In Film Comment: On Terrence Malick’s A Hidden Life

I wrote about Terrence Malick’s new film – the overwhelming A Hidden Life – for the new issue of Film Comment. Print only. On stands now! And you should certainly see the film.

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On Netflix’s Unbelievable: in this month’s Sight & Sound

After a couple of Tweet threads about the incredible Netflix series Unbelievable (which you should totally watch if you have not), Sight & Sound reached out to me to ask if I wanted to write a little something something about it for their December issue. Of course I wanted to! Issue on stands now (in England, at any rate. Usually there’s about a month’s delay in the States.)

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50 Best Albums, by Brendan O’Malley, #8. Paul Kelly and the Messengers, So Much Water So Close To Home

My talented brother Brendan O’Malley is an amazing writer and actor. He’s wonderful in the recent You & Me, directed by Alexander Baack. (I interviewed Baack about the film here.) His most recent gig was story editor/writer on the hit series Survivor’s Remorse. Brendan hasn’t blogged in years, but the “content” (dreaded word) is so good I asked if I could import some of it to my blog. He did series on books he loved, and albums he loved. I thought it would be fun to put up some of the stuff here. So we’ll start with his list of 50 Best Albums. I’ll put up one every Monday.

Brendan’s list of 50 Best Albums is part music-critique and part memoir and part cultural snapshot.

I have always loved these essays, because I love to hear my brother talk. I am happy to share them with you!

50 Best Albums, by Brendan O’Malley

8. Paul Kelly and the Messengers – So Much Water So Close To Home

I had not read Raymond Carver’s short story when I first heard this album so I didn’t know what to expect when I heard the title. CD players were new, I was a member of the Columbia House CD club so I was going into debt buying compact discs. This one was an after-thought.

“Sweet Guy” had been on the radio during the fall of ’89 and my college life was in full-bore disaster mode. Disaster like a roller-coaster ride, like the moment before you pull the rip-cord on your parachute, the knowledge that you’ve made some very dangerous choices and the chickens will either be very tasty or coming home to roost and roost fucking hard.

When they came home to roost, they burnt this album onto my psyche. I don’t own another Paul Kelly album. I know every note of this album by heart. If you isolated any particular track I could sing it, bass, keyboard, vocals, drums, you name it.

I think I never bought any more music of his because I just couldn’t handle another obsession. This is one of those albums that is sheer perfection soup to nuts. Songwriting, performance, production, packaging, perfection.

“You Can’t Take It With You” opens the proceedings and it is a sweet pop rock concoction, just a reminder, just a small tap on the shoulder to let you know that you are GOING TO DIE SOMEDAY.

The sing-along quality becomes somehow perverse. You are celebrating your own demise, accepting our universal fate by singing in the shower.

Next is “Sweet Guy” and right away you are put off your guard.

It is a rollicking desperate rocker told from the point of view of an abused woman who still can’t get enough of her man. He beats her and she keeps coming back for more. She wonders “what makes such a sweet guy turn so mean”. Now, this isn’t uncharted territory, but Kelly sings about it as if HE IS THE WOMAN. This will be a recurring device throughout the collection of songs and it gives the whole work a strange fluid quality, much the way the omniscient narrator does.

He then leaps into sheer romantic territory, embodying a hard-working laborer who can forget all his troubles because he is ‘The Most Wanted Man In The World’.

The physical connection that he shares with his woman leaves him in wonder at the beauty of the world. From enabling violence to blissful connection, these two songs piggybacked let us know that the whole range of human connection is ripe for exploration.

Next up is “I Had Forgotten You” and I just don’t know how the fuck he does it.

There is more melodrama and gossip packed into this song than in the entire Desperate Housewives episode guide. Somehow in a 3-minute rock song that RHYMES, Paul Kelly tells us a story of a man who gets a letter from an old friend. A woman has asked after him. Until the letter arrived he had forgotten all about her. She has been the subject of a lot of talk in the town because she has recently married a man whose wife has just passed away. She had nursed the woman as she died and that connection led them to a romantic relationship. The reader of the letter is then flooded with memories of a long-ago time when he briefly dated the woman. He lays next to his own wife and can barely feel her there. It RHYMES, people.

“She’s A Melody (Stupid Song)” follows this and it again takes the opposite approach.

Instead of a sucker-punch from a long-forgotten flame, this song puts us inside the heart of a man who CANNOT stop thinking about her. In the same way that we get stuck singing some hateful bit of a song, he cannot cease obsessing. To deliberately call to mind those snippets of musical Tourette’s and then write a song that embodies that lyrically and musically so that you find yourself humming THIS (STUPID SONG) for days and days is a kind of power that leaves me in awe of Paul Kelly.

In “South of Germany”, Kelly once again becomes a woman. Only this time he is an old woman nearing the end of her life.

She’s had 7 children. She’s led a good life with a good man. But as the end approaches she can’t help but think back to an unspecified incident in the South of Germany. A soldier. A love affair. Things would have been so different.

Happy person haunted by memory as well as sad. Kelly seems to be showing us that there is no escape, no hallowed place, no respite from the vagaries of life and love. Even those lucky enough to find and keep a love are still trapped by the specter of what might have been.

“Careless” comes along and it might be the boyfriend from “Sweet Guy” gone through some enormous transformation.

