“I am interested in the goddam sad science of war.” — Ernest Hemingway

Paris Review interview, 2007:
Interviewer: Is it possible [Hemingway] showed a generation how to get emotion into a sentence without mentioning emotion?
Norman Mailer: Yes, and he did it more than anyone ever had before or after. But he’s a trap. If you’re not careful you end up writing like him. It’s very dangerous to write like Hemingway, but on the other hand it’s almost a rite of passage. I almost wouldn’t trust a young novelist – I won’t speak for the women here, but for a male novelist – who doesn’t imitate Hemingway in his youth.

It’s his birthday today.

While it has now become a kind of annoying meme, it’s always good to go back to the source. The source is always more powerful than the imitations. A writer challenged Hemingway: Write a story in 6 words. Hemingway was a gambler, a risk-taker, and would never walk away from a challenge. The problem obsessed him. 6-word story … it obsessed him for a couple of days. What he came up with is quite famous (and way better than the milque-toast imitations):

For Sale: Baby Shoes. Never Used.

Hemingway said later he thought it was the best thing he ever wrote.


Dean Stockwell and Ernest Hemingway

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July 20, 1969: Tranquility

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President Kennedy to the joint session of Congress on May 25 1961:

“I believe that this nation should commit itself to achieving the goal, before this decade is out, of landing a man on the Moon and returning him safely to the Earth.”

Here’s an incredible photo of their approach to the landing spot, taken from the lunar module:

Buzz Aldrin to NASA, after landing on the moon:

“This is the LM pilot. I’d like to take this opportunity to ask every person listening in, whoever and wherever they may be, to pause for a moment and contemplate the events of the past few hours and to give thanks in his or her own way.”

Neil Armstrong to Mission Control:

“Houston, Tranquility Base here. The Eagle has landed.”

The Walter Cronkite telecast as it all happened gives me goosebumps. Of course I didn’t see it at the time, but it puts you right back there.

From The New York Times article on July 21, 1969:

His first step on the moon came at 10:56:20 P.M., as a television camera outside the craft transmitted his every move to an awed and excited audience of hundreds of millions of people on earth.

Neil Armstrong reporting back as he stepped out onto the moon:

“The surface is fine and powdery. I can kick it up loosely with my toe. It does adhere in fine layers, like powdered charcoal, to the sole and sides of my boots.”

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Buzz Aldrin

And Buzz Aldrin describes what he sees, in my favorite phrase of that momentous day:

“Magnificent desolation.”

 
 
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“The reality is you don’t arrive, you don’t have a crone ceremony and suddenly get wisdom.” — Olympia Dukakis

“I recognize that the real pulse of life is transformation, yet I work in a world dominated by men and the things men value, where transformation is not the coinage. It’s not even the language! Winning is everything in Hollywood. The ‘deal’ is everything. I understand the competitive thing because I had a real battle with it as a young woman. Because of my ethnicity, I felt I had to prove I was better – not as good as, but better – than others. Thankfully, it became clear to me that when I compete, I lose my connection to the passion I have for my work. Every once in a while, I come across a man who has the desire to collaborate and be conciliatory. But if I want to continue acting and have the potential for financial prosperity – something that came to me very late in life – I have to live with these competitive values.” — Olympia Dukakis

The quote above comes from an extraordinary interview with Dukakis I came across – which is actually a chapter in the book In Sweet Company: Conversations with Extraordinary Women About Living a Spiritual Life, by Margaret Wolff. I highly recommend reading the whole thing.


Husband and wife Louis Zorich and Olympia Dukakis in The Seagull, Williamstown Theater Festival

The first thing I thought of when I heard the sad news of Olympia Dukakis’ passing was the compulsive sighs emanating from her Oscar-winning performance in Moonstruck. She would let out these little exhalations of air from time to time, sometimes in conversation, sometimes not, standing at the stove cooking, a mournful short quick sigh. It was a “tic” of the character – we all have “tics” like this – but Dukakis didn’t do it as a “tic”. The character needed to let tension and anxiety. So much was in the sigh. A lifetime was in the sigh.

Only a great actress could pull it off.



The second thing I thought of was an interview she did for a wonderful book called The Actor’s Chekhov (about the company of actors who came to Williamstown Theatre Festival every summer while Nikos Psacharopoulos was artistic director, people like Christopher Walken, Laila Robins, Blythe Danner. It’s a fantastic book, particularly for student actors because these people know how to WORK. It’s one of the best “acting process” books in my entire collection, because none of it is theoretical. It’s ALL practical.

As a young actress, the following passage blew my mind because it showed just how detailed you had to be when going through the script, how you could take NOTHING for granted. You had to be so curious! Don’t be obedient and passive: you must be active as an actor, you must ask questions about every single thing your character says.

This is one of the BEST examples I have ever seen of how to ask questions in the early stages of working with a script.

Listen to how Dukakis tries to figure out why her character says one line in particular. It’s a seemingly banal line, a “nothing” line, filler, just chit-chat. (But, as my very first acting mentor Kimber Wheelock used to drill into our heads: In acting, nothing can be “just”. You aren’t “just” sad. You aren’t “just” walking out of the room. You are sad. You are walking out of a room for a reason. Any time you hear yourself saying the word “just” – and this doesn’t just go for actors – take a second to stop and ask yourself why. You’re lying to yourself somewhere Find the lie, and remove the “just”.) So here, watch how she goes about solving the problem of the moment. You have to know why you’re saying something because once you know the WHY you then know the HOW. Otherwise you’re just being GENERAL. Human beings do this naturally, without thinking. We are SPECIFIC as humans, we aren’t GENERAL. You don’t have to think, “Wait, why am I saying this again?” as a regular human being. But actors do. Actors have to make choices. What seems like a throw-off line is a huge PUZZLE to Dukakis, and it was a problem she needed to solve. Not just for herself but ALSO for the audience. Chekhov wrote a “moment” here – it’s not random, NOTHING is random – so what IS the moment (a) and (b) how do I PLAY that moment?

