see Dean, a blur in his white T-shirt in the background, arms crossed, looking over at his father. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i26.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i26.jpg\" alt=\"i26\" width=\"848\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86375\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i26.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i26-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i26-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i26-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nHe has not been visible for the entire scene. One can only imagine his thoughts. It&#8217;s almost like the best opportunity ever, to actually get some distance from his father so that he can try to PERCEIVE him, without being present.  John keeps Dean on such a short leash, emotionally. Or, to be even clearer: Dean has been so well-trained that he now keeps himself on a short leash. All of that is loosened in &#8220;In My Time of Dying,&#8221; which is eloquent in and of itself, of the hold John has over Dean (we can clearly see that merely in its ABSENCE).  John, left alone in the bed, or so he thinks, is deep in thought, and then, whoosh, the focus shifts so Dad goes blurry and Dean comes into focus. (I love it when <i>Supernatural<\/i> does that. It could be seen as a &#8220;tic&#8221; of the show, a compulsive stylistic choice, but I love it.) Dean is now revealed, having been there all along, and he stands there, arms folded, and while the look on his face is accusatory, suspicious, his body still has that almost frail aspect to it. The way his arms are crossed, the way his arms are revealed. He&#8217;s half in shadow. It&#8217;s a great shot: Tightly controlled, and yet with tons of space for the intense emotions.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i27.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i27.jpg\" alt=\"i27\" width=\"848\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86376\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i27.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i27-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i27-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i27-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><big>3rd scene<\/big><br \/>\nSam with the blasted lit sky behind him. Out in the world again. Out of the shadowed cloister of the hospital (and the family unit). He moves forward, and Bobby is revealed in the frame, and Sam says, &#8220;Oh man. Dean is gonna be pissed.&#8221; (It&#8217;s a line I love for a lot of reasons. It&#8217;s optimistic: Dean will clearly get better so that he will have an opportunity to be pissed. And also just a clear acknowledgement of how much Dean loves that damn car. It&#8217;s just so brotherly &#8211; like the great little &#8220;Let it go&#8221; moment in <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=77642\">&#8220;Skin.&#8221;<\/a> Dean is, in many ways, un-knowable \u2026 to most people, who only get the Burlesque Act &#8211; and for good reason. But Sam &#8220;gets&#8221; to know him.)<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i28.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i28.jpg\" alt=\"i28\" width=\"843\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86377\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i28.jpg 843w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i28-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i28-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i28-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 843px) 100vw, 843px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nIt&#8217;s also awesome how immediately Bobby has become an important part of the <i>Supernatural<\/i> world. It&#8217;s as though he has always been there. Pastor Jim has vanished from memory. Bobby is the go-to guy now. And the character is so perfectly drawn, that seemingly all Jim Beaver needs to do is step into the guy&#8217;s shoes. Of course there was a lot more thought to it than that, but you don&#8217;t see that thought. You just see the end result, which is a well-lived-in well-worn character who has known the boys always, and has an access to their inner lives which gives him permission to speak plainly. It&#8217;s almost a RELIEF. Jeez, let some air into that belljar, will ya? <\/p>\n<p>And by way of contrast: Bobby is an older male. Sam and Dean, both so dominated by that OTHER older male, can actually relax in the presence of an older male who doesn&#8217;t make them feel like incompetent kids. And yet he also has that paternal interest in them.  He is able to love them without trying to control or shame them. We&#8217;re only 22 episodes into this damn thing and Bobby is such a relief.  <\/p>\n<p>The scene here is short. 5, maybe 6 lines. But again, a hell of a lot &#8220;gets done&#8221; here. <\/p>\n<p>We see the completely totaled Impala. One is amazed that anybody survived that noise. <\/p>\n<p>Bobby is like, &#8220;Sell the thing for scraps,&#8221; all as Sam reaches into the backseat and pulls out the completely destroyed laptop with the great band stickers on it.  I love continuity in props. It takes a lot for a team to track these objects, and they know that any tiny mistake will be LEAPT upon by the teeming hordes. Sam says, and again my heart melts, &#8220;Dean&#8217;d kill me if we did that &#8211; when he gets better, he&#8217;s gonna wanna fix this.&#8221; It&#8217;s all hopeful language. <\/p>\n<p>Bobby still thinks it&#8217;s not worth the trouble. There&#8217;s nothing left to be rebuilt. There&#8217;s nothing left to save. He&#8217;s thinking practically. But Sam says, &#8220;Listen to me, even if there&#8217;s only one working part, that&#8217;s enough. We&#8217;re not just gonna give up \u2026&#8221; and Padalecki manages to trail it off, leaving the &#8220;on Dean&#8221; unspoken but just as loud as if he had said it. And Bobby gets the message. Bobby hears Sam&#8217;s words, takes in Sam&#8217;s face, and then nods. &#8220;Okay.&#8221;  It&#8217;s such a relief to see a character come into their world who treats them with respect. You realize how rare it has been. <\/p>\n<p>Sam hands Bobby the list of woo-woo crap from John. Sam might have assumed that this would be no big deal, a simple errand-run, but Bobby says, &#8220;What&#8217;d John want with this?&#8221; Sam says, &#8220;Protection from the demon\u2026&#8221; and Bobby looks right at Sam, without a word, and something about Bobby&#8217;s face strikes a note of alarm. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i30.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i30.jpg\" alt=\"i30\" width=\"847\" height=\"471\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86378\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i30.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i30-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i30-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i30-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nI love it that Bobby is incapable of lying. We&#8217;ll see it again and again. He is also an excellent con-man, his entire lifestyle is a &#8220;front&#8221; for something else, but in these simple emotional moments, his heart is always on his sleeve. He&#8217;s like Dean in that way. Sam says, &#8220;What is it.&#8221; And Bobby gives a lie a soldier&#8217;s try, &#8220;Nothing \u2026&#8221; Sam interrupts. &#8220;Bobby. What&#8217;s going on.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Then we cut to the next scene, but the beautiful thing about the moment is that Bobby obviously spills the beans. He does not &#8220;protect&#8221; John or lie for John. He informs Sam of the real purpose of those ingredients, because Bobby is a knowledge-sharer, not a withholder. The more you know, the better you are able to protect yourself. It is better to see what is coming. John has never treated knowledge in that way. I would imagine most of the rank-and-file hunters are similar to John. They seem like a cagey suspicious bunch, and Bobby is the anomaly.  There&#8217;s a reason why Bobby would become the veritable call-center for a group of trusted hunters. He shares what he knows. In the world of <i>Supernatural<\/i>, that is a big big deal.  <\/p>\n<p><big>4th scene<\/big><br \/>\nA powerhouse of a scene which then effortlessly morphs into something else, the Monster-of-the-Week plot, but here, there is no delineation between the two story lines. They are one and the same. As the series goes on, that blending is more often the case than not, so that two-brothers-on-the-road-killing-monsters may have been the initial idea, but we certainly can&#8217;t say that that&#8217;s what the show became!<\/p>\n<p>We have never seen Dean alone with his father. We have had a nice juicy scene between Sam and his dad, in &#8220;Dead Man&#8217;s Blood,&#8221; but we have not had the equivalent with Dean. Sam has always been in the room, or there, as a witness, an onlooker, a fellow participant.  You know, it&#8217;s interesting, but hockey player Mike Eruzione, who made the goal &#8220;heard round the world&#8221; in the 1980 Olympics, said decades later that as much as he revered coach Herb Brooks, he said he would still feel uncomfortable and intimidated if he were alone in a room with Herb Brooks. To Eruzione, even as a middle-aged man, Herb Brooks was still his coach. He would still be trying to live up to Brooks&#8217; expectations. Eruzione wasn&#8217;t complaining. He idolized the man. But it speaks to the power that some people have, and Herb Brooks obviously used his power for good. Ahem.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Sports_Illustrated_Miracle_on_Ice_cover.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Sports_Illustrated_Miracle_on_Ice_cover.jpg\" alt=\"Sports_Illustrated_Miracle_on_Ice_cover\" width=\"300\" height=\"395\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86379\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Sports_Illustrated_Miracle_on_Ice_cover.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Sports_Illustrated_Miracle_on_Ice_cover-75x100.jpg 75w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Sports_Illustrated_Miracle_on_Ice_cover-151x200.jpg 151w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>But I imagine the same might be true if Dean and his dad were left alone together. There wouldn&#8217;t be a hell of a lot of talking going on, and certainly not about feelings or anything ambiguous. It would have been interesting, though, to see such a scene.<\/p>\n<p>Here, though, we see Dean lying in his coma, with John as a dark shadow on the side, sitting by the bed. (Morgan looks like Raul Julia, for some reason, in this scene.) The camera moves around behind Jeffrey Dean Morgan so his black blob takes up the whole screen, and when it circles around to the other side, we see Dean again, only this time Non-Corporeal Dean. It&#8217;s a lovely effect. John is gloomy, stoic, and still. Dean looks on at his father. There&#8217;s almost a \u2026 what should I call it \u2026 shyness in how Dean talks to his dad at first. There&#8217;s a pleading. But it&#8217;s also shy, because this is not the dynamic he had with his father in his real life. <\/p>\n<p>And Dean is so hurt that his father is just <i>sitting there<\/i>.<\/p>\n<p>One would HOPE that if you were somehow &#8220;looking on&#8221; at your parent in a similar situation, that you would not see your parent sitting there like a lump, but instead, they would be behaving something like this:<\/p>\n<p><iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"560\" height=\"315\" src=\"\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/A1AIroyiLEM\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>Dean says, and there are so many beats you could get whiplash:<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>Come on, Dad. You gotta help me. I gotta get better. I gotta back in there. You haven&#8217;t called a soul for help. You haven&#8217;t even tried. Aren&#8217;t you gonna do anything? Aren&#8217;t you even gonna say anything? I&#8217;ve done everything you ever asked me. Everything. I&#8217;ve given everything I&#8217;ve ever had, and you&#8217;re just gonna sit there and you&#8217;re just gonna watch me die? What the hell kind of father are you?<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>It&#8217;s stunning. Stunning acting work, of course, but also stunning considering Dean&#8217;s Season 1 mantra to Sam of &#8220;Our childhood wasn&#8217;t that bad.&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p><big>More on Survival Techniques, to Beat a Dead Horse<\/big><br \/>\nI don&#8217;t <i>blame<\/i> Dean for propping up and defending his version of events. Besides, I don&#8217;t relate to fictional characters in that way, on the whole. Especially not if I find them interesting. It&#8217;s why I am annoyed by comments in re: films\/books that someone didn&#8217;t like whatever it is because the lead character wasn&#8217;t &#8220;likable&#8221;. So \u2026 you don&#8217;t &#8220;like&#8221; Captain Ahab, I&#8217;m assuming. But Jeez, he&#8217;s a hell of a character, right? You certainly couldn&#8217;t &#8220;like&#8221; Barbara Stanwyck in a lot of her movies, but damn, you couldn&#8217;t take your eyes off of her. It&#8217;s just a minor pet peeve of mine, especially when it is used to reject a movie or TV show or character: &#8220;I just couldn&#8217;t relate to the lead character.&#8221; Ugh. I find <i>Supernatural<\/i> to be far richer than that, and the whole point is that how you feel about it depends on where you are standing.  It&#8217;s why I fluctuate and flow back and forth, sometimes multiple times in one scene. And why certain Arcs, like Sam as Soulless, or Sam with Ruby, or the Gordon Arc coming up, are so deeply satisfying to me story-wise.  The characters can only &#8220;show up&#8221; properly when they are faced with obstacles. Storytelling 101.  But back to Dean: survival techniques like Dean&#8217;s are there for a reason. It&#8217;s not for Sam or anyone else to say, &#8220;You shouldn&#8217;t survive things in this particular way because it&#8217;s unhealthy.&#8221; That&#8217;s true with Dean&#8217;s promiscuity, and even the booze, and all the rest of his Burlesque Act. I honestly think Dean handles most shit just fine. As I&#8217;ve said, my filter for him is not &#8220;victim&#8221; but &#8220;survivor,&#8221; mainly BECAUSE of that identification factor I&#8217;ve got with aspects of him, especially this particular one. Not all life SHOULD be a &#8220;chick flick moment&#8221; if &#8220;chick flick moment&#8221; means &#8220;Please stop having any boundaries and please talk about feelings, even when you don&#8217;t want to or when the very thought of that is threatening.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i33.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i33.jpg\" alt=\"i33\" width=\"848\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86380\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i33.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i33-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i33-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i33-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nSo all of this is to say: having gotten to know Dean through Season 1, and having gotten to know how he handles things and reacts to things, his monologue here is even more of a stunner. The beauty of it is that we have <i>sensed<\/i> those feelings in him from the get-go. That is the depth of Ackles&#8217; portrayal and understanding of the character. It&#8217;s not about anger. Or not just about anger. Dean is actually quite slow to anger.  Sam&#8217;s much quicker to rage out. Dean keeps his shit together. It&#8217;s not so much tears or sadness that threaten Dean&#8217;s psychological house of cards. It&#8217;s rage. Once he lets himself feel even just a tiny bit of the rage, from the unfairness at how his father treated him \u2026 then that rage will come flooding into him as tall as a skyscraper and will wipe out everything in its path. And so of course one doesn&#8217;t want to feel anger. It will come out in other ways. A lot is &#8220;handled&#8221; by the sheer activity and violence of the hunter&#8217;s life. It&#8217;s a good channel for all that stuff. Or, not a channel, but a release valve.  Dean can deal with vulnerability far easier than he can deal with rage.  It&#8217;s one of those easily-missed aspects of his character, because he is so firmly placed in that out-of-style Iconic Tough Guy Tradition (I babbled on about that in the &#8220;Devil&#8217;s Trap&#8221; re-cap). One might mistake him for a hothead. One would be wrong. And anger at his father? Absolutely forbidden.<br \/>\n<big>I&#8217;ll Try to Stop Now<\/big><\/p>\n<p>The monologue here, despite Dad&#8217;s presence, is Dean to Himself. It&#8217;s practically a soliloquy in the classical sense. And this is the Season 2 opener. Brill.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i34.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i34.jpg\" alt=\"i34\" width=\"845\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86381\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i34.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i34-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i34-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i34-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n&#8220;What kind of father are you?&#8221; He feels unacknowledged. He IS unacknowledged. He has done &#8220;everything&#8221; his father has &#8220;ever asked.&#8221; And that fact has been ignored. Sam got out. John would haunt the Stanford campus making sure Sam was okay. But Dean? By his side? <em>What about me? I&#8217;m right here. What about me?<\/em>  It&#8217;s all there in that monologue.  And it&#8217;s just the tip of the iceberg.  <\/p>\n<p>And just to note: the shots of Morgan, intercut with Dean&#8217;s monologue, are stunning. There&#8217;s one where only his head emerges in a tiny pool of light, the shadows streaming behind him filling the screen. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i31.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i31.jpg\" alt=\"i31\" width=\"848\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86382\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i31.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i31-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i31-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i31-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i32.