Slowly he sings of having lost his tenderness, of wondering where his kindness went, of how he became so “Careless”. Once again, the tenor of the song is so bittersweet and the music so gorgeous that to pair it with such hard-fought realization makes for a dagger of emotion.

He jumps back to romance with “Moon In The Bed” which is a short erotic jolt in which the singer is so turned on by his love that he can only equate it to having a celestial visitor actually under the covers with him.

And just when you think you can relax and enjoy those carnal pleasures, Kelly follows it with a howl of a song called “No You”.

Here all story is stripped away and this narrator keeps waking up astonished to find he is alone, that there is “No You”. Here the lilting melody is embodied in a searing guitar lick and a snapshot drum which feels like the first slice of cold air hitting you as you trudge to your car the morning after a terrible break-up. There is a hint of romance in the air but it is an after-effect, the image that stays burnt onto your retina once the lights get snapped off.

Here we come to the crown jewel of this perfect album.

“Everything’s Turning To White” is Kelly’s retelling of the Carver story which gives the album its title. This short story has been re-enacted in the Australian film Jindabyne, in Short Cuts by Robert Altman, and probably other times as well.

The song is devastating. For the final time, Kelly becomes a female narrator. She sings a gentle country rock wailer and tells how her husband goes off fishing with his buddies. They find a dead body of a young girl upon arriving at their fishing spot. Instead of rushing to report the find, they move the body out of the way of their fishing and spend three days catching fish. They report it upon returning to civilization.

Something breaks inside the woman when she learns what her husband has done. Or hasn’t done really. She feels a million miles away from him. She goes to the funeral and watches. She wonders why he had to go fish there when there was “so much water so close to home”. In her head, everything’s turning to white.

Again, Kelly makes this shit RHYME. It is a lesson in storytelling that any artist should pay attention to. There is no extra, the story happens and then ends. The words rhyme but the rhyming is not the point. The story is the point.

Two more songs follow the album but they feel more like bonus tracks to me, proof that life goes on after such atrocity, proof that even the worst of times are followed by other times. And that somehow is worst of all.

Looking back it seems like I knew there wasn’t a parachute behind that ripcord. So why did I pull it anyway? Why?

— Brendan O’Malley

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October 2019 Viewing Diary

Semper Fi (2019; d. Henry-Alex Rubin)
Reviewed for Ebert.

Metropolitan (1990; d. Whit Stillman)
God, I love this movie. It’s so so strange. It weaves a spell. I love Whit Stillman. He’s a modern-day drawing-room-comedy guy, and it’s the 21st century, nobody has drawing rooms anymore. But it doesn’t matter. And his WRITING.

Mary (2019; d. Michael Goi)
Reviewed for Ebert.

You Only Live Once (1937; d. Fritz Lang)
This is some bleak hard-hitting shit. A man (Henry Fonda) gets out of prison and finds it impossible to escape his past. His wife – the phenomenal Sylvia Sidney – stands by him, and “standing by him” is increasingly difficult and challenging.

Supernatural, Season 15, episode 1 “Back and to the Future” (2019; d. John F. Showalter)
Daytime ghosts. Too many people onscreen. Sam’s shoulder hurts.

Greener Grass (2019; d. Jocelyn DeBoer and Dawn Luebbe)
Reviewed for Ebert.

I Am the Night (2019; d. Carl Franklin, Patty Jenkins, Victoria Mahoney)
I got sucked into the podcast, which led me to the series, which is EXCELLENT. Chris Pine, man. I need to write something on him and what he is doing and how good he is. He’s old-school, and you know how I feel about old-school.

Black Dahlia (2006; d. Brian de Palma)
I was so into the Black Dahlia once upon a time that I had to take a step back. It was overrunning my life. But then I listened to the podcast (see above entry), watched the series, and then thought, Oh fuck it, let’s watch the movie. It’s not a particularly good movie – Aaron Eckhart’s growing obsession just doesn’t really play – and it feels like THAT’S the real story. But it is gorgeously filmed (of course).

Parasite (2019; d. Bong Joon-ho)
In my Top 10 of the year. WOW.

Supernatural, Season 15, episode 2 “Raising Hell” (2019; d. Robert Singer)
Still with the daytime ghosts in the ghost neighborhood?

Roll Red Roll (2019; d. Nancy Schwartzman)
Very disturbing documentary about the Steubenville rape case.

The Edge of Democracy (2019; d. Petra Costa)
So far, this is one of the best documentaries of the year for me.

Marriage Story (2019; d. Noah Baumbach)
It’s not out yet. I reviewed for Film Comment. It’s fantastic. Very upsetting in a quiet way. Devastating, but real.

The Irishman (2019; d. Martin Scorsese)
So good. Joe Pesci. Al Pacino as Hoffa. Robert De Niro and Al Pacino finally REALLY working together (Heat doesn’t exactly count). Harvey Keitel. It’s masterful, and beautiful, and mournful.

Angel Baby (1995; d. Michael Rymer)
A favorite which I saw on its initial release. An Australian film about two mentally ill people who fall in love. It has since become damn near impossible to find. But I found it (heh heh).

The Load (2019; d. Ognjen Glavonić)
This is also now in my Top 10. I still have a month of watching to go, but it doesn’t matter, not really. This is a brilliant (and gorgeously shot) film from Serbia, haunted, haunting, powerful.