Olympia Dukakis, along with her acting career, was an acting teacher all her life. You can see here why she was such a great one. I cannot even explain how much the following anecdote influenced me in my own work. Transformative:

Something very interesting happened the first time I did Paulina in The Sea Gull. She comes to them in the third act, and says, “Here are the plums for the journey.” And when I was researching it I thought, why is she giving him plums for the journey? It always seemed like she was a batty person! And then I began reading what it was like to go on a journey then. There was a long time on the train, it was very difficult, the food was very bad, people would get diarrhea, constipation. And when I read that I knew what it was! Bowel movements! So, I mean, I could play that! That’s something that’s a private thing, you don’t announce it to everyone. I mean, if I came up to you and you were going on a trip and I said, “Here’s some Ex-Lax,” I wouldn’t make a big announcement! I would try to be confidential about it. So that helped me with how the moment should be acted. But even then, I thought the audience doesn’t know this, they don’t know that that’s what plums are about. The line should be prunes! An audience will know prunes.

Now the word in the text is plums, there’s no getting around it, the specific literal translation was “plums”. At least that’s what I was told again and again by Kevin McCarthy. Because Kevin had been in that production with Mira Rostova, he considered himself the big Chekhov expert among us. He didn’t think it should be changed. As usual I didn’t go up to Nikos and say, “Listen, I think we should change this, blah blah blah.” I just did it one day in rehearsal. Nikos fell over with laughter! Kevin was apoplectic. But I felt – it’s not the specific word, that’s true, but this is the spirit of it, this is what’s intended, this is what Chekhov wants the audience to know the woman is doing.

Nikos waited till Kevin had given me my scolding and left the room and then he came over and said, “Keep it in.”

Olympia Dukakis came and spoke at my grad school. One of the things she said really struck me. She was 70 years old or something like that, and someone asked her something about becoming famous later in life, and the gist of the question was that since there weren’t as many elderly actresses, it might be easier to become famous later because there was less competition.

Dukakis – nobody’s fool – and actually rather scary in an exciting way – said, with no bitterness, but her tone was like “let me just shred up that illusions for you right now, kiddo”: “Listen, every script that comes to me has been offered to Gena Rowlands first. I get the script and Gena’s fingerprints are all over it. Any role I get it’s only because she’s turned it down.”

The way she said “Gena’s fingerprints” had such a tough hard edge – it was very funny the way she said it. “Lemme guess. Gena turned this one down, right?” In her tone was massive respect for “Gena”. Of COURSE they’re gonna offer it to Gena first. Olympia wasn’t complaining, wasn’t saying “I should be first in line.” She was acknowledging reality: As long as Gena Rowlands is topside, I will always be second choice.

It was a good lesson. As an actor, you can’t trip about things like that. About being a director’s second choice, or third choice, or whatever. Competition never ends, not even when you’re old. You’re never “in the clear”. Be good at what you do. Be grateful Gena turned it down.

No, thank YOU.

 
 
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“I think something once broken and put back together is even stronger.” — Jared Padalecki

It’s his birthday today.

Jared Padalecki talks a lot about his process (when he’s asked, which is not too often unfortunately). He reads the script over and over again, reciting the lines over and over, as he takes a run, as he drives, as he walks around. The script vibrates through him. He doesn’t just get “familiar” with the lines. My interpretation of this process is that the lines are IN him, as a rhythm, so much so he doesn’t need to think about it consciously.

I admire the thoughtfulness of this approach. Padalecki started working as a teenager, and absorbed lessons on the job. He was an adorable late teenager, with the floppy hair associated with early-2000s boys. The BANGS. He speaks about the vibe for young American actors at the time: it was all about introspective brooding. Maybe inspired in part by Jared Leto on My So-Called Life? Padalecki is many things, but he is not a brooder, at least not of the self-conscious variety. He tells pretty funny stories about his initial audition for Sam Winchester in Supernatural, and how he went in there brooding like James Dean. This wasn’t the right vibe for Sam and creator Eric Kripke wasn’t keen on Jared. Padalecki’s manager gave him the feedback: “Sam is smart. We’re looking for someone who seems smart.” Pretty brutal, but Jared took the coaching for the callback (because of course he got called back: he clearly had something). He abandoned the brooding and came in just as his smart self. And it shows.

He’s so relaxed. It’s amazing because … there’s the character we all would come to know. There’s very little difference between the audition and what this same scene ended up looking like in the pilot. I can imagine Kripke watching this like “Well, there’s Sam.”

The audition I want to see is the “chemistry read” between Jensen Ackles and Jared, but it’s not available. Obviously the chemistry was right. The two of them said to each other, early on, during filming the first season, “We might get a couple seasons out of this.” This was very exciting and more than they could have hoped for. During the filming of the pilot, they commiserated: “This is … really good, actually. We might get picked up.” Never would they have guessed the show would be on for fifteen years.

In the first half of the first season, Jared was finding his way. He had done Gilmore Girls and people still have affection for him for that, but Gilmore Girls didn’t really prepare him for Sam Winchester. Supernatural was dark and gritty and emotionally complex, and – at least in the first season – it was really only about the two of them. It was a heavy load. He’s in every scene. The characters were, at first, broadly drawn: Dean is the tough wise-cracking older brother (Han Solo), Sam is the intellectual idealistic younger brother (Luke Skywalker).

Sam spends the first season grieving the death of his girlfriend, and fighting with his brother about how to interpret their messed-up childhood. Dean is the leader, Sam the follower. This was how it was established. The lines in the early brother conflicts are pretty on the nose at first, and Jared hits the conflict hard. This is not a criticism. This is an acknowledgement of the challenges in the material early on, and also how young he was. This was new ground for him: he had to step into this new space, where he had more room to maneuver than he did on Gilmore Girls, where he had more room to develop a character, to keep exploring. The first half of the season, you watch him grow, and it happens really fast. It’s like you can visibly watch him expand in confidence and subtlety as an actor. It’s thrilling. I would say that, by “Asylum” you are watching him rise as an actor while simultaneously feeling the ground beneath his feet.