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i32.jpg\" alt=\"i32\" width=\"846\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86383\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i32.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i32-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i32-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i32-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nI miss you, Raul Julia.<\/p>\n<p>We see him as Dean sees him for sure, but in multiple viewings, if you can ignore Dean&#8217;s dazzle (no other word for it, he&#8217;s a scene-stealer just by showing up), there&#8217;s all kinds of stuff going on in Morgan&#8217;s face, none of which is easily explained.  It just IS. It&#8217;s like Mount Rushmore. There is an expression there, but it is also opaque, and what it MEANS depends on what you&#8217;re looking for. I&#8217;ve seen despair there, I&#8217;ve seen a sinister passivity, I&#8217;ve seen a cunning man with his brain click-click-clicking, I&#8217;ve seen apathy.  <\/p>\n<p>Dean&#8217;s focus on his dad is distracted by sensing something in the Force.  A rumbling, something happening. He moves to the door and then this light whirling being kind of races by, startling Dean (I love his physical reaction, especially when you consider <i>there ain&#8217;t nothing actually there<\/i> and Ackles is reacting to <i>jack-squat<\/i> in reality.)  But it&#8217;s clearly some kind of spirit and it reminds me of some of the ghosties whirling through Manhattan in <i>Ghostbusters<\/i>, although I know <i>Supernatural<\/i> is supposed to be serious.  Dean, still not used to being basically invisible, looks back at his dad for confirmation, realizes he&#8217;s on his own, and sets off to investigate.<\/p>\n<p>I just love how the hospital is so damn dark. I mean, how would nurses even function in that gloom? The hallways are filled with people, none of whom react to Dean as he hustles by.  Please note one awesome camera move: the camera follows him down the hallway from behind, then overtakes him around the side, circling around and pulling back, so we see him from the front. It took them 4 hours to get it right. This is NOTHING compared to the unbroken take that starts out &#8220;Simon Said,&#8221; later in Season 2, when Sam and Dean enter the roadhouse and the camera dances and swoops and swirls and circles, and seriously, I would love to hear how long that one took, because there were three characters involved, Jo, Dean, and Sam, and all of them had lines. Crazy complex and very sexy.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i35.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i35.jpg\" alt=\"i35\" width=\"846\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86384\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i35.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i35-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i35-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i35-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nBut all of that camera action serves a purpose, making things feel urgent and confusing, whereas up until now we&#8217;ve had some pretty formal and static framing.  Dean follows the swooping green ghostie into a room and stops, seeing a nurse (Carrie Fleming) lying on the stark tile, choking to death.  Her body is wracked in spasms, she tries to call for help (and Fleming does a hell of a job). It&#8217;s pretty brutal and Dean the empath is crushed and terrified, calling for help down the hall. Naturally his cry is ignored and Dean rushes to the woman&#8217;s side, helpless. She dies right there, her eyes open and in agony. The closeup of him. The cut on his forehead. The white T-shirt. It&#8217;s his susceptibility and softness and vulnerability, highlighted, underlined.  It&#8217;s always been there, it&#8217;s where the character operates from, but here \u2026 all barriers are ripped away. He takes this woman&#8217;s death personally.  It is not abstract to him. He can&#8217;t disconnect. NOTHING is abstract to Dean. He cares about <i>everything<\/i>. No wonder he drinks.<\/p>\n<p><big>5th scene<\/big><br \/>\nAn awesome three-way scene between Sam, John and Dean, made even better by the fact that Dean is THERE, but Sam and John can&#8217;t see him. Yet half the time they&#8217;re all crowded into the same frame, and there&#8217;s an argument going on, reminiscent of the one by the side of the road in &#8220;Dead Man&#8217;s Blood,&#8221; with Sam and John ripping into each other and Dean trying to stop it, calling in lines from off-screen like, &#8220;Stop it!&#8221; It&#8217;s the exact same structure. Only for Dean it&#8217;s even more horrible because neither of them can hear him. It could be seen as a reminder that his family really does need him, and without him around they can&#8217;t wait to tear each other apart. <\/p>\n<p>Sam comes storming into John&#8217;s room, and goes to the window first, Dean hustling into Sam&#8217;s space from the side, talking urgently about the ghostie he saw, and there&#8217;s something in the hospital and they have to hunt it. Sam is in total blackness, Dean half-lit, and it&#8217;s a creepy and good-looking shot.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i37.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i37.jpg\" alt=\"i37\" width=\"847\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86388\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i37.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i37-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i37-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i37-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nJohn, lying in bed, says to Sam, &#8220;You&#8217;re quiet,&#8221; and that&#8217;s Sam&#8217;s cue. He hurls the duffel bag down onto John&#8217;s bed and lays into him, armed with the knowledge from Bobby. There&#8217;s also anger there that John lied right to his face. &#8220;Protection.&#8221; How <i>dare<\/i> he. Also how <i>dare<\/i> he be thinking about the demon instead of Dean? What is wrong with this man? It&#8217;s the hold-over from the conversation in the Impala at the end of Season 1, when Sam looks into the rear-view mirror at Dean and tells his father that no, killing the demon is not worth <i>everything<\/i>. Sam is HOT, man. He is FURIOUS. <\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You&#8217;re gonna summon the demon here for some stupid macho showdown!&#8221; Them&#8217;s fighting words, Sammy. John keeps his cool and says, &#8220;I have a plan,&#8221; which shoots Sam through the roof: &#8220;Dean is DYING. And you have a PLAN.&#8221; Dean, meanwhile, has slowly followed Sam over. He is unseen by both of them (it must have been a trip playing this scene for all parties involved), and seems vulnerable, like a little kid at the top of the stairs listening to his parents argue down below.  <\/p>\n<p>Sam is screaming, John interjecting, &#8220;Do not tell me how I feel&#8221; (which is so woman&#8217;s-magazine-ish it&#8217;s hilarious to me), and Dean hovering anxiously, a blur in the background, pleading offscreen, &#8220;No, no, no, guys, don&#8217;t do this.&#8221; John says, &#8220;I am doing this for Dean,&#8221; and Sam reads him the riot act: &#8220;How is revenge gonna help, Dean?&#8221; And look at Morgan&#8217;s face in response.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i38.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i38.jpg\" alt=\"i38\" width=\"844\" height=\"471\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86389\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i38.jpg 844w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i38-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i38-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i38-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 844px) 100vw, 844px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n It&#8217;s a hell of an expression. He looks almost taken aback by Sam&#8217;s fury and openness in expressing it. There&#8217;s adrenaline there, too. Fury. Dean, meanwhile, is the fluttering mother-hen, ignored on the sidelines, saying, again, &#8220;Come on, guys, please, don&#8217;t do this \u2026&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>John brings back the &#8220;obsession&#8221; comment from &#8220;Devil&#8217;s Trap,&#8221; (&#8220;Sam and I can get a little obsessed \u2026&#8221; &#8211; looping Sam in beside him in a way that leaves Dean out, although that comment is ostensibly a compliment, albeit all demon-bullshit.)  John seems to feel that Sam is a stronger ally, and more obsessed than Dean. Dean is the unthinking obedient grunt who just does what he is told.  John relies on and leans on Sam. At least that&#8217;s what these little moments suggest. John goes for the jugular: &#8220;I thought this was your obsession too. This demon killed your mother, killed your girlfriend. You begged me to be a part of this hunt.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>When was that exactly, John? When did Sam &#8220;beg&#8221; you?<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i41.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i41.jpg\" alt=\"i41\" width=\"843\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86391\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i41.jpg 843w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i41-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i41-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i41-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 843px) 100vw, 843px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThere are a couple of cutaways to Dean looking on, owning all of it, feeling all of it, wanting it to stop, it must stop, the fight must stop, stop stop stop stop.  And John says what had been on his mind all along &#8211; &#8220;If you had killed that thing when you had the chance none of this would have happened and your brother would be awake right now.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>Nice.  Nice work from you, John. <\/p>\n<p>John, with every word he speaks, goes into meaner waters. It&#8217;s how fights sometimes happen, obviously.  He wants to hurt Sam. There are tons of levels as to why. &#8220;I knew I should never have taken you along \u2026&#8221; and blah blah, now it&#8217;s all Sam&#8217;s fault. Sam very well might have leapt onto John and started strangling him if Dean hadn&#8217;t punched his way through to the human plane &#8211; screaming, &#8220;I SAID SHUT UP&#8221;, with a wildly flinging hand that knocks the glass of water off the food tray and onto the floor, shattering. <\/p>\n<p>Sam and John stop. Everyone stops. Sam and John look at the smashed glass of water. Look at each other. Dean is as surprised as anyone. He looks shocked at his own ability. Glances up at Sam and says, &#8220;Dude, I full on Swayze-d that mother.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i42.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i42.jpg\" alt=\"i42\" width=\"845\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86390\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i42.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i42-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i42-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i42-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nHe uses Swayze as a verb. Color me satisfied. <\/p>\n<p>Immediately following, however, as Sam and John remain silent, Dean starts to feel something happening to him. A weakening, a fizzling-out. He doesn&#8217;t know what is going on. It is bad. Real bad. He falls to his knees, his arms sort of hunched in over his belly, frozen, confused, and he starts to almost short-out, like he&#8217;s a television projection going into static. <\/p>\n<p>Meanwhile, there is a commotion down the hallway, the sense of people rushing somewhere, an emergency. John gestures for Sam to go check it out. <\/p>\n<p>Down the hall, we see Dean in his coma, from the God&#8217;s-eye Point of View. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i44.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i44.jpg\" alt=\"i44\" width=\"847\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86392\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i44.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i44-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i44-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i44-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nCovered in tubes, surrounded by people, who are trying to jolt him back to life.  Maybe they should turn the damn lights on so they can see what they are doing. Sam watches from the door, crying, and the camera moves slightly beyond him so we see Dean in the hallway, watching on as the team of doctors and nurses try to revive him and get his pulse back. He&#8217;s helpless. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i46.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i46.jpg\" alt=\"i46\" width=\"843\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86393\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i46.jpg 843w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i46-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i46-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i46-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 843px) 100vw, 843px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThen he sees the greenish ghostie hovering over his dead body, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=83673\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Shtriga-like<\/a>, and he shouts at it to get away from him. No response, all as Dean is being basically electrocuted on the table, so Dean runs forward, shouting, &#8220;I SAID STAY BACK.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>Fighting for his life. Knowing that his life is worth fighting for. Knowing that he&#8217;s the only one who can save himself. It&#8217;s not something that comes easily to Dean. He knows how to fight to survive an individual battle with a monster, but on that deeper existential level, the level of &#8220;I have a right to my space here&#8221; and &#8220;My life is actually worth something, to me, if no one else&#8221;, it is harder for him. It has already shown up in &#8220;Faith,&#8221; when he accepted his death in a blas\u00e9 manner, and it will come up again big-time for most of Season 3, where he treats his impending death as an excuse to have as much sex as he possibly can. Which is exactly what I would do, so, you know, no judgment. But to say, &#8220;I don&#8217;t want to die&#8221; or &#8220;Please help me to not die&#8221; \u2026 it&#8217;s almost impossible for him to demand that for himself.  This is all on Ackles to bring across and it&#8217;s a delicate balancing act.  Because if you only saw the coverup, it wouldn&#8217;t have that tragic depth, that humanity. And if all you saw was the &#8220;Please help me, I want to live&#8221; you&#8217;d be in sheer mopey melodrama land and you&#8217;d miss the Tough Guy Tradition from which he springs. <\/p>\n<p>All of this is coming from retrospect, really, from having seen 9 seasons. In my first viewing of &#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221; that wasn&#8217;t as much present for me, although somewhat, having seen him resist being healed in &#8220;Faith.&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p>But there was something thrilling and so bad-ass about how Dean attacked that spirit who hovered over his dead body. Dean had no idea what he was dealing with, no idea what it WAS, was totally alone with his knowledge of it, couldn&#8217;t talk to Sam about it, and yet he plunges forward and grabs onto it, kind of shocked that he actually CAN. That there is something to hold onto, his hand doesn&#8217;t go right through. The Ghostie is distracted, and turns to look directly at him, the force of which blows him back against the wall (Manners chooses to do that in beautiful balletic slo-mo. Slo-mo is not really the style of the show, and it&#8217;s very noticeable when it shows up. It&#8217;s gorgeous here.)  The Ghostie stares directly at him and then whooshes out of the room, Dean still blown back, and then turning, hurrying, to give chase. <\/p>\n<p>Meanwhile, we hear some nurse say, &#8220;We have a pulse again.&#8221; Glad you can determine that even in the pitch-blackness of the hospital room.<\/p>\n<p>Dean races out into the hallway, looking wildly up and down, there&#8217;s just something about his face in this one shot that gets to me. Because what we are seeing there is vulnerability, adrenaline, fear, and determination. The face is basically <i>blasted open<\/i>. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i47.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i47.jpg\" alt=\"i47\" width=\"846\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86394\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i47.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i47-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i47-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i47-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nI just want to point it out, because openness like that IS rare, even in an industry that prizes it so highly.  <\/p>\n<p>Sam remains at the door to Dean&#8217;s room, shaken, looking in at Dean in the bed.<\/p>\n<p>And here&#8217;s an awesome shot, an &#8220;effect&#8221;, done merely by having a body double in the bed and having Jensen Ackles scoot out of the frame when the camera turns away. And the effect is as good (or even better) than anything CGI-created.  It&#8217;s a shot that encompasses 270 degrees of a circle. It starts with Sam looking directly into the camera, and then the camera circles out to Sam&#8217;s right side so we see him in profile, and we see Dean approaching from down the hallway. As Dean speaks to Sam, the camera moves around behind Sam&#8217;s head and then over to Dean so we see Dean in profile, and then the camera moves back around, so we see Dean (aka Ackles&#8217; body double) through the doorway, and then back on Sam from the other side. Then the camera moves off down the hall, away from Sam, where Dean used to be, only now he is not there. It&#8217;s elegant. And emotional. Because in that last look of Sam&#8217;s, you know he sensed something. But the hallway is now empty.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i48.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i48.jpg\" alt=\"i48\" width=\"845\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86395\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i48.