Honey Boy (2019; d. Alma Har’el)
With screenplay by Shia LaBeouf, about his childhood. I had no idea. I will be reviewing for Ebert. It’s very good.

Supernatural, Season 15, episode 3 “The Rupture” (2019; d. Charles Beeson)
Bye, Ketch. Bye, Rowena. Bye, Belphebel or whatever your name is. Sam’s shoulder still hurts, breaking news.

Adopt a Highway (2019; d. Logan Marshall-Green)
I reviewed for Ebert.

Black Mother (2019; d. Khalik Allah)
What an extraordinary film. A documentary … sort of … about Jamaica, and the people therein. But it’s not really like anything else. I see a lot of movies and I haven’t seen anything like this. My favorite documentary this year.

Borderline (1930; d. Kenneth Macpherson)
A wild silent film starring Paul Robeson, and a host of other fascinating people – like H.D., the Modernist poet. It’s about racism in a small town in France. Macpherson used experimental styles, very ahead of his time in regards to montage and editing – lots of quick cuts – and it’s fantastic. It’s on Youtube.

Wolf of Wall Street (2013; d. Martin Scorsese)
I think it’s been long enough that I can safely say: This is a masterpiece.

Defending Your Life (1991; d. Albert Brooks)
I haven’t seen this in so long. It’s adorable. Rip Torn! Lee Grant!

Rumble Fish (1993; d. Francis Ford Coppola)
I say this with no irony, and no sense of exaggeration: this is a masterpiece. An art film for kids. With Mickey Rourke at his whispery scene-stealing best. A haunted Dennis Hopper. Matt Dillon scowling and skulking and gorgeous. Weaves a spell.

Dolemite Is My Name (2019; d. Craig Brewer)
It’s SO GOOD. I saw it last night and it filled me with joy. SEE IT.

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R.I.P. Robert Evans

Most people who get into the movie business are eccentrics. Or, this used to be the case. Michael Ovitz may be a “suit”, but you cannot tell me that that guy is not deeply eccentric. I’m not saying good/bad … that’s not what eccentric means. I mean, the guy is out there. Perhaps all really successful CEO types and moguls are, on some level, deeply eccentric people. It’s not easy to break ahead of the pack. Or to even decide to break ahead of the pack, to make breaking ahead be the focus of your life. We’re human beings, we instinctively group together, we are not sharks. So those who DO act like sharks … they’re the ones who often have the biggest impact.

Robert Evans was a shark. A shark who loved movies.

He started out as an actor (that’s where the awesome title for his memoir, a MUST READ, The Kid Stays in the Picture came from) but his dream was always to be a producer. He grew up in New York City. His parents were hard-working people. His father was a dentist. Evans started out working for his brother’s clothing company, where his gifts were recognized, and also doing a bit of acting. He moved to Hollywood. He was a gorgeous man. Not my type, but absolutely gorgeous: sleek and smooth and slick. A poor man’s Cary Grant. He was noticed immediately for his “movie star looks”, so he got into pictures.

If you’ve seen The Best of Everything (which you should), then you know he played a wonderful douchebag.

He was always very smart – he would never be at the mercy of the “industry” like most actors are – and in the 60s he bought the rights to a novel he thought promising and ended up producing the film of the book. Frank Sinatra was the star. Evans was in his element. He knew how to produce. He knew movies. Some of his comments about movies and production remind me of David Selznick and his famous memos, and some remind me of Hal Wallis, brilliant and devoted producers who made a lot of money but, crucially, were not just “money men.” (Again: they were deeply eccentric. They understood movies, stories, structure, they could pinpoint what was missing, they knew how to fix it.) Evans was going places fast. The New York Times profiled him, mentioning his aggression as a producer, and so it began.

Charles Bluhdorn was one of the main players in making Evans the mogul-phenom that he became. Bluhdorn headed up Gulf + Western, of which Paramount Studios was a part. Paramount was not doing well. Heads were starting to roll. Frankly, it was a bloodbath, and Bluhdorn, who had had his eye on Evans for a long time, hired him to head up Paramount and turn the ship around. It was a very risky decision on Bluhdorn’s part, very risky. Evans was a young man. He was only in his 30s. He hadn’t been tooling around Hollywood for 20 years, he was a relative newcomer. He didn’t climb his way to the top. He was plucked out of the crowd and placed there. There was always a lot of resentment towards him (which would come back to haunt him), and yet at the same time, once his reputation began to skyrocket, nobody cared about that, and everybody just wanted to get involved in his projects. He was Midas there for a while.

At the end of Evans’ time at Paramount, they were responsible for many films which were massive hits – critically as well as commercially – many of which are now considered classics, and among the greatest American movies ever made. Harold and Maude, Love Story, The Conversation, The Godfather, etc. He also produced things independently (with Paramount’s permission – a hugely unpopular decision at the time) – and finally stepped down as head of Paramount so that he could focus solely on producing. He is responsible for Chinatown.

He was one of the golden bad boys of Paramount. His friends were Jack Nicholson, Joe Esterhauz, Warren Beatty, Roman Polanski … enfant terribles.

Evans, actually, had always been kind of a straight and narrow guy, he didn’t really drink … It was drugs that did him in. Well, that and The Cotton Club.