On the heels of “Asylum” is “Scarecrow” and then “Faith”. These two episodes show Sam the character finding himself and his voice, but it’s happening with the actor too.

For me, as a viewer, it was “Nightmare” where I feel Jared Padalecki really stepped into the role and into his own talent and strengths as an actor. In my massive re-cap of “Nightmare”, at one point I said “From here on out it’s the Jared Padalecki Show”. It was a revelation for me. I suddenly SAW him. And I SAW what he brought. Most of this has to do with listening, and how listening is active, and how in the power of Padalecki’s listening IS his objective (or Sam’s objective). This is esoteric actor stuff but it’s super important when we are trying to understand what an actor is DOing. (My acting teacher at the Actors Studio always said, “The name of the job is ACT-or. Not FEEL-er.”)

How Jared listens to “Max” is so active it’s an object lesson in the concept. The mistake actors make is to not realize listening is active. They focus on the lines and forget about the listening. I’ve said it so many times it’s probably tiresome but:

All great actors are good listeners. There are no exceptions.

“Nightmare” was when I really saw Jared LAND. And it was because of how he listened. I was literally like “WOW. THERE HE IS.”

He’s the full package. He’s hilarious, and often – his funniest moments are his REACTIONS. This recalls John Wayne’s famous comment: “I’m not an actor. I’m a RE-actor.” Jared is such a great example of this. There are moments in Supernatural when something absurd happens and the “button” on it is Jared’s reaction. It’s not schtick. It’s organic. There’s a moment in a later season – I think “Paper Moon” – where Sam and Dean are trapped by a pack of werewolves, who force them at gunpoint to kneel, and Dean says something grandiose and macho, a wisecrack in the face of death, and Jared flashes him a look like, “Oh God that was corny.” It looks involuntary. I would bet it is involuntary. (And perhaps is an example – of which Supernatural has many – where the two talented leads subverted the lines, adding shadings that might not be there in the actual text. Jared laughing at the corniness of the line.)

I think my favorite moment of his in Supernatural comes in Season 6’s “Like a Virgin”. Castiel (Misha Collins) spills the beans about what happened to Sam during the previous whatever months. Sam had no idea. He’s shocked and upset, but he has to pretend like he already knew, mostly so he won’t alarm Castiel. He wants Castiel to keep talking. Tears flood his eyes, but on top of the emotion is this faux-casual expression, placed over the depths which have been STIRRED. Jared plays so many different things, simultaneously, in this small moment. My friend Dan Callahan, who writes about acting, says that so much of good acting is about proportion. A lot of bad or ineffective performances are mostly because the actor gets the proportions wrong. This small moment is in perfect proportion.

Jared is well-known for his advocacy for mental health awareness and is disarmingly open about his own struggles. He has had to advocate for himself to get a handle on his anxiety. When he is able to draw on this in his acting, it’s immensely powerful. (The final section of season 8 in Supernatural, the section in season 7 where he hasn’t slept for weeks and is running on fumes.) This is not to say that art is autobiographical: I really dislike such assumptions. Jared is an ACTOR, and he thinks clearly and deeply about Sam. But when you play the same character for 15 years, it’s hard to separate: they are you, you are them, you have distance, you have no distance – it’s all the same.

In the mid-2000s, Jared did a Christmas movie with Peter O’Toole. At one point, he got overwhelmed by the emotions in a scene and was teared up between takes. O’Toole intervened, telling him to give all that emotion to the character. It belongs onscreen, otherwise it’s just you. This advice from a veteran like O’Toole blew Jared’s mind. You cry real tears, you feel real feelings, but put it all into the story. It’s not about you.

I feel him do that, consciously, in those “sequences” I mentioned in Supernatural. He had to go to a very dark place. It’s difficult to even look at him in the “insomnia” section in Season 7, and the “trials” section at the end of Season 8. By then, he was a veteran actor himself. He knew how to work. He can be incredibly buoyant, and goofy, and his laugh is huge and free and joyful. Emotions come easily to him. He can go deep fast. He’s got easy access to what’s going on down there. A lot of people don’t.

When he broods now, it’s because he’s lived it. My doctor told me once during the period when I was trying to get well, that I was going through life trying to drive with the emergency brake on. I could only go so far, I could only accelerate so much. I had to get the right diagnosis and get treatment before I could finally pick up some momentum. Once you face the monster, once you actually are brave enough to look at it and say “No” to it … you can accelerate. It’s such a good analogy.

We’ve watched that happen with Padalecki, unfolding in real time, evident in his personal appearances as well as in his performance onscreen. But struggle, as it tends to do, has left its mark. It is part of what makes him him as an actor.

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“Didacticism is the death of art.” — poet Alice Moore Dunbar-Nelson

“In every race, in every nation, and in every clime in every period of history there is always an eager-eyed group of youthful patriots who seriously set themselves to right the wrongs done to their race or nation or… art or self-expression.” — Alice Moore Dunbar-Nelson

Alice Moore Dunbar-Nelson wrote about the intersections in her mixed-race identity: Native-American, Caucasian, Black and Creole – in various books (of poetry and prose), as well as in her diary. She was very devoted to writing and determined to be successful, and it didn’t quite work out that way – but she remained true to her goal. In recent years her work has been resurrected – particularly her diary. Women who kept journals were rare, almost unheard of in that era: women were busy with other shit (that was the point?), like having children, keeping a home, washing, cooking, whatever. Not much time left over for contemplation, introspection, quiet time with a pen and a notebook. This is why first-person “artifacts” from women are so precious, so rare. Dunbar-Nelson’s diary is even more of a rarity: I read somewhere that only two diaries written by Black women survived that era, and hers was one of them. It was finally published in 1984, almost 100 years after she was born.