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i48-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i48-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i48-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Dean&#8217;s energy is now quiet, after the crisis has passed. He is back to himself. He has learned something very important about what he is hunting. He speaks to Sam quietly, saying, &#8220;Don&#8217;t worry, Sammy. I&#8217;m not going anywhere. I&#8217;m getting that thing before it gets me. It&#8217;s some kind of spirit but I could grab it. And if I can grab it I can kill it.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The fact that Reapers don&#8217;t occur to him is just something that makes him as human as the rest of us. Death is not possible. Death is wrong. Also, not NOW. Not NOW when his family is back together, when the fight is heating up, when Sam needs him, when Sam and his dad clearly need him to play interference. <\/p>\n<p><big>6th scene<\/big><br \/>\nDean is off, searching through the hospital for that thing he grabbed, when he hears a panicked female voice screaming: &#8220;CAN&#8217;T YOU SEE ME? WHY WON&#8217;T YOU LOOK AT ME?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>And here comes Tessa, one of my favorite recurring characters (4 episodes in 9 years). Tessa is played by Lindsey McKeon. She&#8217;s got it all. She&#8217;s got an intuitive understanding of what the role needs, and they obviously cast her perfectly. If she hadn&#8217;t worked out so well in this episode, we never would have seen her again. But she brought something to the part, a stillness, a compassion, yes, but also a detachment that is so necessary, so perfect, for someone whose job it is to usher people over the borderline between life and death. It&#8217;s not personal. It&#8217;s her job. It&#8217;s a part of life, perhaps the most important part. She is not terrifying. She is calm. She has absorbed a lot of anxiety and confusion. She knows that most of the &#8220;people&#8221; she meets are not ready to go. That is not her problem. That is not her concern. She brings all of that to the role without being cold. And that is no easy trick. Her scenes with Dean in this episode are full-on amazing, and the show is still reaping (heh) the benefits of that chemistry 9 seasons later. What she brings out in Dean is different from anyone else. The closest who gets there is Lisa (but that&#8217;s in the future: in the &#8220;past&#8221; at this point the  only time we&#8217;ve seen him this soft is the brief moment on his face when he looks at his mother in <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=78978\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">&#8220;Home.&#8221;<\/a>) . There are moments with Tessa where we see something new, total relaxation, total physical calming-down, an almost sinking-into the corporeal, as it were. A relaxation into the feminine, if you want to get totally obnoxious about it. He relaxes almost to the point where you fear for him. Dude, hunch those shoulders up again, protect yourself, put some clothes on, it&#8217;s dangerous out there. But Tessa&#8217;s job is to help Dean accept. He&#8217;s a hard nut to crack. But we&#8217;ll get to their amazing scenes together and how all that plays out. The way he melts, almost literally, when she touches him gently. It&#8217;s incredible.<\/p>\n<p>For now, Tessa wanders through the downstairs hallway of the hospital, panicked, and screaming at the people around her, wondering why they don&#8217;t respond. Dean appears at the bottom of the stairs and calls up to her, &#8220;Can you see me??&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i49.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i49.jpg\" alt=\"i49\" width=\"845\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86396\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i49.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i49-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i49-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i49-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>She can. He hurries up to meet her. People walk by them. There are a lot of extras, which makes their small tete a tete seem even stranger. They are on another plane. She looks at him with fear, she doesn&#8217;t know what is happening. Dean introduces himself. His mama raised him right. He asks her name. She tells him Tessa. She asks, &#8220;Am I dead?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>We next see Tessa and Dean standing at the doorway to her hospital room. She stares in at her body lying in the bed (with another circular camera movement, so we see them both in the frame at the same time). Tessa is stunned and says, &#8220;I just came in for an appendectomy,&#8221; which is a pretty funny line, in a black-comedy sort of way, and Dean says, awkwardly, &#8220;I hate to bear bad news but \u2026 I think there were some complications.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i50.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i50.jpg\" alt=\"i50\" width=\"847\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86397\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i50.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i50-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i50-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i50-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nTessa refuses to believe what she is seeing. Now all of this, naturally, is a ploy, an act. As we come to realize later. How often does Tessa the Reaper have to do this? I would imagine often. People fight death. They resist. They pull back. This is how she operates, it&#8217;s part of her job. Dean has already &#8220;seen&#8221; her and attacked her. And so she moves to Plan B. Obviously, it works like a charm.  Dean would be susceptible to her anyway, because she&#8217;s a pretty girl, and brunette too, which he seems to like, but whatever, besides her female form, she is confused and scared and that is like Blood to a Vampire, to make an inappropriate analogy. Dean doesn&#8217;t know everything here, but he knows something, and he can share it with her. She needs help. And more so than the fact that, you know, Boobs, that&#8217;s the draw for Dean, the irresistible draw, and Tessa would know that. But for now, she plays her part.  <\/p>\n<p>Dean walks her through it. Consider what his demeanor would be if he were corporeal. It would be very different. But now he has been reduced, ex-communicated, cut off. It&#8217;s almost \u2026 it would be almost embarrassing.  <i>Supernatural<\/i> gets a lot right about these near-death and close-to-death experiences.  The illusion is always that we are in control, that our bodies are ours. But when we get sick, really sick, and when we almost die, that illusion is shattered. It changes people forever, who get close to something like that. <\/p>\n<p>And Dean is already shaken. You can see it on his face as he talks to Tessa. He has information and knowledge, and he shares it. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i1.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i1.jpg\" alt=\"i1\" width=\"847\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86398\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i1.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i1-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i1-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i1-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>We can also see that a decision has been made over the hiatus as they looked at what they had and where they wanted to go in the future &#8211; to not be afraid of the freckles. Do not fear them. Embrace them. Hell, highlight them.  That fear has since returned, unfortunately, but Season 2 is where they fully embrace what they have, highlight it <i>intensely<\/i>, and set Little Orphan Annie cavorting freely in broad daylight.  <\/p>\n<p>Dean tries to explain to her that he thinks what is happening is she is having an out-of-body experience. She thinks he&#8217;s some New Age freak, and he makes a joke about crystals and Yanni (which \u2026 Yanni. My God.)<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/yanni.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/yanni.jpg\" alt=\"yanni\" width=\"300\" height=\"207\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86486\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/yanni.jpg 300w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/yanni-100x69.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/yanni-200x138.jpg 200w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 300px) 100vw, 300px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nStop it. Now. <\/p>\n<p>His joke is a relief because suddenly he seems like himself again. But after the joke, back he goes into the vulnerable blasted-open energy, explaining to her what he means, and what he knows, &#8220;It&#8217;s actually a very old idea. <a href=\"http:\/\/www.themystica.com\/mystica\/articles\/b\/bilocation.html\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Bilocation<\/a>. <a href=\"http:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Apparitional_experience\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Crisis apparitions<\/a>. Fetches.&#8221; (Welcome to the Google <a href=\"http:\/\/www.angelfire.com\/weird\/junkyard\/doubles.html\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">rabbit hole<\/a>. I am happy to report that Fetches are very common in <a href=\"http:\/\/www.sacred-texts.com\/neu\/celt\/lfic\/lfic051.htm\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Irish folklore<\/a>: <i>&#8220;In the passionate lamentations which the bereaved wife could not restrain in the presence of the physician, she frequently cried out, &#8220;Oh! the fetch, the fetch!&#8221; At I later period she told him of the appearance the night before her husband&#8217;s death; and as he thoroughly believed her statement, it involved the theory he henceforth entertained on the subject of Fetches in considerable confusion.<\/i>&#8220;) <\/p>\n<p>Sheila, I&#8217;ve got a couple words of advice.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/reginageorge.gif\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/reginageorge.gif\" alt=\"reginageorge\" width=\"245\" height=\"180\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86402\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Tessa asks, &#8220;So we&#8217;re going to die?&#8221; And Dean, in his knee-jerk beautiful way, shakes his head &#8211; No, we just have to hold on, we can snap right back in and wake up.<\/p>\n<p>The scene closes with an interesting closeup of Tessa, whose expression seems to change a bit. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i51.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i51.jpg\" alt=\"i51\" width=\"846\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86399\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i51.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i51-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i51-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i51-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nTaking in what she&#8217;s seeing, and then Dean&#8217;s subsiding into uncertainty after his outburst. He knows the lore and knows that people can snap back in. When he spoke that to her, he believed it. But he&#8217;s just not sure. He can feel how close he is to dying. So his certainty is for her, but also for himself, and that sort of point-blank assessing look she gives him makes him crumble a little bit inside.  <\/p>\n<p>Tour de force, all of these small moments.<\/p>\n<p><big>7th scene<\/big><br \/>\nHaving paralyzed John&#8217;s legs by slamming a bag full of shotguns onto the bed, Sam returns to his father&#8217;s bedside, and has obviously told him that he felt something in the hallway.<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;It felt like \u2026 like, Dean.&#8221; says Sam.<\/p>\n<p>I like the idea that even as spirits, we are still stamped as &#8220;us&#8221;. <\/p>\n<p>John listens. His face is, again, opaque. You could put any number of things onto it. Sam wonders if it&#8217;s his &#8220;psychic thing&#8221; that has made him open to the possibility, and John does glance up at that, but he doesn&#8217;t seem alarmed. You could imagine that he might be inside. One thing we can say is that John is NOT like: &#8220;Holy hell, you sensed Dean? Well let&#8217;s get RIGHT ON THAT PRONTO.&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p>Despite his final actions in the final moments of the episode, there is a strange and private apathy at work here. I think the &#8220;plan&#8221; he has has overshadowed all else, and he already knows what he wants to do, and how it is going to play out. It&#8217;s a done deal. And his plan will bring Dean back. But what Morgan is &#8220;putting out&#8221; there \u2026 it&#8217;s a blank wall.  And considering his feelings about Sam, and what he whispers to Dean in the final moments of the episode \u2026 one can certainly turn a side-eye towards his concern for Dean. It&#8217;s pretty brutal.  And the best part of it is: you can&#8217;t quite tell what you&#8217;re looking at.  John has secrets and he&#8217;s not telling.  <\/p>\n<p>Sam says he has to leave to go get something. I love you, Sam. I love that he basically leaves the hospital, and hitches a ride to a nearby magic shop.  <\/p>\n<p>John stops him and promises that he will not hunt the demon until &#8220;we know Dean&#8217;s okay.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s so manipulative. I love it! <\/p>\n<p>Sam doesn&#8217;t really respond, but leaves the room, and then we are left with another fascinating John-Winchester-by-Himself moment that lasts half a second but you could see that look as a dictator cackling over the maps of his gulag system, or an ill man gearing up for his so-called &#8220;plan&#8221;, but whatever it is, it is eerie.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i52.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i52.jpg\" alt=\"i52\" width=\"848\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86400\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i52.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i52-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i52-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i52-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><big>8th scene<\/big><br \/>\nThe two Fetches stroll down the hallway, in their scrubs and T-shirts, looking like escapees from a local slumber party. Or two medical interns who just fucked in the broom closet during their shift. Either one.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i53.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i53.jpg\" alt=\"i53\" width=\"843\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86401\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i53.jpg 843w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i53-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i53-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i53-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 843px) 100vw, 843px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nFetch-Dean tells her he&#8217;s impressed with how she&#8217;s handling it. Standing on that dizzying stairway, with people going up and down around them, they talk. She says she was &#8220;freaked at first&#8221; (like, 1 minute ago), &#8220;but now, I don&#8217;t know. Maybe I&#8217;m dealing.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>She seems to be in touch with something that Dean wants. Reminiscent of his interactions with Layla in &#8220;Faith.&#8221; He leans in, in other words. Emotionally. Instead of resisting, as we might expect, with, &#8220;WHAT? No. You have to FIGHT.&#8221; he asks her, &#8220;You&#8217;re okay with dying?&#8221; And now we can see Tessa the Reaper in operation, more clearly. She gives him a little shpeel over how no, she&#8217;s not okay with dying, but it&#8217;s out of her control now, and maybe it&#8217;s just &#8220;fate.&#8221; Watch how McKeon plays it. It&#8217;s subtle. You can see her trying to connect with Dean personally, it is a message to him, trying to get him to accept the same thing so she can move on with her damn day.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i56.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i56.jpg\" alt=\"i56\" width=\"847\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86406\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i56.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i56-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i56-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i56-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nDean does listen. He considers it. (Bless <em>Supernatural <\/em>for taking the time with these minute pauses, these breaths between lines. Pace is not sacrificed, and it actually ends up feeling MORE real because you sense that these are actual <i>people<\/i>, thinking, evaluating, judging, people going through extraordinary events.) Maybe Tessa thinks she&#8217;s reached him. But then he replies flatly, &#8220;That&#8217;s crap.&#8221; She&#8217;s taken aback, and he says, &#8220;You always have a choice. You can either roll over and die or you can keep fighting.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>This type of attitude is going to become almost the entire point of the whole show. One might even say its theme. Taken in an oppositional way, so its power can be highlighted: Fate vs. Free Will. Destiny vs. Choice. These questions have repercussions for all of humanity, of course, and we have been battling it out from the moment consciousness was born.  <em>Supernatural <\/em>may not have been about that in its original conception, although you can see it partially in terms of familial roles: Once the Big Brother, always the Big Brother? Once the rebel, always the rebel?  So Sam bucks against how his family has conceived of him.  And bucks against how Dean perceives him. And on and on. But <em>Supernatural <\/em>was bold enough and brave enough (and silly enough) to go all celestial with that particular question, to move it up and out of the personal\/familial realm into something far more universal. Is choice an illusion? Is destiny set in stone? How DO we decide? <\/p>\n<p><em>Supernatural <\/em>survives because these are such rich questions. It&#8217;s still going on. Dean is now the focal point of those questions, where normally it has been Sam, and to repeat my mantra: <i>It&#8217;s about time.