His relationship with Francis Ford Coppola had always been stormy. Evans insists that much of The Godfather came from his head. He tapped Mario Puzo to write the book, and he saved Coppola from himself many times (according to Evans) . Coppola, however, was very much interested in being seen as an independent auteur, and so having Evans take any credit for any of The Godfather was enraging. Evans felt he deserved more props. A lot of his book is him telling his side of the story, because he has been so smeared in the press.

If you’ve ever heard Evans speak, then you know that he wrote every damn word of this book. Wouldn’t surprised me if he dictated the book, it sounds so much like him. Example. He takes Ali McGraw (his future wife whom he then lost to Steve McQueen) to lunch.

He wants her to star in Love Story. Listen to how he tells it.

I set up a lunch date with Love Story’s mentor and star, MacGraw, at La Grenouille. By the time dessert was served, I would have made the phone book with her. Would you say she got to me? I sure in hell knew I didn’t get to her. With all my props, my position, my “boy wonder” rep, she was as turned off to me as I was turned on to her. My competition was a model/actor she had been living with for three years, sharing the bills in a 3 1/2 room apartment on West 77th Street. Almost purposefully, she kept on interjecting how in love she was. Leaving the restaurant, I hailed a cab. As it pulled up she gave me her last zinger.

“Hope we shoot in the summer. Robin and I are getting married in the fall. We plan to spend October in Venice. Ever been there?”

“Nope.”

“Then wait. Only go there when you’re madly in love.”

That’s it. I grabbed her arm, whispering, “Never plan, kid. Planning’s for the poor.”

She tried to snap back. “No way–”

“Let me finish, Miss Charm. An hour ago, Love Story was even money to end up in the shredder. You win, I lose. Got it? Stop being Miss Inverse Snob, will ya? It doesn’t wear well. Don’t turn your nose down to success. If anything goes wrong with you and Blondie between now and post time, I’m seven digits away.”

Never plan, kid. Planning’s for the poor?? WHAT.

The whole book reads like that. Whether or not he actually said it becomes, ultimately, irrelevant. He’s riffing, he’s telling it like he remembered it. He never comes off as anything other than himself. He may be sleazy, to some degree, but he’s also earnest. There was also a self-deprecation to Evans, believe it or not, and this makes him funny. Also, and this is one of the best things about the book: he does not protect himself. Sharks do not apologize for being sharks. They act according to their nature. On the flipside of his wacko personal life, there was his WORK. He knew how to put projects together. He took huge risks … which sometimes worked out, sometimes failed … but without a sense of risk, you’re never gonna make something like Rosemary’s Baby.

Evans flew HIGH. Listen to him here:

Let’s get down to facts — like agents, managers, lawyers, money. Writing about where it’s at is easy pocket money; about how it feels, that’s different. Not only does it take talent, which most of these penholders don’t have, but writing about feelings takes a helluva lot more time. We’re in the business of deals, not excellence. The ten percenters know their clients can write three concept scripts a year. To write texture takes time; time is money and money is what pays their light bills.

It was The Cotton Club that ruined him. He was supposed to direct the film, and at that time he still had a ton of cache. But things started to go badly during the production, and Francis Ford Coppola was called in.

Costs escalated. The money was being spent but it wasn’t on the screen. (I haven’t seen the recently released director’s cut yet and I really must.) Evans was not doing well at the time. He had already been arrested for cocaine and things were spiralling out of control. Some of the folks involved in The Cotton Club were really sleazy, unlike Evans – who was Hollywood sleazy, but not sleazy sleazy. Like, these people were the criminal fringe. One of them ended up getting murdered. I’m sure we all remember the trial. Or maybe not. I do. Evans goes into it at great length in his book. The feeling at the time, and I was barely paying attention to it, was that Evans was somehow involved in the murder. It seemed like he was on trial. Joan Didion wrote a great essay about this phenomenon called “LA Noir – where she analyzes the situation. First of all: it WASN’T a murder trial. It was just a HEARING and Evans’ role was 100% peripheral – but there was a feeling “in the air” about him.

Joan Didion:

Inside the system, the fact that no charge had been brought against the single person on the horizon who had a demonstrable connection with The Cotton Club was rendering Cotton Club, qua Cotton Club, increasingly problematic. Not only was Robert Evans not “on trial” in Division 47, but what was going on there was not even a “trial”, only a preliminary hearing, intended to determine whether the state had sufficient evidence and cause to prosecute those charged, none of whom was Evans …

There was always in the Cotton Club case a certain dreamland aspect, a looniness that derived in part from the ardent if misplaced faith of everyone involved, from the belief in windfalls, in sudden changes of fortune (five movies and four books would change someone’s fortune, a piece of The Cotton Club someone else’s, a high-visibility case the district attorney’s); in killings, both literal and figurative. In fact this kind of faith is not unusual in Los Angeles. In a city not only largely conceived as a series of real estate promotions but largely supported by a series of confidence games, a city even then afloat on motion pictures and junk bonds and the B-2 Stealth bomber, the conviction that something can be made of nothing may be one of the few narratives in which everyone participates. A belief in extreme possibilities colors daily life. Anyone might have woken up one morning and been discovered at Schwab’s, or killed at Bob’s Big Boy. “Luck is all around you,” a silky voice says on the California State Lottery’s Lotto commercials, against a background track of “Dream a Little Dream Of Me”. “Imagine winning millions … what would you do?”