She was born in New Orleans in 1875, just 10 years after the ending of the Civil War. She was in the first generation to be born free. Her mother was a former slave, and her white father worked on the ships coming in and out of New Orleans. She took full advantage of the often meager opportunities available to people of color at the time. She went to college and became a teacher. Her first book of poetry, Violets and Other Tales was published in 1895, when she was just 20 years old.

She married celebrated poet Paul Dunbar (my post on him here), after a lengthy correspondence. She wouldn’t be the first person to be fooled by a correspondence, sucked into the intimacy of that form of communication, only to be shocked and disillusioned by who the correspondent was in person. Dunbar had tuberculosis (he died young), and was a depressed man. He was violent. To put it bluntly, he beat the shit out of her, once so badly she ended up in the hospital. She was an out lesbian, or as “out” as the time permitted, and this, too, was a problem for him. She eventually left him. She lived in Boston, New York, D.C. She co-founded a home for girls. She continued to teach before finally deciding to take a step back, and out of the daily grind, to get her Master’s. She was accepted to Cornell. Her thesis was on John Milton and William Wordsworth (some of her poems in Violets and Other Tales show the influence Wordsworth – and his benign view of nature – had on her. My post on him here. She loved the old forms, like sonnets – another Miltonic influence). I’d love to get my hands on that thesis. It’s an important reminder that culture – all culture, wherever it comes from – belongs to everyone. The past is a rich treasure trove of inspiration for all of us.

As the ‘teens and ’20s unfolded, Dunbar-Nelson devoted more of her time to journalism, writing articles and op-ed columns, addressing the issues facing Black women, looping in those issues to larger national contexts like America’s involvement in WWI. She also got editor gigs. She had a very difficult time as a journalist. First of all, there were very few women journalists, period, let alone Black women. Journalism requires mobility and access. You have to travel to the hot spots, you have to get people to talk to you. This was challenging for her. And yet she stuck at it: I really admire her tenacity. She barely made a dime from writing, something she wrote about over and over again, crankily, in her journal. (hashtag relatable). She worked mainly as a freelance stringer. She wrote regular columns for The Crisis, the official magazine of the NAACP.

I do want to mention one more thing. In my research into this interesting woman, it became clear that WWI weighed heavily on her mind. She paid very close attention to what was happening with soldiers, particularly Black soldiers who were – at first – shut out from service. As people were getting drafted, there were white Supremacist senators resistant to expanding the draft to include men of color. The Senators made fiery racist speeches about the importance of segregation. But the War Department ignored the Senators, and expanded the draft to include black men. Over 2 million Black men ended up being drafted. Pacifists may not see that as a victory, but in the ‘teens it was a huge victory – both symbolic and actual – in terms of equality. Dunbar-Nelson wrote on the subject at length: She felt so strongly about the issue she wrote a one-act play called Mine Eyes Have Seen (such a great title!). I can’t find any information on whether it was produced or not, but it was published in a magazine. Mine Eyes Have Seen is about the brave soldiers returning from the war, to face racism and often lynching in their home towns. It was a huge issue. The play also predicts what eventually happened: Black veterans would come home and demand full equality. At the close of WWII, decorated veterans returned home to a land that treated them like shit – whereas in Europe they were treated like heroes. This jarring unfair experience saw the slow birth of the formal civil rights movement, which would grow in power over the next decade. You can’t put the genie of freedom back into the bottle.

Dunbar-Nelson died in 1935 at the age of 60.

I thought it would be interesting to post two wildly different poems by this writer. Both are sonnets, her preferred form. She loved the “old” (remember her Master’s thesis subject). I also wanted to post these two since it shows how diverse her interests were. The first one is beautiful and mournful, and very Wordsworthian. The second is a tribute to Madame Curie. It makes me want to cry.

Alice Moore Dunbar-Nelson should be much more well-known.

I Sit and Sew

I sit and sew—a useless task it seems,
My hands grown tired, my head weighed down with dreams—
The panoply of war, the martial tred of men,
Grim-faced, stern-eyed, gazing beyond the ken
Of lesser souls, whose eyes have not seen Death,
Nor learned to hold their lives but as a breath—
But—I must sit and sew.

I sit and sew—my heart aches with desire—
That pageant terrible, that fiercely pouring fire
On wasted fields, and writhing grotesque things
Once men. My soul in pity flings
Appealing cries, yearning only to go
There in that holocaust of hell, those fields of woe—
But—I must sit and sew.

The little useless seam, the idle patch;
Why dream I here beneath my homely thatch,
When there they lie in sodden mud and rain,
Pitifully calling me, the quick ones and the slain?
You need me, Christ! It is no roseate dream
That beckons me—this pretty futile seam,
It stifles me—God, must I sit and sew?

Sonnet

I had not thought of violets late,
The wild, shy kind that spring beneath your feet
In wistful April days, when lovers mate
And wander through the fields in raptures sweet.
The thought of violets meant florists’ shops,
And bows and pins, and perfumed papers fine;
And garish lights, and mincing little fops
And cabarets and soaps, and deadening wines.
So far from sweet real things my thoughts had strayed,
I had forgot wide fields; and clear brown streams;
The perfect loveliness that God has made,—
Wild violets shy and Heaven-mounting dreams.
And now—unwittingly, you’ve made me dream
Of violets, and my soul’s forgotten gleam.

To Madame Curie

Oft have I thrilled at deeds of high emprise,
And yearned to venture into realms unknown,
Thrice blessed she, I deemed, whom God had shown
How to achieve great deeds in woman’s guise.
Yet what discov’ry by expectant eyes
Of foreign shores, could vision half the throne
Full gained by her, whose power fully grown
Exceeds the conquerors of th’ uncharted skies?
So would I be this woman whom the world
Avows its benefactor; nobler far,
Than Sybil, Joan, Sappho, or Egypt’s queen.
In the alembic forged her shafts and hurled
At pain, diseases, waging a humane war;
Greater than this achievement, none, I ween.

 
 
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Review: Drowning Dry (2025)

This second film from Lithuanian director Laurynas Bareisa is really unsettling. I’ve seen a lot of comments along the lines of “this is like watching paint dry” or “so slow” and I disagree 100%. I reviewed for Ebert.