<\/i> Anyway, here we see it pretty baldly, spoken by Fetch-Dean to a pretty little Ghostie-Fetch in a soft T-shirt. It is going to come up again big-time.  <\/p>\n<p>Another emergency breaks out down the hall, and Dean leaves the conversation, running off to check it out. A small child lies in a bed, the machines are beeping like crazy, doctors huddled around, and the Ghostbusters Creature hovers above, reaching its greenish fingers down to the child&#8217;s face. Dean and kids, remember. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i55.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i55.jpg\" alt=\"i55\" width=\"847\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86407\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i55.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i55-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i55-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i55-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThere is nothing &#8220;right&#8221; about a child dying.  Dean will never accept any of that bull shit as fate. Fuck You. Dean roars into the room screaming, &#8220;GET AWAY FROM HER,&#8221; but it&#8217;s too late. The nurse calls the time of death, and one of the nurses says, &#8220;At least she&#8217;s not suffering anymore,&#8221; and Dean has a little double-take at that. Suffering is fine if it means you&#8217;re alive. And what does that have to say about him?  He can&#8217;t let go. He cannot. He&#8217;ll take suffering any day of the week over death. (Sam: &#8220;So you&#8217;re saying life is suffering?&#8221; Dean: &#8220;I&#8217;m saying it&#8217;s the only game in town.&#8221;)  <\/p>\n<p><big>9th scene<\/big><br \/>\nMy favorite scene. <\/p>\n<p>It has it all: beautiful weird camera moves, the two brothers in the frame at the same time, raw emotion, oozing wounds, lots of listening and talking, and also a silly and frivolous undertone that is so <i>appealing<\/i> &#8211; how can material this potentially silly be so powerful emotionally? The only way it works is if everyone treats it seriously. Not TOO seriously, because when there is a joke to be made, someone must make it. (I love Dean&#8217;s comment in the scene, &#8220;One question at a time, dude&#8221;: such a funny and accurate representation of what it would be like to be a &#8220;spirit&#8221; being peppered with questions when you can only answer one at a time. Funny. Observant.)  It&#8217;s like Sam sprinkling his own father with holy water in &#8220;Devil&#8217;s Trap.&#8221; If you take a second to step back and really think about what you are looking at, you very well may think, &#8220;This is RIDICULOUS.&#8221; Same with this scene.  But instead \u2026 it&#8217;s beautiful and silly and warm and strange.  <\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s also funny because I associate Ouija boards with being a 12-year-old girl. After all, I was one myself. I have no idea the gender stats on Ouija boards, if boys also brought them out at their own slumber parties. But seeing two grown men, sitting on the floor, &#8220;playing&#8221; with a Ouija board \u2026 is just too too perfect.  <\/p>\n<p>Sam tiptoes into Dean&#8217;s room, back from his mysterious errand. Sam looks down at his unconscious brother.  Says, &#8220;Hey. I think maybe you&#8217;re around. And if you are \u2026 don&#8217;t make fun of me for this \u2026 but there&#8217;s one way we can talk.&#8221; I love the &#8220;don&#8217;t make fun of me for this.&#8221; So siblings-ish. Sam draws out the Ouija board from the bag, and we see Fetch-Dean standing off to the side, looking on, mortified that his life, his courageous self-sacrificing Burlesque Act Posse-Magnet of a life, full of sawed-off shotguns and greasy burgers and Metallica and strippers and whiskey and Red Bull &#8211; has come to THIS. Really? He&#8217;s more <i>embarrassed<\/i> than anything else. <\/p>\n<p>Sam is not embarrassed. He sits on the floor at the foot of Dean&#8217;s bed. That&#8217;s a small damn space for what is about to happen camera-wise, which is a full 360. Sam is alone. We can clearly see that when he sits down.  The camera moves all the way around him, and as it reaches the 180 mark, Dean walks into the space and sits down. The camera keeps going until it returns to its original position, only now we see Sam and Dean sitting there, like 12-year-old girls having a seance. Sam has asked, &#8220;Dean, are you here?&#8221; Dean&#8217;s embarrassment is even more acute because he is so revealed in those damn scrubs and bare feet and T-shirt.  I am so fearful for the missing necklace. And yes, he Swayze-d the glass of water, but will he be able to move the damn planchette? <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i57.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i57.jpg\" alt=\"i57\" width=\"844\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86408\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i57.jpg 844w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i57-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i57-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i57-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 844px) 100vw, 844px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThe look here is already significantly different than Season 1. There&#8217;s a change in makeup style. Both guys are wearing less. Dean&#8217;s eyelashes cast shadows that practically go down to his mouth. The cut on his forehead looks visceral, the stitches digging into the skin, the red bright against the pale-ness. Something is going on here that is both glamorous and grisly, an embrace of the Importance of Beauty that also flat out objectifies the hell out of both of them. Male Gaze, Female Gaze, whatever: the camera gazes on beauty and has no other statement about it, nothing moral to say about it, no comment on it whatsoever. But beauty is there to be looked at. Admitted to. Reveled in. You can&#8217;t have <i>Supernatural<\/i> without it. <\/p>\n<p>Dean is amazed when he is able to pull the planchette over to highlight the word &#8220;Yes.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>He looks at Sam, amazed at his own awesome-ness. <\/p>\n<p>Sam is overwhelmed with the laughter of relief, talking &#8220;to&#8221; Dean &#8211; &#8220;It&#8217;s good to hear from you, man &#8211; it hasn&#8217;t been the same without you.&#8221; Dean can&#8217;t really go there, he&#8217;s too freaked and reduced, he&#8217;s all hunched over, but he does say, &#8220;Damn straight.&#8221; He&#8217;s ready for the next question.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i58.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i58.jpg\" alt=\"i58\" width=\"849\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86411\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i58.jpg 849w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i58-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i58-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i58-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 849px) 100vw, 849px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThen we get another cool camera moves, circular and twining around Sam, where Dean is clearly not there but the Ouija board is moving from letter to letter &#8211; H U N T &#8211; around and around the camera goes, until finally it stops and moves across the space and we see Dean sitting there again, Ackles hiding off camera for that whole thing and then tiptoeing into place. Gritty low-tech shit and I am in LOVE with it. <\/p>\n<p>Sam, when he reads the word &#8220;HUNT&#8221; bombards Dean with questions &#8211; You&#8217;re hunting something? Here in the hospital? What is it? The camera moves across to poor Dean, who is doing his best to communicate one letter at a time, and Dean murmurs, accepting totally the limitations of his current circumstance, &#8220;One question at a time, dude.&#8221; Limitations are great! We see character so clearly when limits are placed on them. <\/p>\n<p>Dean waits for Sam to get it, which he does. &#8220;What is it?&#8221; asks Sam. Good question, because damned if I know at this point (and I didn&#8217;t &#8220;get it&#8221; ahead of time.  I totally thought Tessa was in the same situation as Dean. She duped me too.) <\/p>\n<p>Dean can work with that. We get a closeup of the planchette moving, and we only see Sam&#8217;s fingers on it, but we hear Dean speaking. <\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I don&#8217;t think it&#8217;s killing people,&#8221; says Dean. &#8220;I think it&#8217;s taking them. You know, when their time is just up.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i59.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i59.jpg\" alt=\"i59\" width=\"843\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86412\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i59.jpg 843w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i59-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i59-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i59-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 843px) 100vw, 843px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Sam reads the word, and there&#8217;s that eerie sound effect behind him, the chill of the Reaper. &#8220;A reaper. Dean. Is it after you?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Dean looks troubled and like he doesn&#8217;t want to admit it. If he were corporeal, he might be able to bullshit his way out of an answer, throw in a &#8220;Maybe&#8221; or &#8220;Not sure yet&#8221; but he can&#8217;t do that with the Ouija board. It has to be Yes or No. So he slides the planchette to Yes. What else can a Fetch do. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/reginageorge.gif\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/reginageorge.gif\" alt=\"reginageorge\" width=\"245\" height=\"180\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86402\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Sam says, &#8220;If it&#8217;s here naturally, there&#8217;s no way to stop it.&#8221;  Dean knows. He says, &#8220;You can&#8217;t kill death.&#8221; Sam doesn&#8217;t know what to say, so Dean says it, &#8220;I&#8217;m screwed, Sam.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I love Sam&#8217;s thoughtful face in closeup, all those cuts, on his face, on his knuckles.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i60.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i60.jpg\" alt=\"i60\" width=\"847\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86413\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i60.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i60-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i60-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i60-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nJared Padalecki is so good when he&#8217;s thinking, which I&#8217;m sure I&#8217;ve mentioned before along the way.  It&#8217;s one of his major gifts as an actor,  and very important with Sam because Sam is such a thinker, a consider-er, an analytical person. Sam rejects his own thoughts here and stands up, revealing the empty room. Dean may very well still be there, but we&#8217;re not seeing him, we&#8217;re in Sam&#8217;s point of view now.  &#8220;No. No. Dad&#8217;ll know what to do.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>Sam makes his way through the pitch-black gloom of the hospital to John&#8217;s room but when he enters the room he is stopped by what he sees. John&#8217;s bed is empty. <\/p>\n<p>Killer scene, all in all. Looks like everyone had a ton of fun, from the writing of it to the performing of it to the shooting of it. <em>Supernatural <\/em>at its finest. <\/p>\n<p><big>10th scene<\/big><br \/>\nJohn Winchester has found his way to the boiler room. We see him enter the scary-looking door in a classic noir shot, where he is merely an ominous shadow emerging from other equally ominous shadows. <\/p>\n<p>Filmed from below, just like Dean was on the stairwell, the injured john Winchester enters the dank dark boiler room with the duffel bag of Echniacea or whatever over his shoulder. There&#8217;s smoke emerging from grates, and darkness, and dripping walls and strange light sources and it&#8217;s detailed and atmospheric. He finds a spot he likes, which has a whirling industrial fan in the wall, and it is a look that will factor heavily in almost every warehouse scene that ever appears on the damn show. It&#8217;s practically a motif, reminiscent of the constant shots of rotating fans in <i>Angel Heart<\/i>, an atmospheric film which is obviously hugely influential on <i>Supernatural<\/i>. I mean, <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=8500\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">take one look<\/a> at the damn thing. Also, there&#8217;s the whole Devil Factor. And the whole Faustian Deals With the Devil plot-line.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i62.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i62.jpg\" alt=\"i62\" width=\"846\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86414\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i62.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i62-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i62-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i62-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nJohn starts drawing on the floor with chalk. There are a million camera angles here. From high up. From close in. From off to the side. It keeps us unstable. There is no clear point of view. John remains a mystery. <\/p>\n<p><big>11th scene<\/big><br \/>\nSam returns from Dad&#8217;s empty room. Dean the Body lies in the bed and Fetch-Dean leans against the window, with the venetian blinds, and the shadows, and his gleaming white T-shirt, and honestly the whole thing is so beautiful I want to swim in it.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i3.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i3.jpg\" alt=\"i3\" width=\"845\" height=\"476\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86415\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i3.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i3-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i3-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i3-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nSam has retrieved Dad&#8217;s journal and starts to flip through it looking for the Reaper section. Meanwhile, Dean, gloomy Ghost against the window, asks, &#8220;Where is he?&#8221; Which, you know, is a valid question, and his posture here is identical to the one in the scene where he was revealed beside the door in John&#8217;s room. Arms crossed. Leaning against the wall. Although I&#8217;m not so sure how that works if you are not corporeal. Regardless. It&#8217;s the skeptical withholding posture. Dad has been examined by Dean and has come up lacking.  &#8220;Where is he,&#8221; he drones flatly.  Sam, of course, doesn&#8217;t hear Dean and starts looking through the book, saying to Dean&#8217;s body in the bed, &#8220;Maybe there&#8217;s something here.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Dean approaches. Sam is busy looking through the journal. We can&#8217;t see Dean&#8217;s face at first, he is entirely in shadow. But when he reaches Sam&#8217;s side, what we see on his face is soft, grateful, moved, so different from the &#8220;Where is he&#8221; flatness. It&#8217;s perfect, because this kind of openness happens when Dean is, essentially, by himself. &#8220;Thanks for not giving up on me, Sammy,&#8221; says Dean. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i63.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i63.jpg\" alt=\"i63\" width=\"845\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86416\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i63.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i63-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i63-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i63-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nWe see Sam through Dean&#8217;s eyes, the serious face looking through the book, the way he&#8217;s sitting right on Dean&#8217;s bed, including Dean&#8217;s lifeless body in his circle of trust, as though Dean, even half-dead, is still worth something. Sam is <i>including<\/i> him. It&#8217;s heartbreaking.  The betrayal of the body, losing its strength, while the spirit still survives, and Sam fighting for that spirit, and taking Dean&#8217;s word for it through the damn Ouija board. He&#8217;s the best brother ever, really.  <em>Okay. So I just &#8220;talked to&#8221; Dean with a Ouija Board and &#8220;he&#8221; &#8220;told&#8221; me he was hunting a reaper &#8211; okay, then, so let&#8217;s look at the Reaper Lore and get you back in your body.  <\/em><\/p>\n<p>Sam is reading the Reaper page, and Dean leans in to take a look, in a stunning shot of the two of them, silvery and black, soft and shining. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i64.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i64.jpg\" alt=\"i64\" width=\"849\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86417\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i64.jpg 849w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i64-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i64-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i64-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 849px) 100vw, 849px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nAll I see is a bunch of chicken-scratch on the page, but Dean has read something that clicks for him, that makes him understand. The show withholds that information, which is smart, especially for dumbbells like myself who didn&#8217;t &#8220;get it.&#8221; Because then I get to be like, &#8220;Ehhhhmagerd Tessa!&#8221; just like they want me to.  &#8220;SonofaBITCH,&#8221; says Dean and leaves the room, leaving Sam alone and all profiled with silver light and shadow and honestly I&#8217;m swooning from the Gorg factor. <\/p>\n<p><big>12th scene<\/big><br \/>\nDean hustles down the hallway, glancing into the next room, empty (there are a lot of empty rooms in the hospital, perhaps pre-booked by demons and reapers so they could have their long-ass chats with various members of the Winchester family), and there is Tessa, only now it is clear that she is not who she said she was. First of all, her cozy white T-shirt is now black. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i65.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i65.jpg\" alt=\"i65\" width=\"848\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86420\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i65.