Evans paid a huge price for all of this. It’s okay if you’re a tough guy and a shark in Hollywood, most people are, it’s the culture … but when you get dirty and involved with something shady, people drop you like a hot potato. And that’s what happened. (A similar thing happened to Peter Bogdanovich. His girlfriend was murdered. He didn’t do anything wrong. But people fled from him as though his “bad luck” was catching.) Evans dropped off of the radar, and became a recluse. People like Jack Nicholson stuck by him, his friends would come visit him where he was holed up in his mansion, hiding from the world … and it is my impression that Evans spent about a decade in that manner, until he wrote Kid Stays In the Picture, which was a giant hit. A documentary was made of the book. That was a hit, too. And you should see it. It’s great. I wouldn’t say his reputation was rehabilitated, but a lot of the memory of The Cotton Club has now vanished with time … and what remains is Evans’ impressive body of work.

To Evans, there was only one “business”, and that’s the business of making movies. The Kid Stays In the Picture is one of the great movie-business books of all time.

A favorite excerpt, about The Cotton Club debacle.

What did I learn from this failure, this disaster, this five-year nightmare? A fat fuckin’ nothing! To say you “fucked up but learned from it” is bullshit, a cop-out. You can learn from a mistake. A mistake done twice is not a mistake, it’s called failure.

At an early age, a man of great wisdom gave me the key to making it.

“You learn from success, kid – not failure. If you’ve only touched it once, a term paper, a temp job, hitting a homer, dissect it. Was it timing, focus, homework? Get to the core. Find out the whys, the hows. That’s the key. Use it … go with it, don’t be afraid. When you get your shot, then you’ll be ready. Success ain’t easy, kid, but the more you taste it, the easier it gets. No different with failure.” The wise man smiled. “The more you taste it, the more you get it.” Putting his finger to his lips, “Shhh … Don’t spread it. It’s tough enough out there. Keep it to yourself.”

I think about this passage – and that advice – all the time.

Rest in peace, legend.

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50 Best Albums, by Brendan O’Malley, #9. Stevie Wonder, Innervisions

My talented brother Brendan O’Malley is an amazing writer and actor. He’s wonderful in the recent You & Me, directed by Alexander Baack. (I interviewed Baack about the film here.) His most recent gig was story editor/writer on the hit series Survivor’s Remorse. Brendan hasn’t blogged in years, but the “content” (dreaded word) is so good I asked if I could import some of it to my blog. He did series on books he loved, and albums he loved. I thought it would be fun to put up some of the stuff here. So we’ll start with his list of 50 Best Albums. I’ll put up one every Monday.

Brendan’s list of 50 Best Albums is part music-critique and part memoir and part cultural snapshot.

I have always loved these essays, because I love to hear my brother talk. I am happy to share them with you!

50 Best Albums, by Brendan O’Malley

9. Stevie Wonder – Innervisions

Imagine you are preparing for the Singing Olympics. You will be competing against all other singers. The competition goes like this: You don’t know what you will sing. It might be rock, it might be opera, it might be R&B, it might be jazz, it might be Broadway, it might be a standard, it might be a folk song.

How the hell do you prepare for these Singing Olympics? (Now that I’ve imagined them I desperately want them to happen and I want to compete.)

Here is what I would suggest. Put Stevie Wonder’s Innervisions on repeat and sing along. If you do that for a year, you will be in great shape. And you will have touched on just about any style you might need to draw on in order to win the Singing Olympics.

Unless of course Stevie himself is entered into the competition.

Then you might as well drop out and watch because you ain’t winning. I first heard this album in college and, as I wrote about in my reviews of The Who and The Stones, it was still a shock that I would find something I liked in the mainstream. But on closer inspection, there is nothing mainstream about this music at all. Sure it is wildly popular but mainstream? Nope. This is experimental, personal, angry, wild, unpredictable, passionate and BIZARRE music.

When you realize that every sound you hear is pretty much being made by Stevie himself, the impact grows. When you know that he fought for creative control and left Motown so that he could stretch away from being the cute kid who played the harmonica, it explodes. “Living For The City”, the famous centerpiece of the album, is shocking TODAY. Imagine how it sounded a mere 5 years after Martin Luther King, Jr. had been assassinated.

But let us go back to the imaginary Singing Olympics for a moment, shall we? In “Living For The City”, we hear the Stevie we’ve all come to know and love. That voice, clear as a bell, opens the song and we settle into it like you settle into your favorite outfit. It is familiar but perfect. Then the song breaks down into a narrative at the center of it, telling the story of a young black man coming to New York and immediately being railroaded into the penal system by a desperate drug dealer and racist cops. When the vocal line comes back in, Stevie Wonder is virtually unrecognizable.

The melody is still there, yes. But it is buried in a bark, a growl, the voice of a man who is unable to even see the difference in skin color that is somehow at the heart of the tragedy he has imagined. His anger is palpable. It drips in every word and Stevie Wonder, the smiling warm-hearted genius, is TERRIFYING. The mere tone of his voice has indictment INSIDE of it somehow.