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“Free Enterprise. The American Dream. Horatio Alger gone mad on drugs in Las Vegas. Do it now. Pure Gonzo journalism.” — Hunter S. Thompson

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One of my favorite writers of all time. It’s his birthday today.

Here he is on his favorite meal of the day:

“I like to eat breakfast alone, and almost never before noon; anybody with a terminally jangled lifestyle needs at least one psychic anchor every twenty-four hours, and mine is breakfast. In Hong Kong, Dallas, or at home — and regardless of whether or not I have been to bed — breakfast is a personal ritual that can only be properly observed alone, and in a spirit of genuine excess. The food factor should always be massive: four Bloody Marys, two grapefruits, a pot of coffee, Rangoon crêpes, a half-pound of either sausage, bacon, or corned-beef hash with diced chilies, a Spanish omelette or eggs Benedict, a quart of milk, a chopped lemon for random seasoning, and something like a slice of key lime pie, two margaritas and six lines of the best cocaine for dessert …Right, and there should also be two or three newspapers, all mail and messages, a telephone, a notebook for planning the next twenty-four hours, and at least one source of good music … all of which should be dealt with outside, in the warmth of a hot sun, and preferably stone naked.”

Some random scattered passages from Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, with the understanding that Fear and Loathing on the Campaign Trail is probably even more of a masterpiece, and certainly one of the best books about the American political process. Everything is in there. It reflects the past, it predicts the future, it calls a spade a spade, it’s also hilarious as only Hunter can be hilarious. I’ve read everything he’s ever written. I loved it when he was writing for ESPN online. It was “appointment television” of the online variety.

But the book for which he will always be known is Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas.

p. 11

“You Samoans are all the same,” I told him. “You have no faith in the essential decency of the white man’s culture. Jesus, just one hour ago we were sitting over there in that stinking baiginio, stone broke and paralyzed for the weekend, when a call comes through from some total stranger in New York, telling me to go to Las Vegas and expenses be damned – and then he sends me over to some office in Beverly Hills where another total stranger gives me $300 raw cash for no reason at all … I tell you, my man, this is the American Dream in action! We’d be fools not to ride this strange torpedo all the way out to the end.”

p. 21

The radio was screaming: “Power to the People – Right On!” John Lennon’s political song, ten years too late. “That poor fool should have stayed where he was,” said my attorney. “Punks like that just get in the way when they try to be serious.”

“Speaking of serious,” I said. “I think it’s about time to get into the ether and the cocaine.”

p. 56

One of the things you learn, after years of dealing with drug people, is that everything is serious.

p. 63

Ignore that nightmare in that bathroom. Just another ugly refugee from the Love Generation, some doom-struck gimp who couldn’t handle the pressure.

^^^ The contempt of the above … the accuracy … He hated hippies.

And here, in an extended sequence on page 66, he elaborates:

Strange memories on this nervous night in Las Vegas. Five years later? Six? It seems like a lifetime, or at least a Main Era – the kind of peak that never comes again. San Francisco in the middle sixties was a very special time and place to be a part of. Maybe it meant something. Maybe not, in the long run … but no explanation, no mix of words or music or memories can touch that sense of knowing that you were there and alive in that corner of the time and the world. Whatever it meant …
History is hard to know, because of all the hired bullshit, but even without being sure of “history” it seems entirely reasonable to think that every now and then the energy of a whole generation comes to a head in a long fine flash, for reasons that nobody really understands at the time – and which never explain, in retrospect, what really happened.
My central memory of that time seems to hang on one or five or maybe forty nights – or very early mornings – when I left the Fillmore half-crazy and, instead of going home, aimed the big 650 Lightning across the Bay Bridge at a hundred miles an hour wearing L.L. Bean shorts and a Butte sheepherder’s jacket … booming through the Treasure Island tunnel at the lights of Oakland and Berkeley and Richmond, not quite sure which turn-off to take when I got to the other end (always stalling at the toll-gate, too twisted to find neutral while I fumbled for change) … but being absolutely certain that no matter which way I went I would come to a place where people were just as high and wild as I was: No doubt at all about that ….
There was madness in any direction, at any hour. If not across the Bay, then up the Golden Gate or down 101 to Los Altos or La Honda … You could strike sparks anywhere. There was a fantastic universal sense that whatever we were doing was right, that we were winning …
And that, I think, was the handle – that sense of inevitable victory over the forces of Old and Evil. Not in any mean or military sense; we didn’t need that. Our energy would simply prevail. There was no point in fighting – on our side or theirs. We had all the momentum; we were riding the crest of a high and beautiful wave …
So now, less than five years later, you can go up on a steep hill in Las Vegas and look West, and with the right kind of eyes you can almost see the high-water mark – that place where the wave finally broke and rolled back.

Magnificent. Fear and Loathing came out in 1971, remember, so the days he is discussing were only a couple of years before. Not much time had passed at all, and it took many people a much longer time to sift through the debris. But those paragraphs read as though they were written with a decade or two of retrospect and reflection. What he describes is the very short space between Easy Rider and Two-Lane Blacktop. Easy Rider contains the prophecy of the moment’s end: “We blew it.” To repeat a cliche: it’s just one step from Woodstock to Altamont.

p. 178

But what is sane? Especially here in “our own country” – in this dumbstruck era of Nixon. We are all wired into a survival trip now. No more of the speed that fueled the Sixties. Uppers are going out of style. This was the fatal flaw in Tim Leary’s trip. He crashed around America selling “consciousness expansion” without ever giving a thought to the grim meat-hook realities that were lying in wait for all the people who took him too seriously. After West Point and the Priesthood, LSD must have seemed entirely logical to him … but there is not much satisfaction in knowing that he blew it very badly for himself, because he took too many others down with him.
Not that they didn’t deserve it: No doubt they all Got What Was Coming To Them. All those pathetically eager acid freaks who thought they could buy Peace and Understanding for three bucks a hit. But their loss and failure is ours, too. What Leary took down with him was the central illusion of a whole life-style that he helped to create … a generation of permanent cripples, failed seekers, who never understood the essential old-mystic fallacy of the Acid Culture: the desperate assumption that somebody – or at least some force – is tending that Light at the end of the tunnel.