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i65-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i65-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i65-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nA tiny stylistic thing but it makes her seem much more ominous, a part of the shadows of the room, especially with the Louise Brooks hair, putting her clearly in more Femme Fatale territory rather than Damsel in Distress (important distinction).  She is also clearly waiting for him.  And there are Venetian blinds on both sides of the room. I love you, <i>Supernatural<\/i>.<\/p>\n<p>The key to why her performance is so good has a lot to do with how she is written.  And they obviously picked the right actress who could convey a sense of certainty and closed-doors without being a cold-hearted uncaring bitch. Instead, she lives in another realm, devoid of morality. It doesn&#8217;t matter if you are good, or if you are bad. Death comes to all of us. She is not attached either way.  She is forced to concern herself with those who refuse to &#8220;come with,&#8221; but even then she isn&#8217;t some snarling dragon-like Maleficent. She is patient. She waits. She hears the person out. She talks them through it. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i66.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i66.jpg\" alt=\"i66\" width=\"848\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86418\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i66.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i66-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i66-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i66-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n It&#8217;s a beautiful and somewhat healing conception of a Reaper, typically seen as a frightening creature, an oversized Jawa with a scythe ripping through the air. Instead, <em>Supernatural <\/em>asks us to actually contemplate death, and what it means, and what it means to accept it. Pretty heavy shit for a show whose posters are some of the silliest posters I have ever seen in my LIFE.  <\/p>\n<p><big>Personal Stuff In Re: Tessa and Dean<\/big><br \/>\nThese scenes with Dean and Tessa coming up touch me on a very profound level. Now that I have doctors and stuff, helping me, it&#8217;s all much much better, but for years, decades really, I ignored Blue Oyster Cult&#8217;s advice and &#8220;feared&#8221; the reaper, mainly because I was drawn to the reaper, and I knew like I knew my own name that the struggle would be too much &#8220;one day&#8221; and I would take the Exit for myself. I had to hold on tight so as not to go there, and would engineer trips to,<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=61194\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"> oh, Memphis<\/a>, for example, in order to hide from the Reaper. Almost literally that was what was going on (along with the fact that I find life inherently worth living when I think about\/write about\/listen to Elvis &#8211; so there&#8217;s THAT). But there the Reaper was, in my apartment, when I returned, crooking its finger at me, beckoning. Dean is not suicidal, so it&#8217;s not a one-to-one connection, but he has a moment in the second Tessa episode, seasons later, which chilled me to the bone in recognition (and is one of the reasons why no way in Hell would I have made it through this show pre-diagnosis. No. Way. Turn that shit OFF.) They encounter one another again. It&#8217;s been years.  She says to him that he&#8217;s &#8220;the one that got away.&#8221; And he says to her, &#8220;After our experience, for that whole year I felt like I had this hole in my gut. Like I was missing something. I didn&#8217;t know what. But you know what it was? It was you.&#8221; I have felt that. Almost literally word for word I have felt that. Because of the energy between them set up in these next scenes in &#8220;In My Time of Dying,&#8221; she is a soft and accepting female energy, enveloping him in an &#8220;It&#8217;s okay&#8221; metaphorical embrace, touching him, and helping him, sitting there with him as he worked it out, not pushing him, not getting in his grill, not leering at how much she wants him or how good it will feel for her to take him \u2026 none of that for once. Instead, an almost soothing and gentle detachment that gives him the space he needs. No wonder he misses her.<br \/>\n<big>Moving On<\/big><\/p>\n<p>And so the decision to have the scene play out the way it does, to have it go where it does, was obviously deliberate. It&#8217;s not a &#8220;horror&#8221; scene. She&#8217;s not a &#8220;monster.&#8221; She is a part of life.   <\/p>\n<p>She stares at him. And says, in a voice that could be anything, it is entirely detached (and yet still not lacking in warmth): &#8220;Hi, Dean.&#8221;  He has an almost interrogatory mode on, which makes him feel protected, saying, &#8220;You know, you read the most interesting things. For example, did you know that Reapers can alter human perception? I sure didn&#8217;t.&#8221; She stares back, expressionless.  &#8220;Basically, they can make themselves appear however they want. Like, say, a pretty girl.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i67.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i67.jpg\" alt=\"i67\" width=\"850\" height=\"471\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86421\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i67.jpg 850w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i67-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i67-200x110.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i67-400x221.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 850px) 100vw, 850px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>The jig is up, sister. Or, you could say, the jig is up, Dean. That&#8217;s why the scene is so good. <\/p>\n<p>He doesn&#8217;t like being played, and having his human-ness (his responsiveness to a &#8220;pretty girl&#8221;) used against him.  It&#8217;s embarrassing. It points up the fallibility of being human, our quirks and wants and desires \u2026 she just used all that to trap him. One can see why she did, clearly. If she had transformed herself into a drooling old man she might not have warmed Dean up as she had.  Dean is face to face with his own death, and you can see all that on his face in the huge Kim Manners closeup when he says, &#8220;You&#8217;re much prettier than the last Reaper I met.&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p>He&#8217;s pacing a little bit, and she&#8217;s sitting, so it looks like every police interrogation in every noir you&#8217;ve ever seen, the detective laying down what the criminal did for the audience. She isn&#8217;t afraid of being busted, like other monsters or demons. All she says is, &#8220;I was wondering when you&#8217;d figure it out.&#8221;\n<p<\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i68.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i68.jpg\" alt=\"i68\" width=\"847\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86422\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i68.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i68-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i68-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i68-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nIn a way it is confirmation for Dean, that her whole &#8220;Yeah, I&#8217;m dealing with Death&#8221; bull shit was just that. It was all a line anyway. But what about the body in the room and the Mother sitting over the bed?<\/p>\n<p>Tessa says, &#8220;It&#8217;s my sandbox. I can make you see whatever I want.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>She doesn&#8217;t say it triumphantly. She&#8217;s explaining how it works. But it&#8217;s off-putting, it makes Dean feel duped. &#8220;What, is this a turn-on for you? Toying with me?&#8221; he says.  <\/p>\n<p>She says, &#8220;You didn&#8217;t leave me much choice.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>(If every Death was as high-maintenance as Dean&#8217;s, the Reapers would barely make their quota for the day.) <\/p>\n<p>Tessa and Dean both use rom-com language every time they meet; it will be a constant in the episodes featuring their relationship. It&#8217;s a nice and very creepy touch, kind of like Sylvia Plath&#8217;s &#8220;The Birthday Present&#8221;. If you want to get totally freaked out, listen to Sylvia Plath reciting that poem:<\/p>\n<p>\n<iframe loading=\"lazy\" width=\"420\" height=\"315\" src=\"\/\/www.youtube.com\/embed\/FWp2osM_UeI\" frameborder=\"0\" allowfullscreen><\/iframe><\/p>\n<p>\nSo it&#8217;s a flirtation with death. It&#8217;s a date with death. It&#8217;s an attraction, and it&#8217;s mutual.<\/p>\n<p>Tessa says, &#8220;You saw my true form and flipped out. Kind of hurts a girl&#8217;s feelings. It was the only way I could get you to talk to me.&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p>Dean, flailing, pissed, and vulnerable &#8211; unarmed, unprotected, un-backed up &#8211; has to face her alone, and so he says, &#8220;Fine. We&#8217;re talking, what the hell do you want to talk about?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>Her expression is gentle. <\/p>\n<p>Now that I am examining her performance closely, another reason why it works so well, and it may be the most important, is that she takes nothing personally. Taking things personally is part of being human. And the fact that she LACKS that makes her seem otherworldly. Her &#8220;hurts a girl&#8217;s feelings&#8221; line is not the truth, it&#8217;s part of the rom-com language. The truth is that she knows Dean is afraid, she knows all humans are afraid, and this is her job, but it doesn&#8217;t hurt her feelings at all that people reject her. It&#8217;s part of the gig.  People ask her questions, it&#8217;s not her job to provide answers, it&#8217;s her job to usher them over that boundary, that&#8217;s all.  And so her lines come from a place of deep tenderness that is devoid of personal attachment. There isn&#8217;t a WHIFF of defensiveness in anything she says. There isn&#8217;t even a hint that he could ever hurt her feelings, or reject her, or do anything that would make her reject him. McKeon plays it from that space.  And it goes deeper than the New Age-y &#8220;everything happens for a reason&#8221; crap, which, don&#8217;t even get me started.  And don&#8217;t get me started on &#8220;Time heals all wounds,&#8221; either. People learn to not say that shit to me twice.  Tessa&#8217;s energy is almost primal here, it comes from a place that is nearly wordless, like a starry sky, or a heaving ocean, wind in the trees. Things that are devoid of morality &#8211; things that just ARE.  <\/p>\n<p>I mean, how do you PLAY that?  I don&#8217;t know, but she does.  <\/p>\n<p>She seems <i>inevitable<\/i>. That illusion would have been cracked if she, the actress, had allowed those smaller human behavioral things into her performance, getting defensive, getting your feelings hurt, being taken aback by someone rejecting you, whatever.  Tessa is beyond it. She is irrevocable, a huge wave approaching the shore. No way to stop it. And there is no right or wrong about the wave. A wave has no morality, even if it destroys an entire town.  It&#8217;s just doing what it is supposed to be doing. <\/p>\n<p>She moves towards him saying, &#8220;Death is nothing to fear&#8221; and reaches out her hand to place it on his cheek. He reacts, some energy or feeling transferring from her to him, pulling on him, weakening him. This along with the fact that Dean doesn&#8217;t like to be touched makes it a palpably emotional moment.  Her touch is a caress, and yet it&#8217;s not all warm fuzzies. She says, &#8220;It&#8217;s your time to go, Dean. And you&#8217;re living on borrowed time already.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i69.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i69.jpg\" alt=\"i69\" width=\"848\" height=\"477\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86425\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i69.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i69-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i69-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i69-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>You know those stories about people in blizzards who get lost and freezing and decide they just want to lie down for a bit in the snow? And then never get up again? That&#8217;s what her touching him is like. You can see the call of it, the irresistible call. <\/p>\n<p><big>13th scene<\/big><br \/>\nJohn has set up his freaky altar with candles and curry powder and his hopscotch game. He also murmurs in Latin, all as the fan whirls in the wall, and he cuts open his hand dripping blood onto his Crock Pot.  It&#8217;s one of the sexiest grossest things I&#8217;ve ever seen. The grunts as he cuts open his hand, the gleaming blood, the whirling fan, the burst of fire in the curry powder \u2026 I mean, come ON. It almost \u2026 almost \u2026 reaches the <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=6902\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">high camp of <i>The Dunwich Horror<\/i>.<\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i70.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i70.jpg\" alt=\"i70\" width=\"845\" height=\"471\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86426\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i70.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i70-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i70-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i70-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Spellwork over, John stands and waits. I appreciate the monochrome of the darkness. Live it up, it won&#8217;t last long.  <\/p>\n<p>Then a hand reaches into the frame, grabbing John&#8217;s shoulder, startling everyone involved, as it is meant to do. It&#8217;s a janitor, saying, &#8220;What are you doing down here?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>The janitor (aka Big Bad Nasty Demon) is played by Fredric Lehne (or Lane, he goes by both), and he has one of those careers an actor would dream of! I loved his small role in <i>Zero Dark Thirty<\/i>, as &#8220;The Wolf,&#8221; the big-wig at the CIA who recruited Maya (Jessica Chastain) out of high school (which, seriously, I want more backstory on how THAT happened, and I also want to know why that didn&#8217;t happen to ME.) But &#8220;The Wolf&#8221; had one main scene, really &#8211; although he shows up briefly in another scene. And he creates this entire strange awesome character with, what, 10 lines?  His career goes way back. I remember him on <i>Dallas<\/i>. He&#8217;s extremely good-looking in a very actor-y way with shining teeth and a voice that could cut glass. I actually didn&#8217;t realize he played &#8220;Lazenby&#8221; in <i>Ordinary People<\/i> in 1981 until I looked at his Imdb page, and he was great, a friend who tried to understand, who tried to be there for Conrad (Timothy Hutton). I remember him well.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Ordinary-People.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Ordinary-People.jpg\" alt=\"Ordinary People\" width=\"800\" height=\"432\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86312\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Ordinary-People.jpg 800w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Ordinary-People-100x54.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Ordinary-People-200x108.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/Ordinary-People-400x216.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 800px) 100vw, 800px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nHey, demon, what&#8217;s up. Be nice to those school kids in your car, mkay? <\/p>\n<p>And so when you hire someone like Lehne, a pro in other words, a veteran, you&#8217;re gonna get some interesting and deep shit. An actor like Lehne brings gravitas with him automatically, and a flexible instrument (it&#8217;s quite a campy performance, once he gets going), and a fearlessness in going for those big gestures. It&#8217;s great because he looks like such a regular guy, albeit an actor-y regular guy with an actor&#8217;s teeth. As a matter of fact, his show business looks are perfect, because the demon is a performative creature, his entire life is an act, in the same way that, oh, Kim Jong-Il&#8217;s was. You ARE the image. <\/p>\n<p>Also, to add a layer of Actor Hell, the yellow contact lenses meant Lehne could not SEE. They had to put sandbags on the floor so he could feel his marks. He couldn&#8217;t see Jeffrey Dean Morgan at all. <\/p>\n<p>Okay. But for now, he&#8217;s a janitor. And he&#8217;s pissed. He heads off to get security, and John coolly takes out the Colt, points it at the guy&#8217;s back, cocking the trigger. &#8220;How stupid do you think I am?&#8221; says Dirty Harry John.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i72.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i72.jpg\" alt=\"i72\" width=\"847\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86427\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i72.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i72-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i72-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i72-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThe janitor grins and says, &#8220;You really want an honest answer?&#8221; his eyes flashing to yellow.  &#8220;I took you for a lot of things, John, but suicidally reckless isn&#8217;t one of them.&#8221; Look at how he enjoys and relishes the word &#8220;reckless.&#8221; Lehne has fun with language. He feels the potential in certain words. He coos the words, he simpers them, he cocks them up when you think they should go down. It makes him seem completely strange, self-satisfied and also haggard and used-up at the same time. Frankly, like a floozy in a 1930s movie. Like a blowzy showgirl cakewalking around behind Mae West.  <\/p>\n<p>My main thought when I first saw this scene was frustration that they were standing around CHATTING. Come ON, man, SHOOT IT, for the LOVE of PETE. But, you know, I wasn&#8217;t thinking clearly. John says, and cooler heads would have seen this one coming, &#8220;I want to make a deal.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The demon cocks his head backwards, intrigued, delighted almost. This is going to be <i>fun<\/i>.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i74.