Flip that emotion on its ear and you will have “All In Love Is Fair” which just might be the single saddest most beautiful recording of Wonder’s career.

The plaintive pain that informs the vocal arrangement is so perfectly articulated that you barely notice the effort it takes to achieve it. In other words, the Pyramids have an effect simply by being there. You have to force yourself to imagine a moment when they weren’t there. And the work that went into them has completely disappeared but for the final product.

Pop this song on when you are in the shower so you won’t be embarrassed. I have been PAID to sing professionally and let me tell you…this shit is IMPOSSIBLE. It goes so high, the lyrics are deceptively simple but hard to articulate clearly, and all of it has to be filled to the brim emotionally or else it will sound like a bad Hallmark card opened on a Grandma’s birthday. Opening yourself up to the attempt of singing this song is to almost guarantee that you will burst into tears at some point.

Oh, right, let’s go back to the fact that he played every instrument on the album. This is literally the music that happens inside of his head. My ex-wife used to say that his stuff sounds ALIEN, as if it were created by a higher power, or an outside force, something beyond humanity.

Stevie Wonder. Perennial Gold Medalist in the Imaginary Singing Olympics. In fact, let’s cancel the competition until he decides to hang it up.

— Brendan O’Malley

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Supernatural, Season 15, episode 3

Have at it.

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Present Tense: Audience vs. Alone

My new column is up, this about the special thing that happens sometimes (rarely) when an audience of strangers merges into one being. I still go see movies in the theatre (although certainly not like I used to back in the 80s and 90s when I was going 3, 4 times a week), and I never get sick of the feeling of a crowd – all focused on one thing – reacting, listening, etc. Anyway, thought it might make an interesting column. So here it is!

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R.I.P. Nick Tosches

Rest in peace to sui generis writer, whose books blaze with such individualism, such unforgettable prose, such high-flung sweeping paragraphs – so hard to paraphrase – impossible to parse out – he’s almost intimidating. His style is so his own, so depth-full, so intriguing and intricate. He weaves complex webs with his sentences, drawing you further and further in, until you can no longer sense the way you came in, the passageway back out is obliterated. Reading his stuff is a tonic – reminiscent of reading, say, Hunter S. Thompson, or Tom Wolfe or Lester Bangs – people with such a personal style you’d recognize their prose in a blind sample. It’s a dominant style. It refuses to allow you wiggle room. It’s you and the writer, alone in a room together, and they monologue at you. It’s not a conversation. So few writers have a real personal style. Style is something that can’t be taught (in my opinion). You have your own style or you don’t. Style comes from within. Style also comes from being well-read, from knowing the pathways carved by writers before you, from stealing/borrowing/imitating/learning from what they have done. You incorporate/reject all you have imbibed yourself. Style is not a “personal brand” as they say now. It is unique, style comes from the individual, style is the way the thoughts, feelings and perceptions, the collation of ideas, the of research – synthesizes, talks together, argues, reflects, leaving you the reader with a deep impression of understanding, maybe even – in Tosches’ case definitely – revelation. Dean Martin is forever changed for all time because of how Tosches wrote about him. So we have the real Dean Martin and we have Tosches’ Dean Martin. Tosches’ style is so strong I feel like I need to stay away from it if I am working on something similar, an in-depth piece about someone I love and know a lot about. I wouldn’t say I steal from him, but I would say he exists as an inspirational example, a high watermark of the form I would like to enter into myself: the RIFFS on well-known popular figures, but riffs with such a strong underlying structure, riffs based on KNOWLEDGE not just FEELING.

Two identical quotes come to mind.

The first is from Poetry magazine editor Harriet Monroe on E.E. Cummings’ poetry: “Beware his imitators.”
The second is W.B. Yeats’ warning in re: Jonathan Swift: “Imitate him if you dare.”

Tosches exists in the same protected category.

He was DAZZLING.

Like this, from Dino: Living High in the Dirty Business of Dreams:

The padrone of Steubenville, the man who oversaw it all, the one to whom the Irish and the Jews and the rest paid tribute, was JamesVincent Tripodi, whom no one ever described as a gentleman. Botn in Italy in December 1899, Vincenzo Tripodi had established himself early and violently as the demon lover of the Democratic bosses, as the evilest dark breeze in that lush and fruitful garden. He lived at 638 Broadway with his wife. They called her Mae or Mabel, but her name was Amelia. She too had come from the other side, and was a girl of eighteen with Tripodi married her in 1926. There were semi-legitimate businesses: the J.V. Tripodi Restaurant on North Sixth Street, the beer distributorship that had grown out of a Prohibition monopoly. But Tripodi’s sub-rosa interests were everywhere his will decided them to be. He knew others of his kind, men in Cleveland, Detroit, New York. They would come to his daughter’s wedding and embrace him. But he neither sought nor cultivated their company, desiring no such shadow other than his own in the garden he held as his sacrosanct domain. He would end it many years later as he had begun it, with his hands and his will, blowing out his brains with a thirty-eight, alone in his garage, on a wintry afternoon in December, 1987, eleven days before his eighty-eighth birthday.

