So as I explained, I have been the primary Lego assembler over this Christmas holiday. The house is now filled with my creations. Quite elaborate. Cashel and I have had fun putting them together.
This morning – Cashel was, of course, up before any of us. He was wide-eyed and alert, playing up and down the hallway with his Luke Skywalker and Han Solo action figures, as though he had been up for hours.
I got up at the fiery crack of 10:30 am. I made some toast. I poured a cup of coffee. I got my 56 pound “Ring trilogy”, and went to sit in the living room, for a glorious bacchanal of reading and caffeine. And QUIET.
On the edges of my consciousness, I became aware that Cashel was talking about taking apart one of the Lego constructions – so that he could have the fun of re-assembling it.
He was blabbing to my parents. “I think I want to take the Harry Potter room apart and then put it back together again …”
My parents: “Good idea, Cash! Good for you!”
Cashel then said, calling out to me, as he set himself up at the dining room table, “Auntie Sheila – I’m gonna take this apart … ”
I knew he was telling me because I was “the one”, in terms of Legos. Did he need my help? Did he want my aid? Was he okay?
Then Cashel said, “But I don’t need your help, Auntie Sheila. Don’t worry. I can do it. You can have some time alone.”
You can have some time alone.
The sensitivity of that … the selflessness of that … to even notice that I wanted “some time alone” … and to inform me that he could do it on his own …
My heart literally cracked at his emotional courage.
And – of course – the second he said those words, I had no more desire for any “time alone” whatsoever! – I had to put my book down, put the toast down, and go and play Legos with Cashel.
He is 6 years old. He is very brave. He is smart.
I’d rather hang out with him than read about Hobbits any day.
Oh, Sheila, you’re so right. Hobbits will always be there on paper to go back to…your moments with Cashel are rare and precious. He is priceless. No wonder you want to eat him all up! I’m glad you’ve got a nice chunk of time right now to spend with him. And thank you for writing about him – and about you with him. I know those feelings…and how all those fierce, powerful, beautiful and painful emotions surge up and spill over….