— I rarely dream anymore. I used to have vivid crazy dreams, and I kept a daily dream journal – but that all stopped about 10 years ago. 2 nights ago I had a dream – that woke me up at around 2 am – and it was so awful that I honestly have not felt quite right since. I used to miss my dreams – but not dreams like THAT. I think it might have been the worst dream I’ve ever had. Not because it was scary. But because it was psychologically shattering. I’m still not “back together”. Careful what you wish for. i don’t want to dream if I have to have dreams like THAT.
— Slowly but surely making my way thru Bleak House. Loving it. Not too much time to read these days.
— I am missing people right now. I feel like I miss everyone. So to everyone I know? Consider yourself missed.
— Things I am interested in right now: Montenegro, the new iPods, no-hitters, LASIK, Provincetown, HTML, the desert, Eugene O’Neill’s early plays, the psychology of riots and the behavior of crowds.
— Things I love: Pacifica French Lilac body butter, how my biceps are changing, Dunkin Donuts iced coffee, second-hand stories about Cashel’s first day of school, getting emails from friends and family, having crushes – the kind that can’t ever hurt me, my Quantum Leap collection, the way my books are lined up, autumn, Joan Didion, my magic wand (TM), Howard Hawks, the raucous laughter of Jimmy Fallon, running into friends on the streets of New York, pesto, full moons, Ben Gay, my Nag Champa, the look of the Chrysler Building at night
— I’m working on something this week that has kept me frazzled and insane – and at times I get so nuts about it that when I look in the mirror I see a big blotchy red flush on my neck and collarbone. I can’t sleep much – I have been taking a car service home at night (I just got home from today’s marathon – I am writing this at 11:45 at night) – and I like sitting in the quiet plush air-conditioning as we approach the Lincoln Tunnel, and I like laughing with my driver about how psychic the GPS dude is. “You will take a right in 300 yards.” intones the polite GPS dude. Laughter “Oh my God – he is so right ON!” I say. GPS man is a stalker. He knows EXACTLY where I live. My mind races. I am consumed. It is all I can do to remind myself to go pee when I need to, and deal with plummeting blood sugar at key moments. I won’t sleep tonight. But if I do …
— no more dreams, thank you.
— keep this in mind and try to sleep well:
… or try to sleep at all.
Sheila,
Sounds like a very crazy time for you and I’m with you on the whole “sit you straight up in the middle on the night” dream. Absolutely awful!!!
By the way since it’s one of your listed interests recently, I had LASIK surgery in 2000. That was back when the surgery was still fairly new, as far as medical standards are concerned. It is the best decision I EVER made about my eyes in my life! I was in glasses since the ripe old age of 10, great time to get glasses if you like getting picked on (and who doesn’t like THAT!!). I finally got to switch to contacts in high school, but found that I have a slight allergic reaction to most lenses. So it was glasses all the way.
I had a slight astigmatism and 20/400 eyesight in both eyes. I wasn’t blind, but I sure as hell was blurred beyond any recognition. After the surgery and the 48 recovery, which just involved eye drops, I had 20/15 vision in both eyes. After about the third year it did level out at 20/20 and has been that way ever since. I highly recommend this procedure to most that ask about it, just research your doctor thoroughly and there are plenty places and references to do that!!
There’s my two pennies. I hope your life and dreams somewhat settle and I hope that all remains well.
~chuck in maine
p.s. CONGRATS on the BF% loss.
chuck – Thanks for your personal tale … So many people I’ve spoken to share your experience – they all say “best thing ever” etc. I’m just looking into it (with my bad freakin’ eyesight, hahahaha) … but thanks for the information!
You know what’s kinda fun with GPS? Having it speak in other languages. Granted, this is only good if you know where you’re going already, but still, it’s entertaining. I’ve done this in rental cars in touristy places like Miami, where the systems have to cover a lot of bases.
Not only does GPS Stalker Dude(or Dudette, as has been the case) know exactly where your hotel is, he/she yammers at you in Japanese or Italian, or whatever. The German sounds a bit stern, though.
A lot of topics there, but when I got to ‘no-hitters’, I was instantly transported to 1965 when my head was pressed against the radio in a San Francisco suburb trying to hear from L.A. through ear-destroying static Vin Scully announcing the Sandy Koufax perfect game against the Cubs. (1-0, Bob Hendley losing pitcher, Lou Johnson double gets the run.) Inimitable Vinnie. Harvey Kuenn the last out, a whiff. “Swung on and missed!” Baseball. It sticks, don’t it?
Noonz – I was laughing with the driver about the voice – The GPS voice was a very polite male voice … but I’ve been in cars where the voice is kind of a soothing mellifluous female voice, and my driver expressed a wish that he could have THAT voice telling him what to do.
hahahaha
What on earth was this dream?! Sounds awful.
love you and miss you,
K
Oh Kate – it was horrible – I still can’t shake the thing. I’ll tell you when next we talk … although I don’t want to add to your stress!!!
Love you!
Hahaha. I’ll bet.
Wouldn’t be refreshing to have a “rude” option, too? Like, instead of Captain Polite instructing you to “Please make a legal U-Turn,” he gets all Noo Yawk and is like, “You missed the turn, F**kface. Now you gotta go back. What am I, talking to myself, here?”
I saw Robin Williams perform once and he did a very funny bit about an angry irritated GPS voice. It sounded kind of like Dr. Ruth – but if Dr. Ruth was ENRAGED.
“I SAID. TO TAKE. A RRRRRRRIGHT.”
hahahaha
Like: “You MORON!”
Oh, and one last thing: Imagine the fun that could be had if say, they made a sequel to ‘A Fish Called Wanda’ and they put the Jamie Lee Curtis character in a car with multilingual GPS and a male voice.
ROFL – New Yawk tawk GPS – reminds me of the Eddie Murphy skit about the talking car.
[Mellifluous female voice] “Lights are on.”
[Brother from the ‘hood] “Yo man…yo litsis on….what are you, deaf AND stupid?”
I think Quantum Leap is the next TV series Im going to have to invest in…once I get through with my X-Files obsession.
“Mulder, its me…”
“Mulder…shut up.”
[Scully describes a hallucinating Mulder singing the theme from ‘Shaft’] “I DID NOT!!!”
“Scully…shouldn’t we be picking out our china and silverware?”
Have you ever had a dream that once you looked up the symbolism for, you realize you CANT do what the dream is suggesting you should do – to do so would bring even more disaster? I mean, if the interpretation of the dream was such that you were trying to get away from some fears…
Oh Lord, I just wrote something that criminal psychologists would have a FIELD day with…ITS NOT THAT WAY AT ALL!!!
Anyway, I know completely what kind of dreams youre having…
I so want to get Lasik done…am gonna try next year…
Maybe I missed your talking about it in an earlier post…but why Montenegro?
Actually, Sharon, this dream was more like a premonition of doom. Crystal clear. like a vision of the future. I don’t really want to talk about it anymore.
Always wanted to go to Montenegro – I’ll get there someday!
Oh and Sharon – I luuuuurve me some X files too!
You and I have such similar tastes – I love it!! Russell Crowe (yum) and X files and Sydney Carton. Ha!!!