Tripodi was the first of many such characters whom Dino would encounter in his life: men — America called them the Mafia — who sought to wet their beaks (fari vagnari u pizzu, as the Sicilians said) in the lifeblood of every man’s good fortune. He shared many traits with these men, traits born of the old ways: the taciturn harboring close to the heart of any thought or feeling that ran too deeply; that emotinoal distance, that wall of lontananza between the self and the world; a natural, unarticulated belief in the supreme inviolability of the old ways themselves; a devout sense of Catholicism, based upon the power of its rituals and predicated on God’s special forgiveness for the sins of those whose faith was founded in the ancient, sacred grain of the old ways’ moralita. He shared these traits with them, but he did not share his money with them; and the more he came to know them — and he came to know them as few would — the more he hated them for the predators they were, and the more intent he became on beating them at their own racket. It was not a matter of bravado. He did not share that trait with them. It was a matter, rather, of menefreghismo. Deep down, that, as much as anything, was what he was, a menefreghista — one who simply did not give a fuck.

It is impossible to watch Dean Martin movies or listen to Dean Martin songs (and I’m a huge fan) without thinking about “menefreghista.”

Or this:

His schoolmates had never really known him. Even his loving familiy could not tell for sure what lay within this kid who moseyed around among them with a hat on, singing. There was a pin-tumbler sidebar lock on his guts that no one could pick. That was just the way he was, and it was just the way he always would be.

Unlettered and rough-cut, Dino possessed both wiles and wisdom beyond his years – anyone trying to fuck with his mind or his body or his soul found this out forthwith. But the wisdom served by those wiles was an annihilating wisdom. It was the wisdom of the old ways, a wisdom through which the seductions of reason and love and truth and all such frail and flimsy lepidoptera would in their seasons emerge and thrive, wither and die. The sum of Dino’s instincts had to do with the old ways, those ways that were like a wall, ways that kept the world lontano, as the mafiosi would say: distant, safely and wisely at bay. That was how he liked it: lontano, like the flickering images on the theater screen that gave him pleasure as he sat alone, apart from them and unknown to them, in the dark.

Those close to him could sense it: He was there, but he was not really there; a part of them, but apart from them as well. The glint in his eye was disarming, so captivating and so chilling at once, like lantern-light gleaming on nighttime sea: the tiny soft twinkling so gaily inviting, belying for an instant, then illuminating, a vast unseen cold blackness beneath and beyond. The secret in its depth seemed to be the most horrible secret of all: that there was no secret, no mystery other than that which resides, not as a puzzle to be solved or a revelation to be discovered, but as blank immanence, in emptiness itself.

There was a picnic in Beatty Park. Roozy had gotten hold of an eight-millimeter movie camera, and they were all going to be in pictures. No one who saw that movie ever forgot it. The camera captured the silent laughter of the Crocettis and the Barrs. It followed Dino’s friends back and forth as they ran and fumbled, threw and jumped in a makeshift football game. There was merriment everywhere, but there was no Dino. Then the camera scanned to the right, to a tree off in the distance, and there he was by himself under the tree, away from it all, caught unawares and expressionless, abstractedly toying with a twig, sort of mind-whittling it. That was Dino, all right; the Dino inside the Dino who sang and swore and loafed and laughed.

He was born alone. He would die alone. These truths, he, like every punk, took to heart. But in him they framed another truth, another solitary, stubborn stone in the eye of nothing. There was something, a knowing, in him that others did not apprehend. He was born alone, and he would die alone, yes. But in between — somehow — the world in all its glory would hunker down before him like a sweet-lipped High Street whore.

It’s interesting, because today is Coleridge’s birthday (my post about him here), and I was thinking yesterday – when I heard the news Tosches died – that the only writer I can really think of to compare Tosches to – the only one who was doing what he was doing – is Coleridge. You can feel Coleridge’s influence in Tosches’ stuff (most explicitly probably in Tosches’ book The Last Opium Den), but it’s elsewhere too. Tosches lives in a dreamspace/nightmarescape behind his mind’s eye, where he fixates on his topic, he fixates on it to the degree that everything else falls away. He was one of the most obsessive writers on the planet. Nobody could write like he did and not be totally obsessed.

Hellfire, his extraordinary biography of Jerry Lee Lewis (how amazing that JLL has outlived him), sounds like it was written at gunpoint. In the preface, Greil Marcus wrote: “the ending of Hellfire is as bleak and terrifying as one will ever read in a biography of a person not yet dead.” Yes. Tosches digs DEEP into the Pentecostal “hellfire” world Lewis came from, pouring all of his knowledge and insight into the subject, every paragraph more urgent than the last. IN a recent list of “rock and roll biographies” published by The Guardian, Hellfire was Numero Uno.

That boy, that fourteen-year-old boy up there, sat there, rocking, howling a song that was about nothing but getting drunk and fucking up, and all the people there started howling along with him, loving it. For that boy, that fourteen-year-old boy up there, was making the sort of music that most folks had only heard in conjunction with the Holy Ghost, but the boy wasn’t singing about any Holy Ghost. He was singing something he had taken from the blacks, from the juke-joint blacks, but he had changed what he had taken, not so much the way someone might paint a stolen pickup to hide his theft, but rather the way that Uncle Lee had changed those cattle into horses: changed it by pure, unholy audacity. And he had changed it into something that shook those whitefolk, something that would hae shaken Leroy Lewis and Old Man Lewis before him. And he was doing it, that boy was not old enough to shave, right out in the open, in broad daylight. And as he was doing it, Lloyd Paul was running among the crowd with a felt hat in his hand, and people were putting coins into the hat. When Jerry Lee quit playing, Lloyd Paul gave him what was in his hat – almost thirteen dollars. Jerry Lee and Elmo lugged that great jangling mass of copper and silver home in a sack and poured it on the table before Marnie, and they grinned and laughed through their noses like highway thieves as they beheld it: hosanna.