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i74.jpg\" alt=\"i74\" width=\"847\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86428\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i74.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i74-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i74-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i74-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><big>14th scene<\/big><br \/>\nThere are only two cuts in the following scene. Sam&#8217;s monologue is bookended by two shots: one of him standing over Dean&#8217;s body, and the other a full shot of the whole room, with the Ouija board still on the floor. But within that middle shot is a circular camera move, as Sam talks to Dean and the camera moves all the way around him, until we get a heart-wrenching head-on shot of Sam&#8217;s beat-up face.  His monologue is beautiful. Fetch-Dean is nowhere to be seen, he&#8217;s off canoodling with Tessa.  Sam is keeping Dean up to date though, which is heart-rending in its own way because Dean is lifeless in the bed. But Sam is telling Dean to hold on. <\/p>\n<p>And then, to rip out our heart strings, he says, &#8220;You can&#8217;t leave me here alone with Dad \u2026&#8221; and he laughs as he says it. BEAUTIFUL. Normally the two of them can&#8217;t talk about Dad, it always gets hot and heavy immediately, but here, Sam can say it, and he knows Dean will understand.  It&#8217;s also, of course, a heavy burden to place on Dean, but whatever, that&#8217;s life, that&#8217;s family. <i>Please stick around because I don&#8217;t know how I will get along without you.<\/i> Boy, I get that. But even that jokey moment is, of course, eloquent of the deeper element, which is what this past year has meant for Sam. And so he says, &#8220;Dean, you gotta hold on. You can&#8217;t go, man, not now. We were just starting to be brothers again.&#8221; Padalecki&#8217;s work here is deep and true. It&#8217;s a lot of words. It&#8217;s a lot of camera stuff going on around him. He works simply and truthfully and when the time comes for emotion to come up, he lets it come up. There are no cuts to &#8220;protect&#8221; him. It can&#8217;t be fudged in the editing room. He has to really &#8220;go there&#8221; &#8211; that&#8217;s what a continuous take demands of the actor and that&#8217;s what Padalecki does here. It&#8217;s beautiful work.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i75.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i75.jpg\" alt=\"i75\" width=\"847\" height=\"476\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86429\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i75.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i75-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i75-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i75-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p><big>15th scene<\/big><br \/>\nDean stands at the window, staring out the blinds, his back to us, so we only see his reflection, broken up by the blinds. It&#8217;s nighttime. And it is Dean Facing Himself, quite literally. These scenes with Tessa are a two-hander, of course: he is talking to her, but it is himself he is facing (and, in many ways, he couldn&#8217;t do it without her there. She forces the issue.)<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i76.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i76.jpg\" alt=\"i76\" width=\"848\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86430\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i76.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i76-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i76-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i76-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Director John Cassavetes used to say that he &#8220;wasn&#8217;t interested in the scene&#8221;, and what the scene was &#8220;about&#8221; or anything like that. He was only interested &#8220;in what happens between people.&#8221; As in: literally &#8211; the space between them, the space that either opens up or closes when people talk. Space between people is <i>fraught<\/i> in Cassavetes&#8217; films, electric, jagged, filled with misunderstanding, fear, denial, or a yearning reach for connection. The people remain individuals, separated \u2026 but oh, what happens <i>between<\/i> them. The alchemy there in that space. And that&#8217;s where possibility lies: not on one side or the other, but in the space in-between.  <\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s what this scene makes me think of.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i77.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i77.jpg\" alt=\"i77\" width=\"847\" height=\"477\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86431\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i77.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i77-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i77-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i77-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nBecause these two actors create something rather extraordinary in the space between them. Both sides have their objective, and both can&#8217;t be true at the same time. It is an impasse. Dean is desperate, she is stoic. And yet in her stoic-ness is kindness.  Perhaps only those who have been beaten around a bit can really understand how relaxing stoic people can be. A stoic like that is actually performing an act of generosity by providing you <i>space<\/i>.<\/p>\n<p>And <i>space<\/i> is the one thing that no one <i>ever<\/i> gives Dean. Not literally and not emotionally. Granted, she is a Reaper, and she has come to retrieve him, but watch how she plays it. <\/p>\n<p>The text of the scene:<\/p>\n<p><strong>Dean: <\/strong>Look I&#8217;m sure you&#8217;ve heard this before but you gotta make an exception. You gotta cut me a break.<br \/>\n<strong>Tessa: <\/strong>Stage three. Bargaining.<br \/>\n<strong>Dean: <\/strong>I&#8217;m serious. My family is in danger. We&#8217;re kind of in the middle of this war and they need me.<br \/>\n<strong>Tessa: <\/strong>The fight&#8217;s over.<br \/>\n<strong>Dean: <\/strong>No it&#8217;s isn&#8217;t.<br \/>\n<strong>Tessa: <\/strong>It is for you. Dean, you&#8217;re not the first soldier I&#8217;ve plucked from the field. They all feel the same. They can&#8217;t leave. Victory hangs in the balance. But they&#8217;re wrong. The battle goes on without them.<br \/>\n<strong>Dean: <\/strong>My brother. He could die without me.<br \/>\n<strong>Tessa: <\/strong>Maybe he will. Maybe he won&#8217;t. Nothing you can do about it. It&#8217;s an honorable death. A warrior&#8217;s death.<br \/>\n<strong>Dean: <\/strong>I think I&#8217;ll pass on the 72 virgins, thanks. I&#8217;m not that into prude chicks, anyway.<br \/>\n<strong>Tessa: <\/strong>That&#8217;s funny. You&#8217;re very cute.<br \/>\n<strong>Dean: <\/strong>There&#8217;s no such thing as an honorable death. My corpse is gonna rot in the ground and my family is gonna die.  No. I&#8217;m not going with you. I don&#8217;t care what you do.<br \/>\n<strong>Tessa: <\/strong>Well. Like you said. There&#8217;s always a choice. I can&#8217;t make you come with me. But you&#8217;re not getting back in your body and that&#8217;s just facts. So yes, you can stay. And you&#8217;ll stay here for years, disembodied, scared, and over the decades it&#8217;ll probably drive you mad. Maybe you&#8217;ll even get violent.<br \/>\n<strong>Dean: <\/strong>What are you saying.<br \/>\n<strong>Tessa: <\/strong> Dean. How do you think angry spirits are born? They can&#8217;t let go and they can&#8217;t move on and you&#8217;re about to become one. The same thing you hunt. <\/p>\n<p>Okay so that&#8217;s a hell of a scene with a ton of words. Everything sloooowwws down, way down. In an episode full of tricks (swirling camera moves, and Jensen Ackles tiptoeing around behind the cameras), this one is filmed extremely straightforwardly. Closeup of Dean. Medium shot of her. Medium shot of him. Closeup of him. Closeup of her, until we are into two gigantic cometic closeups: Her, him, her, him. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i78.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i78.jpg\" alt=\"i78\" width=\"845\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86432\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i78.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i78-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i78-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i78-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i79.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i79.jpg\" alt=\"i79\" width=\"848\" height=\"477\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86433\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i79.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i79-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i79-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i79-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i80.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i80.jpg\" alt=\"i80\" width=\"846\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86434\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i80.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i80-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i80-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i80-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nShe&#8217;s got most of the lines. We get his reactions. Her &#8220;That&#8217;s funny. You&#8217;re very cute&#8221; is not sarcastic. It is also not personally invested. She sees his defense mechanisms, his survival techniques, and she comments on it, detached, no judgment. It&#8217;s a very strange and perfect line reading. He&#8217;s slow to figure it out. Slow to figure out that this is where it starts for entities like the Woman in White, and all the others. His panic about leaving his family is real. And while her lines sound cold on the page, what McKeon brings to it is a sense of release, a sense that it will be okay. It&#8217;s okay to let go. It&#8217;s over for you. And it&#8217;s okay that it&#8217;s over. It&#8217;s not your fight anymore. <\/p>\n<p>Both actors are simply amazing.  <\/p>\n<p><big>16th scene<\/big><br \/>\n&#8220;It&#8217;s very unseemly, making deals with devils,&#8221; says poor blind Azazel walking around in the <i>Angel Heart<\/i> demon dungeon. It looks like a Pat Benatar music video from 1983. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i81.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i81.jpg\" alt=\"i81\" width=\"845\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86435\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i81.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i81-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i81-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i81-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nSimilar to the structure of the Dean\/Tessa scene upstairs, this one is basically closeup to closeup. A standoff. There are all kinds of fascinating line readings.  John proposes his deal: I give you the Colt, you bring Dean back. <\/p>\n<p>Azazel coos, &#8220;Why, John, you&#8217;re a sentimentalist.&#8221; I am in love how he hits all of those &#8220;t&#8217;s&#8221; in the word. It&#8217;s so nasty. And then, even nastier, but hilarious in execution, Azazel sort of looks off into the distance, in true Melodrama Mode, saying, &#8220;If only your boys knew how much their daddy loves them.&#8221; Of course he was &#8220;inside&#8221; John back in the cabin, and he knows the twisted dynamic there, he used it to his advantage. I just love how he sort of glances off to the side, as though remembering happier times wistfully, when he says that line. It is so over-the-top. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i82.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i82.jpg\" alt=\"i82\" width=\"849\" height=\"479\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86436\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i82.jpg 849w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i82-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i82-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i82-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 849px) 100vw, 849px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nWe&#8217;ve got some plot to get through here, as well as the set-up for the whole upcoming season, a continuation of the cabin scene. So let&#8217;s get through it as quickly as possible and get back upstairs to Tessa and Dean. That&#8217;s the REAL point. But anyway, blah blah, &#8220;Yes, Dean is not a threat to me, and neither is Sam \u2026&#8221; His eyes gleam when he says Sam&#8217;s name, and of course Sam very well may be a threat, and John knows it, but let me try to remember what it was like watching this the first time through.<\/p>\n<p>Quite frankly I didn&#8217;t know what the fuck was going on.  <\/p>\n<p>I knew Sam was important. And I knew that John was playing some sort of game here, but the series doesn&#8217;t let us in on his thought process (a really wise choice: he remains, until the end, a mystery &#8211; perfect to be projected upon for the following DECADE).  <\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You know the truth, right? About Sammy?&#8221; says the demon almost in a confidential whisper. &#8220;And all the other children?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>John nods. &#8220;Yeah. I&#8217;ve known for a while.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i83.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i83.jpg\" alt=\"i83\" width=\"846\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86437\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i83.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i83-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i83-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i83-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n&#8220;But Sam doesn&#8217;t, does he.&#8221; says Azazel, and again with the hitting of the t&#8217;s. It sounds like a threat. This is definitely a macho showdown and not all that interesting, except for the acting. John gets off of the Sam topic and brings it back to Dean: can you bring Dean back. <\/p>\n<p>&#8220;No,&#8221; says the demon, tight-lipped smile, pleased with himself, enjoying the torment of his opponent. &#8220;But I know someone who can.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>John is flanked by two doctor-demons (because, of course, that&#8217;s what happens) and he tells Azazel (although the demon&#8217;s name is never said in the episode, it is just listed in the cast list on IMDB, so calling him &#8220;Azazel&#8221; feels like it&#8217;s cheating) that he will want to see that Dean is okay before handing over the Colt and the demon cluck-clucks with feigned hurt, &#8220;Don&#8217;t you trust me?&#8221; The best part about this demon (and many of the main demons) is that they are having a <i>blast<\/i>. It&#8217;s my main beef with the angels in the last couple of seasons. Yawn. What a buncha stiffs. I can&#8217;t even remember the faces of half of them, that&#8217;s how unmemorable the characters are, and yet Uriel? Who can ever forget Uriel?<\/p>\n<p>Demon says, No deal. You have to &#8220;sweeten the pot&#8221;. Poor Lehne has stepped right up into John&#8217;s grill, just as he did to John&#8217;s sons in &#8220;Devil&#8217;s Trap,&#8221; too close, too close, and those yellow eyes look like a psychedelic yo-yo.  John is used to not showing much and he doesn&#8217;t show much emotion here. He certainly has a reaction to the demon&#8217;s words, a recognition that shit just took a turn, but you couldn&#8217;t pin it down exactly.  <\/p>\n<p><big>17th scene<\/big><br \/>\nFrom the closeup to closeup revelation of the last Tessa-Dean exchange, with Dean fighting for his life in a sense of increasing panic and realization that that was not gonna happen, comes a complete shift in energy. Tessa and Dean are sitting on the hospital bed. He faces out. Closed into himself and yet still open to her. It&#8217;s not a Dean we have ever seen. His shoulders are relaxed and there&#8217;s something almost a little smushed in his face, an aperture that has been lowered, or some underlying structure &#8211; the ego, maybe, in the classic sense, or whatever it is that keeps a personality intact and active &#8211; has crumbled. He&#8217;s letting go.  And she is still there, talking him through it, stroking his hair in the way you would to someone suffering, a comforting gesture. Not romantic, but supportive and soothing. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i84.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i84.jpg\" alt=\"i84\" width=\"849\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86438\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i84.jpg 849w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i84-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i84-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i84-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 849px) 100vw, 849px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n&#8220;It&#8217;s time to put the pain behind you,&#8221; she says.  <\/p>\n<p>Dean without his protection and his Burlesque Act, the 72 virgins being his last wisecrack and even that came out weakly and halfheartedly, is completely untethered. This is something that is happening <i>from the inside<\/i>, and that&#8217;s all on Ackles. It&#8217;s like he&#8217;s being pulled out by the tide.  And he is almost \u2026 almost \u2026 comforted by it.  Maybe it is his time. Maybe he can let go. <\/p>\n<p>Then they are both in the frame, in a set-up similar to what they do with Dean and Sam all the time, with her in focus behind him, saying her line, and then, for his reaction, he comes into focus.  That&#8217;s the camera operator or focus puller doing that, and it is intricate and exact work, and requires exquisite perfect timing. It&#8217;s like music. You have to feel where the beat is, where the transition comes, otherwise you miss it. Although <em>Supernatural&#8217;s <\/em>style has zero to do with Cassavetes&#8217; style, Cassavetes filmed his big chaotic scenes all in one, determined to &#8220;capture&#8221; whatever event as it unfolded. Cassavetes&#8217; wife and lead actress Gena Rowlands once said, &#8220;The most important person on our films was the focus-puller.&#8221; So true, because if the focus puller misses a transition or a beat or an expression by half a second, or even less than that, you miss &#8220;The Moment.