“I started with A”

Billy Collins, former poet laureate, wrote “The Names” in the wake of September 11 and read it during a special joint session of Congress in New York on September 6, 2002.

The Names

Yesterday, I lay awake in the palm of the night.
A soft rain stole in, unhelped by any breeze,
And when I saw the silver glaze on the windows,
I started with A, with Ackerman, as it happened,
Then Baxter and Calabro,
Davis and Eberling, names falling into place
As droplets fell through the dark.
Names printed on the ceiling of the night.
Names slipping around a watery bend.
Twenty-six willows on the banks of a stream.
In the morning, I walked out barefoot
Among thousands of flowers
Heavy with dew like the eyes of tears,
And each had a name —
Fiori inscribed on a yellow petal
Then Gonzalez and Han, Ishikawa and Jenkins.
Names written in the air
And stitched into the cloth of the day.
A name under a photograph taped to a mailbox.
Monogram on a torn shirt,
I see you spelled out on storefront windows
And on the bright unfurled awnings of this city.
I say the syllables as I turn a corner —
Kelly and Lee,
Medina, Nardella, and O’Connor.
When I peer into the woods,
I see a thick tangle where letters are hidden
As in a puzzle concocted for children.
Parker and Quigley in the twigs of an ash,
Rizzo, Schubert, Torres, and Upton,
Secrets in the boughs of an ancient maple.
Names written in the pale sky.
Names rising in the updraft amid buildings.
Names silent in stone
Or cried out behind a door.
Names blown over the earth and out to sea.
In the evening — weakening light, the last swallows.
A boy on a lake lifts his oars.
A woman by a window puts a match to a candle,
And the names are outlined on the rose clouds —
Vanacore and Wallace,
(let X stand, if it can, for the ones unfound)
Then Young and Ziminsky, the final jolt of Z.
Names etched on the head of a pin.
One name spanning a bridge, another undergoing a tunnel.
A blue name needled into the skin.
Names of citizens, workers, mothers and fathers,
The bright-eyed daughter, the quick son.
Alphabet of names in a green field.
Names in the small tracks of birds.
Names lifted from a hat
Or balanced on the tip of the tongue.
Names wheeled into the dim warehouse of memory.
So many names, there is barely room on the walls of the heart.

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3 Responses to “I started with A”

  1. Emily says:

    It’s all too much for me…am I alone?

  2. Beth says:

    Oh, Emily, you are not alone. My heart hurts when I think of all those people, and all their families. It’s kind of like a mobile- you can’t touch one piece of it, without moving all the others. One life is NOT one life- it is soooo many more.

  3. rossi says:

    feeling “911” deeply
    profoundly today
    does make you feel alone
    because most folks have moved on
    and yes
    ive moved on too
    but not this weekend
    not yesterday or today
    but maybe, again tomorrow
    you are not alone
    nothing like this has ever happened before
    it would be so natural to cry
    for generations
    over this loss

    yesterday i bought a cup of coffee and an eclair
    for someone i dont really know
    that made me feel less alone

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