Brutally honest. Let’s not forget that Hunter Thompson wrote one of the three meanest obituaries of the 20th century for Richard Nixon. (The other two are HL Mencken’s obituary of William Jennings Bryan and Christopher Hitchens obit for Mother Teresa). Here’s Thompson’s obit for Nixon.

And finally, the POINT of all of this:

p. 179

One of the crucial moments of the Sixties came on that day when the Beatles cast their lot with the Maharishi. It was like Dylan going to the Vatican to kiss the Pope’s ring.
First “gurus.” Then, when that didn’t work, back to Jesus. And now, following Manson’s primitive/instinct lead, a whole new wave of clan-type commune Gods like Mel Lyman, ruler of Avatar, and What’s His Name who runs “Spirit and Flesh.”
Sonny Barger never quite got the hang of it, but he’ll never know how close he was to a king-hell breakthrough. The Angels blew it in 1965, at the Oakland-Berkeley line, when they acted on Barger’s hardhat, con-boss instincts and attacked the front ranks of an anti-war march. This proved to be an historic schism in the then Rising Tide of the Young Movement of the Sixties. It was the first open break between the Greasers and the Longhairs, and the importance of that break can be read in the history of SDS, which eventually destroyed itself in the doomed effort to reconcile the interests of the lower/working class biker/dropout types and the upper/ middle Berkeley/student activities.
Nobody involved in that scene, at the time, could possibly have foreseen the Implications of the Ginsberg/Kesey failure to persuade the Hell’s Angels to join forces with the radical Left from Berkeley. The final split came at Altamont, four years later, but by that time it had long been clear to everybody except a handful of rock industry dopers and the national press. The orgy of violence at Altamont merely dramatized the problem. The realities were already fixed; the illness was understood to be terminal, and the energies of The Movement were long since aggressively dissipated by the rush to self-preservation.

XJXWl

Thompson’s suicide note:

No more games. No more bombs. No more walking. No more Fun. No more swimming. 67. That is 17 years past 50. 17 more than I needed or wanted. Boring. I am always bitchy. No Fun — for anybody. You are getting Greedy. Act your (old) age. Relax — this won’t hurt.

Damn you, Hunter, I wish you stuck around.

 
 
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“Why can’t people take me as a regular singer without making a bogeyman out of me?” — Screamin’ Jay Hawkins

Jalacy J Hawkins was born on this day in 1929.

If a Martian arrived on earth, and the first thing you showed him was a clip of Screamin’ Jay Hawkins performing “I Put a Spell on You” the Martian might get the totally wrong impression of what pop culture was on this alien planet. They’d think it was normal. It was never normal. And thank God, although Hawkins himself ended up feeling a little trapped by the whole bones/skull persona he kind of tripped into and then never could shake. He felt it limited him. And it probably did. But “I Put a Spell on You” is so important, and inspired every weirdo who followed, as well as being chosen by the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame as one of the 500 Songs That Shaped Rock and Roll.

First, just the audio:

His performance is inSANE. He didn’t even need the skull and the bone in his nose to make an impression and stand out.

Like, what within him could even drive him to make the choices he makes there, and how did he get so free to actually go as far as he does?

There actually is an answer to this question. He was drunk. Everyone was drunk. The record producer brought in food and booze and they had a party and then recorded his sui generis masterpiece. Hawkins always said he didn’t even remember recording it, and when it became a hit he had to actually listen to the record to learn the lyrics and also learn his interpretation so he could repeat it live. It’s crazy.

He wrote the song, and saw it as a ballad, which is hilarious, considering the spontaneous end result. He loved opera, maybe even thought he could do opera – indeed, I’d love to hear him do it – he had one of the most unique and powerful voices in all of rock ‘n roll. You can’t even believe what he can do with it. Opera was not his destiny, however. He was very inspired by Paul Robeson, Mario Lanza, and wanted to sing those kind of big ballads, use his powerful pipes. He TOTALLY could have done it.

But instead … lightning was caught in a bottle that drunken night … and the sponteaneity that came out of him when he was drunk and in the studio was … I mean, you can’t go back from it. You can’t be like “Okay what a wild take, let’s sober up and do it like a ballad for real.” Of course not. Not when you have THAT on wax. He sounds POSSESSED. This was his reputation from then on. He was demonic, he did voodoo, he wove black magic, he slept in a coffin (a “bit” he would do during his live shows, emerging from a closed coffin in full regalia after being wheeled out on stage).

“I Put a Spell On You” was his signature song. It couldn’t be topped obviously. It wasn’t his only song. His catalog is really interesting. You can hear how he did get stuck in the wacko persona. Again, if you START with “I Put a Spell on You” … I mean, what the hell else are you gonna bring to the table?

“James Brown did an awful lot of screaming, but never got called Screamin’ James Brown.”

Dude, you’re the one who performed “I Put a Spell on You” like that. Nobody asked you to! You can’t just ask us to FORGET about it. Although I sympathize with his frustration at getting pigeon-holed. Still. Nobody FORCED him to sing the song like that. I know I keep saying this but … listen to that thing!

I love his cover of “Monkberry Moon Delight”:

He opened up possibilities for weird performance-art personae in rock ‘n roll, which became a big part of ’60s/’70s rock. Marilyn Manson is an heir to Screamin’ Jay Hawkins. I could go on and on. He lived a long life. He seemed to have been a compulsive bigamist. He had a role in Jim Jarmusch’s Mystery Train as the hotel clerk, resplendent in a red suit.

“I Put a Spell on You” is probably one of the most-used songs in movie soundtracks. Or at least, it’s up there.

There is literally nothing else like it.

 
 
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“I have an idea that the Irish possess a built-in don’t-give-a-damn that helps them through all the stress.” — James Cagney

It’s his birthday today. One of my favorite actors.