&#8221; You miss what Cassavetes was after which was &#8220;what happens between people.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>And <i>Supernatural<\/i> is FILLED with scenes shot in one (or &#8220;one-ers&#8221;), where the focus shifts back and forth, sometimes multiple times. You have to be on POINT: an actor can&#8217;t be doing his big moment when he&#8217;s still blurry!<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i85.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i85.jpg\" alt=\"i85\" width=\"845\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86439\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i85.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i85-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i85-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i85-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nDean&#8217;s body language is slack, so slack he is almost swaying a little bit. He looks at her. The space between them is full. He still has a choice. And the one she offers him comes with a gentle hand on the head, a soothing voice, a comforting environment of &#8220;It&#8217;s okay to let go.&#8221;  In the silence that stretches out, the lights suddenly start flickering. Dean&#8217;s tension returns (not entirely, he&#8217;s too relaxed for that), but there&#8217;s some vestige of his old protection as he stands up looking at her. Alarmed. Is he being tricked? She seems surprised as he by the lights. &#8220;I&#8217;m not doing that,&#8221; she says to him. <\/p>\n<p>Suddenly, from out of the floor grate, comes burbling black smoke. Dean is confused, but Tessa seems to understand completely and starts screaming, &#8220;YOU CAN&#8217;T DO THIS.&#8221;  Poor Dean cries, &#8220;What&#8217;s happening?&#8221; You got me, pal.<\/p>\n<p>The smoke then pours into her mouth for what feels like 45 minutes, all as Dean looks on, scared. Because, yeah, I&#8217;m freaked too. Uhm, Tessa, you okay there?  When the penetration is complete, good times good times, she whirls around to Dean, with the psychedelic yellow yo-yo eyes, and says, in a voice with a different cadence than her own, sounding like a bootlegger in a 1930s gangster film, &#8220;Today&#8217;s your lucky day, kid&#8221; and before Dean can even react she reaches out and puts her hand on his forehead, a very different kind of touch than before. It&#8217;s forceful and urgent. (Humorously, McKeon also was rendered blind by the contact lenses and so when she had to reach out and touch his forehead, she kept missing, and hitting the air next to his head, or putting her hand over his mouth. Ackles finally had to just place her hand at the level it needed to be, so she could remember it. Funny.)<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i86.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i86.jpg\" alt=\"i86\" width=\"846\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86440\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i86.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i86-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i86-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i86-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThe second she touches him, he spasms, violently, gasping for air, and then we see Dean, back in bed, lurching himself awake, coughing and choking on the tubes. <\/p>\n<p><big>18th scene<\/big><br \/>\nThe doc talks to Sam and Dean, seen through the doorway of the room, and the doc is shocked and mystified. &#8220;The edema&#8217;s vanished \u2026&#8221; Everything is better now. And then, foreshadowing something that will not occur until Season 4, the doc says, &#8220;You gotta have some kind of angel watching over you.&#8221; Sam is all layered-up and busted-up, towering over the bed, and Dean seems small and soft in his little white T-shirt, even with the big ol&#8217; biceps. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i87.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i87.jpg\" alt=\"i87\" width=\"847\" height=\"471\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86441\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i87.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i87-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i87-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i87-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nRemember when Dean talked about what it felt like to be healed in &#8220;Faith&#8221;: it felt wrong and cold. The whole &#8220;natural order&#8221; thing is going to take on huge weight in Season 2, and ultimately they both just had to let it go, because the fact of the matter is is that Dad died so Dean could live, and Dean should be dead, but he&#8217;s not, so what the hell are you gonna do about it.  By Season 4, Sam and Dean both make queasy jokes from time to time about how the two of them are poster boys for the UN-natural order, and it&#8217;s kind of amazing to go back and watch Season 2 again, to see what a new concept it is for them, how disturbing they both find it.  They talk about it again and again. How can Dean feel good about being alive when he senses somewhere that his dad had to die to make that happen? What&#8217;s dead should stay dead is Dean&#8217;s mantra in these starting episodes of Season 2. These are major psychological problems churning their way through Season 2, and if Dean &#8220;loses it&#8221; it&#8217;s because he is insistent that there is a natural order, and he&#8217;s gone against it, and it&#8217;s not right, it&#8217;s not right. <\/p>\n<p>Dean doesn&#8217;t remember what happened when he was out. He doesn&#8217;t remember Tessa. Dean&#8217;s arm lies across his torso, protectively. Dean says he has a &#8220;pit in his stomach \u2026 something&#8217;s wrong.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>John appears at the door, lightly knocking on the frame. He&#8217;s gentle, for him. He says to Dean, &#8220;How you feeling, dude?&#8221; The &#8220;dude&#8221; is interesting to me. It&#8217;s an almost forced intimacy, a casual-ness, that is not in their relationship normally. It is like they are equals. But they&#8217;re not. I find it interesting to think about.  <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i88.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i88.jpg\" alt=\"i88\" width=\"846\" height=\"475\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86442\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i88.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i88-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i88-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i88-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nDean is shy.  He doesn&#8217;t like being the center of attention, and being sick and bed-ridden is the ultimate in being the center of attention. And being cared for by his father, and worried over by his father, is obviously some deeply buried situation that he has yearned for his whole life, but when it actually happens, he doesn&#8217;t really like it. It&#8217;s too much.  He prefers things the old way, when his main job was to be invisible support-staff.  THAT he knows how to do. <\/p>\n<p>Dean, shy, says that he feels fine, he&#8217;s &#8220;alive&#8221;.  <\/p>\n<p>John nods. &#8220;That&#8217;s what matters.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>And beautiful busted-up Sam is having none of it. He breaks up the cozy family moment with a flatly stated accusation, &#8220;Where were you last night.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i89.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i89.jpg\" alt=\"i89\" width=\"846\" height=\"476\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86443\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i89.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i89-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i89-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i89-400x225.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nJohn&#8217;s ego bristles, you can see it flash in his eyes, but instead of lashing out, he shakes his head, &#8220;No.&#8221; And he says, showing patience and almost, almost, a little bit of humor, which makes the moment even odder to witness, &#8220;I had some things to take care of.&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p>Sam says, &#8220;Well. That&#8217;s specific.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>Dean, realizing what&#8217;s happening, that it&#8217;s starting again, has to intervene. &#8220;Come on, Sam \u2026&#8221; he says, but, as usual, he is ineffective in these moments of conflict. The fight is on. It can&#8217;t be stopped.<\/p>\n<p>Dean, helpless in the bed, kind of winces to himself, hearing Sam&#8217;s accusations, and he sort of hunches down, head down, for the fight that is about to go on over his head. His body language is so good in this final scene and he doesn&#8217;t have the use of his whole body, he&#8217;s in bed. But God, the story he&#8217;s telling with his torso and shoulders and neck and forehead. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i90.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i90.jpg\" alt=\"i90\" width=\"845\" height=\"473\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86444\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i90.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i90-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i90-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i90-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nJohn steps into the room, and again, there&#8217;s that flash of kindness and humor in his eyes, which completely undoes what he has been creating up until now. It&#8217;s not what we expect. It took my breath away the first time I saw it.  <\/p>\n<p>Before he speaks to Sam, he throws a quick glance down at Dean, off-screen, and I LOVE that glance. Dean is The Witness. Dean is the Shock Absorber of the family. Dean is The One who mediates, calms things down, pulls them off each other. He&#8217;s been doing it since he was a child. And both John and Sam have some contempt for Dean for that, even if they don&#8217;t state it outright. It&#8217;s like the contempt shown in family dynamics for a martyr-ish mother, sighing at the stove about how much work she does for the family. <em>Mom, nobody cares. You&#8217;re a walking victim. You&#8217;re &#8220;asking&#8221; for more abuse.<\/em> I&#8217;m not saying that&#8217;s right. I&#8217;m saying that that&#8217;s how it often happens. And so Dean is on the sidelines for these major fights, he would never speak to his father the way Sam does, he is the &#8220;good boy,&#8221; and yet there, before John says what he has to say to Sam, is that little glance thrown Dean&#8217;s way. Permission? Looking for approval? A check-in with the moral compass of the group? Whatever it is, and it could be a mix of all, it&#8217;s great. We don&#8217;t even SEE Dean, and that may be the best part of it. That&#8217;s Morgan&#8217;s genius. <\/p>\n<p>Now comes a masterpiece of what could be called true emotion or could be called, in the lexicon of <i>Zero Dark Thirty<\/i> and the Special Ops folks, &#8220;tradecraft.&#8221; You could make a strong case either way. It also could be both.  Good tradecraft always looks like something else, an almost perfect facsimile of some other type of benign behavior. Morgan is good enough to allow that ambiguity, which really helps his character cast the long long shadow that it does. That shadow NEEDS to be cast. If John Winchester were a clear villain or a clear saint, then who the hell would give a shit about him? The same, actually, is true for Mary. Things get far more interesting when we learn Mary Winchester is not just a saintly figure in a nightgown, but a hunter who has been specifically targeted.  So yes, John Winchester has been doing tradecraft for the entire episode, playing the demon, lying to his sons, and creating a smokescreen of innocence and plausible deniability behind which he can operate. For the greater good, supposedly. But obviously the damage here is almost complete. We&#8217;ve discussed before how <i>Supernatural<\/i> feels about good intentions. The best part about all of it is that Sam and Dean can sense their Dad&#8217;s machinations, somehow, and yet the waters are murky because he is their father, because they have been gaslit their whole lives, because they are also culpable in the lives they have lived (and been forced to live by their father), and so every interaction has guilt and shame and anger just beneath the surface. Whatever your opinions on all of it, it sure makes for some great behavior. <\/p>\n<p>John now puts a plea to Sam.  &#8220;Can we please \u2026 stop fighting?&#8221; He is serious, and yet he&#8217;s got that humor\/kindness in his eyes that makes the moment almost heart-stoppingly weird. The smile. The smile we have never seen on his face until now. I am drawn to the interpretation that this scene is basically a death-bed moment, a trying to make things right moment, before he goes off to meet his fate. But it is also an attempt to shut down Sam and his uncomfortable questions.  It&#8217;s both. But it&#8217;s John&#8217;s smile, that smile, that interests me.<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i91.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i91.jpg\" alt=\"i91\" width=\"847\" height=\"471\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86445\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i91.jpg 847w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i91-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i91-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i91-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 847px) 100vw, 847px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nNobody quite knows what to do. <\/p>\n<p>John goes on, &#8220;I&#8217;ve made some mistakes. But I&#8217;ve always done the best I could.&#8221; A small smile thrown down at Dean, who looks up at him, silent and serious. This scene plays out in almost identical language at the end of &#8220;The Purge,&#8221; in one of my favorite scenes in the whole damn series.  Those connections are devastating, and omnipresent, and are also why it&#8217;s so awesome to go back and watch these early episodes, to see the seeds being dropped along the forest path so early on in the game.  <\/p>\n<p>John pleads, &#8220;I just don&#8217;t want to fight anymore, all right?&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>And Sam&#8217;s reply is so great: &#8220;Dad, are you all right?&#8221; He sounds actually concerned, which is the best possible line-reading. <\/p>\n<p>Smiling, smiling, tradecraft smiling, John says, &#8220;Yeah. I&#8217;m just a little tired. Sammy, would you mind going to grab me a cup of caffeine?&#8221;  <\/p>\n<p>Sam, still troubled, leaves the room. An interesting side note: In the commentary, Padalecki mentions that his first impulse was to have some final moment with his dad, a sort of &#8220;glad we talked this out&#8221; glance, or something like that, and Kim Manners swayed him away from that choice, saying, in essence, &#8220;No. Just leave.&#8221; It makes the moment more poignant, because Sam will be robbed of having a &#8220;final moment&#8221; with his dad, and he will look back on his own exit wondering if he had any premonition that this would be the last time he saw his dad \u2026 and he will also look back on the moment and feel guilt that his final moments with his father were one of accusations. I mention this only because Padalecki the actor could get very Hallmark-movie in his acting if he weren&#8217;t in good material, if he didn&#8217;t have material that kept him dark and practical, and worked with directors who helped him. Padalecki copped to that himself by sharing that story. The danger is there for him, a draw towards sentimentality, a desire to <i>underline<\/i>, and thankfully, directors who understand story and psychology, guys like Robert Singer and Kim Manners, kept him off that obvious Hallmark-type path.  It has served him well. <\/p>\n<p>As Sam leaves, John turns to watch him go. Dean watches John watch Sam. There&#8217;s a long moment of silence, John staring after Sam, with all kinds of shit going on on his face, and Dean watching John, with all kinds of shit going on on his face. Dean&#8217;s position here is so submissive. John has his arm in a sling but he is standing up, tall, almost 100% back to health. Which \u2026 considering that he took the brunt of the crash \u2026 seems a bit \u2026 <\/p>\n<p>Oh well. Moving on.<\/p>\n<p>Sam, forget about it, he&#8217;s a badass with a busted eye holding a Ouija board. <\/p>\n<p>Dean&#8217;s gentleness here is part of being in recovery from an accident, of not being able to get up and about, and it makes what happens next that much more powerful. He is already accessible. I mean, he always is, but even more so now. He cannot &#8220;gear up&#8221; to meet what his father is saying in the following scene, he cannot protect himself, or even respond really.  It&#8217;s an assault. Dean watches his father, as Dean has done his whole life: trying to anticipate what is coming next, and what will be needed of him in that moment. <em>Who do I need to be for my father right now?<\/em> Here, Dean just says, simply, &#8220;What is it?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i92.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i92.jpg\" alt=\"i92\" width=\"840\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86446\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i92.jpg 840w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i92-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i92-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i92-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 840px) 100vw, 840px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Just an observation: when Dean talks to John, John is a blur at the corner of the frame, and when John talks to Dean, Dean is a blur, also in the frame. They are connected, visually. These are medium shots, not closeups, and so the horning-in on each other&#8217;s space, in each other&#8217;s shots, is a way to show how connected these two men are. Too connected. <i>Get out of my closeup, man!<\/i><\/p>\n<p>One might think that John would share something about Sam at first, because he has been staring off after Sam and that is clearly what Dean is asking about. But John has something to say first. (I love Ackles&#8217; stories about filming this scene, about how when the camera was on Morgan, doing his side of the conversation, Ackles was off-screen, breaking down in tears at Morgan&#8217;s performance, and he felt, &#8220;Damn, I gotta save some of this for MY side, Jeez.