From Who the Hell’s in It: Conversations with Hollywood’s Legendary Actors, by Peter Bogdanovich:

He was different from most of the great stars of the golden age in that he often played villains — even late in his career — comically in Mister Roberts, with unsentimental pathos in Love Me or Leave Me, with complicated and disturbing psychopathic ambivalence in White Heat. His essential persona was as fixed in the public’s consciousness as Bogart’s or Cooper’s or Gable’s but — being a more resourceful and versatile actor — he could express ambiguities in a character even if they weren’t written into the script or featured by the direction. Because he was innately so sympathetic, his heavies created an intriguing, even alarming, tension in the audience. As a result, White Heat, as an example, contains a decidedly subversive duality: in the glare of Cagney’s personality — though his character is in no way sentimentalized — the advanced, somewhat inhuman technology of the police and the undercover-informer cop become morally reprehensible. As a result, I remember [Orson] Welles and I hissing the law and rooting for Cagney like schoolboys. That rarest of actors — who could totally transcend their vehicles — and in common with a number of other stars in the movies’ greatest period, he was indisputably one of a kind.

My friend Dan Callahan, over the last couple of years, wrote two books, and I interviewed him about them both: The Art of American Screen Acting, 1912-1960 and The Art of American Screen Acting 1960 to Today. (For your consideration, here are the two interviews: on Volume One and on Volume Two. In Volume One, Dan devotes a chapter to James Cagney, and it is revelatory reading, even for someone like myself, who is a giant fan. Dan picks up on things – or, at least verbalizes them – in ways I hadn’t put into words.

Excerpt from The Art of American Screen Acting, 1912-1960:

Cagney is the first major male talking picture star. He moved beautifully, and he could have pranced and crawled and excelled in silent movies as well (he made an empathetic success playing Lon Chaney in Man of a Thousand Faces [1957]). But talking is what he does best, rat-a-tat-tat like gunfire, faster sometimes than bullets. He played gangsters and tabloid reporters and con men who looked down on “book learning” as just another racket. He stood for the low-down side of life, and the world was his personal playground, a stage where he could trip down the stairs or dance out a door. Proudly born in the gutter and hyper-alert, his characters seemed to feel more sensations per minute than some people feel their whole lives, and Cagney offered that alertness to us as a goad.

Excerpt from The Art of American Screen Acting, 1912-1960:

When Blondell tries to kiss him towards the end of Blonde Crazy and Cagney just closes his eyes and tries to avoid all the emotion this gesture brings up in him, we are seeing a man who has mastered his expression of feelings in order to express the uncontrollable feelings in the character he is playing. Look at the way he tenderly grabs on to the fur trim on Blondell’s coat in the last scene and see the far more empathetic precursor to Brando’s supposedly groundbreaking interactions with women in the early 1950s.

Speaking of Joan Blondell, she and Cagney came up together, through vaudeville, and then arriving at Warner Brothers at the same time. They did maybe 10 movies together? 11? They’re so similar, they’re so so good together.

She got her start making a series of movies with James Cagney, crazy movies, fun movies, and they are terrific together. Kindred spirits. There are moments where they almost look the same. They’re the same height, same coloring, they play off each other beautifully. They get a real kick out of each other’s presence and it reads onscreen.

Excerpt from The Art of American Screen Acting, 1912-1960:

All of his early 1930s performances are jam-packed with grace notes and jolts of pleasure. He moved faster and thought faster than anybody else, and he wasn’t afraid of following his most daring instincts for fun. Look at the way he picks up Blondell’s underwear in Blonde Crazy, holding it against himself and becoming a hot girl for a couple of seconds, his unabashed femininity completing and sealing his greatness as a performer. Look at the semi-alarmed but intrigued way he reacts to a gay tailor measuring him for clothes in The Public Enemy.

Excerpt from The Art of American Screen Acting, 1912-1960:

His best director of this time was Raoul Walsh, who brought out a rare delicacy and shy decency in Cagney in The Strawberry Blonde (1941), where his outer energy, humor, and toughness is balanced by a sense of restrained grievance and loss. Walsh also gave Cagney ample room to be the psychotic Cody Jarrett in White Heat (1949), a tough guy who is so in love with his mother that he sounds like an animal caught in a trap when he is told of her death.

More on that famous scene in White Heat, one of his most extraordinary moments as an actor:

Legend has it that although, of course the scene was planned and it was written that Cody flips out at getting the news, nobody – probably including Cagney – knew exactly how it would go. You’re only going to do the scene once, probably, and so you have to be ready for it. (This reminds me of Sally Fields’ memory of filming the scene in Norma Rae where Norma Rae is dragged out of the factory by the cops. The only thing director Martin Ritt said to her was, “Do not – under any circumstances – let the cops put you into that car.” But of course the scene required her to be put into the car. No matter. Martin Ritt’s gentle reminder of her objective as a character upped the stakes for Fields in playing it.)

So Cagney wanted to make sure the cameras kept rolling no matter what, because on some level he knew where he was going to go emotionally, and he knew it was going to be unpredictable and enormous. Cagney knew his “instrument” and its openness, understood what was required and knew he needed to be free to “go there”. In Cagney on Cagney, Cagney spoke of that scene:

“I didn’t have to psych myself up for the scene in which I go berserk on learning of my mother’s death. You don’t psych yourself up for those things. You do them. I knew what deranged people sounded like. As a youngster I had visited Ward’s Island. A pal’s uncle was in the hospital for the insane. My God, what an education that was. The shrieks. The screams of those people under restraint. I remembered those cries. I saw that they fit the scene. I called on my memory to do as required. No need to ‘psych up.’”

In the scene, Cody sits in the cafeteria, and he gets the news. There’s a stunned disoriented moment. Then the event starts. Cagney’s astonishing reaction goes from disbelief through sorrow, grief, and finally, complete hysteria — and it is among the most chilling sequences in movies. There is no limit to where it is going to go because there is no limit to where Cagney can go. Cagney is truly awe-inspiring. Watch, in particular, the actors around him. And before they shot the scene, Cagney said to Raoul Walsh: “Just follow me.”

He knew.

And finally a really interesting point from Dan about Cagney:

As far as male movie stars of the classic Hollywood period go, Cagney’s only real rival is Cary Grant, who did almost as much on-screen whinnying and nonsense noise-making as Cagney did, but in a much darker, resentful key. Grant is Post-Code to the max, screwball comedy incarnate, whereas Cagney is Pre-Code always, leaping on Joan Blondell or an opportunity for larceny with equal relish. He’s a totally cinematic tonic who insists crime does pay, money is great and sex is better, and wisecracks rise out of a baseline decency that needs to be discovered again in America.

Amen.

Before I share the two major pieces I’ve written about him, a quote or two on his dancing.

From Who the Hell’s in It: Conversations with Hollywood’s Legendary Actors, by Peter Bogdanovich:

Of course, he was like no other dancer: his straight-legged, cocky, constantly surprising way of hoofing — which is how he started in show business — was seen only in a couple of other films, not really very good ones. Footlight Parade (1933) is the best of these, yet his manner as an actor and his grace as a performer no doubt owe quite a lot to his dancing days. He just moved eloquently, and therefore could easily have been a great silent star. However, he arrived with the talkies, and gave even the least of them a large measure of his boundless panache.

His style is so distinct as to be a fingerprint. It’s on display most of all in Yankee Doodle Dandy, particularly in the title song’s choreography. Watch him go!

And then there’s this quiet “private moment”, showing his skill and panache:

Here’s another fun dance number, looped in with the Cohan-connection, only this time with Bob Hope:

Here are the two pieces I’ve written where Cagney prominently figures:

1. One of the most popular columns I wrote for Film Comment was on the art of the death scene. Of course, as this post shows, I had to include Cagney. The Death Scene

2. On the underrated (this time the phrase really does apply), Love Me or Leave Me, a harrowing film about domestic abuse that is ALSO a musical. James Cagney and Doris Day both go there in their performances. Cagney was nominated for Best Actor and it’s a disgrace that Day wasn’t nominated as well. TCM Diary: Love Me or Leave Me

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“I’m not a yesterday’s woman. I’m a tomorrow’s woman.” — Barbara Stanwyck

A real actor’s actor. She was great from the start. She was tough and practical. She didn’t have to act that. She also had deep wells of feeling, and she didn’t have to reach. She could break your heart and she could terrify you. She was untouchable in film noirs (Double Indemnity), and was the most fatal of femmes fatale because she was so sexy but so cold. Which is the ultimate for the archetype. There’s a long shot of her in Double Indemnity, where she stares straight ahead, and something is going on in the front seat of the car, and you never see it. But the look on her face makes your blood run cold.

You see her in Pre-Codes, and she stands out, even if the roles are conventional. She’s so young, but she’s hard-shelled, she’s a survivor. She starred in the notorious Baby Face, a film seen as so radical and dangerous it almost single-handedly led to the Code. The powers-that-be were like, “Okay, fun’s over.” There were other films pushing the limits, but Baby Face was REALLY out there and its reputation just grew in the ensuing decades because much of it was considered lost. It was in very poor shape. The restoration of lost footage and the cleaning-up of the print made headlines. It was super exciting. Baby Face is a wild ride. In a rough factory town, a young girl works as a prostitute in the worst roughest “saloon” you’ve ever seen. Her father pimps her out. There is no euphemism. It’s rough. One day she finally has had enough and, after reading a book by Nietzsche, she decides to go to the big city and use her sexual power to dominate and control, and get the life she feels she deserves.

She sleeps her way to the top, causing wreck and ruin in the lives of every man she meets. It’s a wild film.

There are so many films, so many famous roles. I still haven’t seen all of them and am still discovering more. Why I say she is a real actor’s actor is she didn’t have a strong singular persona, like Joan Crawford or Marlene Dietrich did. This is not to say Joan and Marlene weren’t actors, but their “way” of being famous was different.

She could be warm and hilarious, too, which you would never know if you had only seen Double Indemnity. One of my favorite Howard Hawks movies is Ball of Fire, basically a Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs story, where a showgirl named Sugarpuss O’Shea holes up in a townhouse with seven professors compiling an encyclopedia. She of course charms them, brings them out of their shells, and falls in love with one of them (Gary Cooper).

Unlike a lot of the pre-Code-era actresses, she lasted. She had a career as a leading lady for decades. She worked constantly, through the 30s, the 40s, the 50s … and then she co-starred with Elvis in Roustabout!

Here’s an anecdote I love about Barbara Stanwyck:

Elvis was excited to work with her. He was well aware of her stature. He cared about acting, even though he was in movies he didn’t respect, where he never was called upon to really act. But this was Barbara Stanwyck, someone really good! She was nominated for 4 Oscars! He was excited. Stanwyck, however, was not as thrilled. You can imagine why. I don’t want to put words in her mouth, but I can imagine her just treating this as a job, get in, get out, no funny business. Elvis wasn’t respected. During their first conversation, she referenced “Aphrodite”. A power play? Sort of lording it over Elvis? And poor Elvis walked right into it and said, “Who’s that?” Stanwyck gasped, “You don’t know who Aphrodite is??” Shaming and belittling him. Elvis was mortified. He asked a buddy later, “Who is Aphrodite?” Maybe the guy said, “Some Greek dame”. Who knows. But Elvis was a life-long learner. He traveled with a trunk of books. He knew how to find stuff out.

Stanwyck arrived on set the next day, and Elvis was seated in a chair outside his trailer, his nose buried in a book of Greek mythology. Her heart melted. From that moment forward, they got on like gangbusters. They had a good time. And they are great together onscreen. They have some real scenes to do together, and she’s so real you can tell Elvis loves it. He gets to do some acting!

She told this story on herself, by the way, which speaks well of her.

One of the best to ever do it.

 
 
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