&#8221; But Morgan was so good, so emotionally connected, that the entire set held its breath. I bet even the boom operator was in tears, and that don&#8217;t happen often.)  <\/p>\n<p>What happens next is John&#8217;s &#8220;answer&#8221; to Dean&#8217;s angry hurt soliloquy earlier in the episode. It is not a declaration of love. It is an <i>acknowledgement<\/i> that how he treated Dean was not right and that he <i>sees<\/i> that.  Despite the fact that Dean has never been acknowledged for his sacrifices and his good-son role, and despite the fact that he has always wanted something, a scrap, a crumb, from his dad to show he recognizes it \u2026 to get it full-frontal like this is upsetting. Dean cannot take it. And while Morgan&#8217;s work is superb, it wouldn&#8217;t work or land if we didn&#8217;t get those incredible shots of Dean listening, which are almost more compelling. Sometimes he goes inward, to take something in, to consider it, and then his eyes are drawn back to focus on his father. Sometimes he has a reaction to something that is said, but it&#8217;s gentle, not knee-jerk, a sort of swooning response, where you can see him try to reject what is coming at him. He wants to reject it not because it is wrong, but because he is still taking care of his father and he doesn&#8217;t want his father to feel bad or feel guilty. That pull is still there. The slight moments of rejection are not hard-edged, they are soft as goose-down, sort of pulling on Dean, brushing against him, and then letting him be.  It&#8217;s some of the most accessible work Ackles has ever done, and that&#8217;s saying something.  <\/p>\n<p>John shares a story of coming back from a hunt when Dean was little. And John would be &#8220;wrecked&#8221; and Dean would come over and pat him on the shoulder and say, &#8220;It&#8217;s okay, Dad.&#8221; <em>Supernatural <\/em>is always touching when it connects the two giant hunks on the screen with the little ankle-biters they used to be \u2026 it&#8217;s one of the ways it messes with\/respects\/examines the Iconic Tough Guy Tradition. Because even John Wayne or Clint Eastwood was a little boy once upon a time. And how does that make us feel? And how does it make those Tough Guys feel? To remember being little and helpless and not strong enough? <\/p>\n<p>Dean, of course, remembers how it was when he was a kid, and has some adult resentment at how much he has done, and how little he&#8217;s been thanked \u2026 but something like taking care of his dad emotionally, and saying &#8220;It&#8217;s okay, Dad&#8221;? Isn&#8217;t that what a good son should do? That&#8217;s Dean&#8217;s reality. Of course it is my job to tell my Dad things are going to be okay. There are shots of Dean listening where he looks almost vaguely confused. It gets worse when a tear rolls down John&#8217;s face. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i93.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i93.jpg\" alt=\"i93\" width=\"848\" height=\"471\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86447\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i93.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i93-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i93-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i93-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThat smile again.  FAS-CI-NA-TING. <\/p>\n<p>&#8220;I put too much on your shoulders. I made you grow up too fast.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>If the emotions weren&#8217;t so strong, perhaps Dean would intervene, automatically. &#8220;Dad, stop it.&#8221; &#8220;It&#8217;s okay. I&#8217;m fine.&#8221; &#8220;You did what you had to do.&#8221; And etc. There are some pretty interesting arguments between Sam and Dean along those lines in Season 2, and we&#8217;ve already seen some in Season 1. But here, in the hospital bed, Dean can&#8217;t intervene, although you can feel him want to, in those semi-swoons of silent rejection that you see come over him and then just as quickly vanish.  <\/p>\n<p>&#8220;You took care of Sammy. You took care of me. You did that. And you didn&#8217;t complain, not once. I just want you to know that I am so proud of you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i95.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i95.jpg\" alt=\"i95\" width=\"844\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86448\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i95.jpg 844w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i95-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i95-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i95-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 844px) 100vw, 844px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>Considering the fact that a mere 24 hours before it was those same words that tipped Dean off that Dad was being penetrated by a leering demon, it&#8217;s not a surprise that Dean is surprised and distrustful. He&#8217;s also in tears. He has needed to hear those words his whole life, and he&#8217;s afraid that he&#8217;s about to be tricked again, that it&#8217;s not real, that something will happen to take away this moment from him. That&#8217;s all going on. Jensen Ackles looks about 7 years old.  He asks, afraid, suspicious, hopeful, &#8220;Is this really you talking?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>John smiles, still in tears, and says, &#8220;Yeah. It&#8217;s really me.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p><big>Let&#8217;s Talk About the Belljar Effect<\/big><br \/>\nLet&#8217;s say I say to a friend or a boyfriend or a family member, &#8220;I&#8217;m so proud of you&#8221; and they react with disbelief and ask if it&#8217;s really me talking. And let&#8217;s pretend that everyone is healthy. My reaction to their disbelief would be, &#8220;Wait \u2026 why is me being proud of you strange to you? What have I done to make you distrust that? Can we talk about that??&#8221;  That happened a lot for me, post-diagnosis, when I realized how much my illness had been running the show, trapping me in an airless belljar. I won&#8217;t go into too big a monologue but recently I noticed that when people ask me how I&#8217;m doing now, they often seem worried, like they are gearing up for a bad answer. These are some of my best friends. Pre-diagnosis I would get the same worried question and I would silently seethe about how everyone was worried about me all the time, and Goddammit, why can&#8217;t they just let me alone. But that was the insidious negativity of the illness, closing me off from truly wonderful things like a friend&#8217;s concern. And while there is much less need to be worried about me now, that is a holdover from the years when they were rightly concerned, and so now \u2026 when I get that worried &#8220;How are you????&#8221; what I am present to is not annoying intrusion, but sincere love. The belljar has lifted, in other words. It makes the whole world seem kinder. Everyone is just doing their best. People being worried about me does not mean they are reducing me or assuming I am incompetent. It means they love me and want me to stick around. <\/p>\n<p>So back to: &#8220;Is this really you talking?&#8221; and &#8220;Yeah, it&#8217;s really me.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s a profound moment of emotion between the two men. It has heft and weight. Both men are in tears. But crack that belljar, let in some air, and John Winchester might go on to say, &#8220;Yeah, it&#8217;s really me, and I am so sorry that our relationship is set up that you would even have to ask that. That&#8217;s on me, son. It&#8217;s not right. It&#8217;s how I set it up, and I didn&#8217;t even realize I was doing it \u2026&#8221; and on and on, you can see how much more AIR there is in a comment like that. But here, in this beautiful open scene, that belljar is still closed tight. It&#8217;s pretty interesting.  And perfect. The audience leans forward, wanting more, filling in the gaps, yearning for a more complete conversation. But if you provide an audience with a complete conversation (&#8220;Here is how I feel&#8221; &#8220;That&#8217;s interesting because here is what I got from that&#8221; &#8220;I am so sorry because that is not how I meant it&#8221; and on and on), not only would you bore me to death, you would drown in the obvious and you would crush the most important element in any scene, which is the subtext.  Without subtext, <em>Supernatural <\/em>would fail. The Belljar persists.<br \/>\n<big>Belljar Blah Blah Over<\/big><\/p>\n<p>John saying these things makes Dean fall apart. You can actually see it happen. And it&#8217;s so strange to fall apart in front of this strong man who ran the show for Dean&#8217;s whole entire life. And it&#8217;s embarrassing to be the center of such warm and gooey attention, such loving care.  Interesting to note that Dean was not embarrassed when Tessa focused only on him. He relaxed so totally that he was practically asleep sitting up. But here, it&#8217;s a fight to even be present.  <\/p>\n<p>Dean asks, and he seems truly anxious (and he&#8217;s right to be), &#8220;Why are you saying this?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>John moves forward to the side of the bed. &#8220;I want you to watch out for Sammy.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i96.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i96.jpg\" alt=\"i96\" width=\"843\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86453\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i96.jpg 843w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i96-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i96-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i96-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 843px) 100vw, 843px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nDean, frozen, afraid, emotional, caught: &#8220;Dad, you know I will \u2026 You&#8217;re scaring me.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>John, tears on his face, and the smile, says, &#8220;Don&#8217;t be scared, Dean.&#8221; (&#8220;Dean&#8221; now, not &#8220;dude.&#8221; Sorry. But everything means something.) <\/p>\n<p>After that, watch the clamp-down on John&#8217;s wrecked tear-streaked face, the sudden inward-ness, the focus, as he leans down to Dean&#8217;s ear and whispers. It&#8217;s very very frightening. The scene is so good, so scary: An apology for expecting Dean to take care of him, and putting too much on Dean as a kid, followed by the whispered command (that we don&#8217;t hear, and don&#8217;t know what was said until freakin&#8217; &#8220;Croatoan&#8221;, which is episode nine. EPISODE NINE.  Talk about your tradecraft. That is some world-class shit).  One of my favorite things about the show is its patience with these long long Arcs. There are entire episodes coming up where you forget that John whispered in Dean&#8217;s ear, and that Dean recoiled back in such alarm. But the show had enough confidence in the seed they had planted that they felt the could completely ignore it from time to time. What makes it even funner, from an audience perspective, is that even when it is not mentioned, you can watch Ackles play it. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i97.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i97.jpg\" alt=\"i97\" width=\"845\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86450\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i97.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i97-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i97-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i97-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i98.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i98.jpg\" alt=\"i98\" width=\"845\" height=\"470\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86451\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i98.jpg 845w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i98-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i98-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i98-400x222.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 845px) 100vw, 845px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i99.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i99.jpg\" alt=\"i99\" width=\"846\" height=\"472\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86452\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i99.jpg 846w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i99-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i99-200x111.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i99-400x223.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 846px) 100vw, 846px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nThe way father and son are filmed here is intimate, the two of them basically on top of each other in the bed, faces pressed together, too close, so close that Dean actually has to move his head back in order to look at his father. It&#8217;s great. Suffocating. Belljar.<\/p>\n<p>And Dean&#8217;s expression is so awful that I remember thinking, &#8220;Oh my GOD what the HELL.&#8221; Obviously it&#8217;s about Sam. But WHAT. Whatever it was, it is clearly Dean&#8217;s worst nightmare. Put on his shoulders. <em>Okay I just removed the burden on your shoulders from your childhood. Feel better? Lighter? Great. Because here&#8217;s an even heavier burden to take its place.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>John and Dean share a long terrible look. John still struggles to smile, wanting to be reassuring, wanting to make sure his message got across, and nods a couple of times, a sort of &#8220;You heard me right&#8221; and &#8220;Yes&#8221; to the horrible question on Dean&#8217;s face. <\/p>\n<p>John, having done what he needed to do, leaves the room, and Dean watches him go, now completely at a loss, floundering, flailing. Buzzkill, Dad, major buzzkill. <\/p>\n<p>Job done, John goes to some random room, one of the rooms booked by Azazel for the various showdowns that need to occur. John slowly places the Colt on the food tray. We don&#8217;t see the demon, but we do see a dark shape on the left side of the frame, a great effect: after seeing so much of the demon, we don&#8217;t see him at all here. He&#8217;s just a looming shadow, predatory, eager. <\/p>\n<p>Cut to Sam ambling down the hallway with a cup of coffee in his hands. He, too, seems reduced. There&#8217;s something different about his walk. It&#8217;s hesitant, shuffling a little bit. He doesn&#8217;t go to Dean&#8217;s room where he left his father. Instead he goes to his dad&#8217;s room. Which, I don&#8217;t know, I find interesting. And when he gets to the doorway and looks in, he stops. John is lying on the floor, with a dark splotch on his T-shirt. <\/p>\n<p>We get some slo-mo again, with the camera basically on the floor, as we see Sam&#8217;s cup of coffee drop out of his hands and land on the floor, AND it stays upright, the coffee sloshing up and out of it. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i101.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i101.jpg\" alt=\"i101\" width=\"844\" height=\"474\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86454\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i101.jpg 844w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i101-100x56.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i101-200x112.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i101-400x224.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 844px) 100vw, 844px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\nI mean, you couldn&#8217;t have planned for that in a million years. <\/p>\n<p>The inspirational Winchester-family music, so prominent at the end of &#8220;Shadow,&#8221; comes in, as Sam runs into the room, crouching by John, and screaming up and out for help. <\/p>\n<p><big>19th scene<\/big><br \/>\nThe beeping of monitors, the chaos of nurses and doctors, and Sam has helped Dean out of bed, the two of them appearing in the doorway. A nurse tries to stop them, and Dean says, &#8220;No &#8211; that&#8217;s our dad\u2026&#8221; Lots of insert shots of needles and oxygen masks and surgical tools, and shots of John on the table, from above (same God&#8217;s eye point of view), and then close in to his face. Dean and Sam look on, increasing panic, urgency, emotion, but at a certain point, it&#8217;s over. The screen goes to black and the doctor calls it from the blackout: &#8220;Time of death, 10:41 a.m.&#8221; <\/p>\n<p>But not before we see both brothers, near tears, scared, resistant, in denial, busted all to hell, and gorgeous. Just like I like &#8217;em. <\/p>\n<p>\n<a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i102.jpg\"><img decoding=\"async\" loading=\"lazy\" src=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i102.jpg\" alt=\"i102\" width=\"848\" height=\"470\" class=\"alignnone size-full wp-image-86455\" srcset=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i102.jpg 848w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i102-100x55.jpg 100w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i102-200x110.jpg 200w, https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/wp-content\/uploads\/2014\/07\/i102-400x221.jpg 400w\" sizes=\"(max-width: 848px) 100vw, 848px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p>\n<big>Season 2 Begins!<\/big><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Directed by Kim Manners Written by Eric Kripke Season 2 starts &#8220;not with a bang, but a whimper.&#8221; &#8220;In My Time of Dying&#8221; is this perfect little snow globe world of an episode, which takes place mostly in one setting, &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/?p=85922\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":[],"categories":[31],"tags":[2276,2757,2262,2279,2296,2263],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/85922"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=85922"}],"version-history":[{"count":235,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/85922\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":201164,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/85922\/revisions\/201164"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=85922"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=85922"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.sheilaomalley.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=85922"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}