I mean, GOOD GOD.

Nick Tosches was only 69 years old. I got excited every time he published something. I still haven’t read it all, and there are magazine pieces I missed, like this hilarious poem he wrote for Esquire, shared by my pal Larry Aydlette on Twitter. James Franco was on the cover of that particular issue of Esquire, and the editors asked Nick Tosches for a poem. Tosches had no idea who Franco was and would not allow the editors to “fill him in.” What he wrote is so hilarious but also so deep about … celebrity and fame and “consumption” of media. He Who Is Of Name.

A giant. I will miss him deeply. I will re-read him forever. It’s a well I dip into constantly.

Here’s the obituary for Tosches in the New York Times.

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50 Best Albums, by Brendan O’Malley, #10. The Who, The Who By Numbers

My talented brother Brendan O’Malley is an amazing writer and actor. He’s wonderful in the recent You & Me, directed by Alexander Baack. (I interviewed Baack about the film here.) His most recent gig was story editor/writer on the hit series Survivor’s Remorse. Brendan hasn’t blogged in years, but the “content” (dreaded word) is so good I asked if I could import some of it to my blog. He did series on books he loved, and albums he loved. I thought it would be fun to put up some of the stuff here. So we’ll start with his list of 50 Best Albums. I’ll put up one every Monday.

Brendan’s list of 50 Best Albums is part music-critique and part memoir and part cultural snapshot.

I have always loved these essays, because I love to hear my brother talk. I am happy to share them with you!

50 Best Albums, by Brendan O’Malley

10. The Who – The Who By Numbers

I blew off The Who in high school. There was no Beggar’s Banquet as there was with the Stones. I lumped them in with the establishment rock and roll that I had come to despise. Boy, was I wrong.

Even now, it is hard to look at The Who with a fresh perspective. To imagine you’d never heard them, heard of them, knew anything about them at all. If you could create such circumstances you would have some hypnopomp indeed.

My college years were like most, I suppose, intense partying, new people, new experiences. My world centered around the theater department which was a world like any other undergrad world, with maybe a higher percentage of out-of-the-closet gay folks. This was the late ’80’s, the difference between then and now is like the difference between answering machines and cellphones.

My tastes weren’t really expanding into more mainstream areas. The new stuff I was hearing was mainly euro-pop like Erasure, New Order, Bronski Beat, etc. I wasn’t crazy about this music. It had technical perfection and glossy beats but there seemed to be some sort of hole at the center of it.

Into that atmosphere came a couple of guys. One was actually a high school friend who’d briefly played bass in my band. Joe was a DJ at WRIU and took classes in the theater department. He was a good actor but mainly he enjoyed being behind the scenes. Stage managing, building sets, etc. He and another guy named Bill had similar tastes in music and they became friends.

I still can remember the first night I wound up hanging out with them down by Narragansett Beach. Bill had a huge record collection and we got beer and sat down to enjoy it. While he and Joe had nothing against punk rock, they held The Who, The Stones, Roy Orbison, and Buddy Holly in as high esteem as I did The Replacements, Hüsker Dü, and The Clash.

Bill went to play a Who record and I made some sort of nasty snorting sound and said something negative. You’d have thought I’d insulted his mother. He and Joe then proceeded to lecture me for (I’m not kidding) an hour and a half about why I was wrong, how full of shit I was, and how I simply did not have the information I needed.

I begrudgingly admitted that I had heard “My Generation” and maybe “Pinball Wizard”. To this day I don’t like those songs because the shadow of my punk prejudice hangs over them.

Then Bill opened me a Budweiser and played The Who’s The Who By Numbers from front to back. And by the time it was over I was apologizing to Bill, Joe, and the members of The Who for my ignorance and malarkey.

I also found it ironic that in a year in which I’d been introduced to a whole subset of gay artists that the gayest thing I’d hear would be an album by The Who. To me it is clear that Pete Townshend is struggling to define his sexuality here, chafing at the restriction that fame puts on his interactions with people, and feeling as if the perception that people have of him is at odds with his real truth.

Many have doubted that Townshend ever ventured into any gay relationships. But here is the opening stanza of “How Many Friends”, a blistering self-excoriation that comes at the close of the album.

I’m feelin’ so good right now
There’s a handsome boy tells me how I changed his past
He buys me a brandy
But could it be he’s really just after my ass?

Now, I might be jumping to conclusions here…um, is it me?

In any case, whether he is or he isn’t gay, did or didn’t sleep with men, the point is that he is introducing the subject matter as a reality unto itself. The greater questions at the heart of the album are all about identity and what happens to a person when they are seen as something that they are not, or as something they desperately want to be but cannot.

This album is one long howl of pain, all dressed up in beautiful melody, bouncing bass lines, pounding drums, and soaring guitar solos. If you didn’t know English, your basic response might be enthusiasm, or vigor. These songs are calls to action, musically. But when you climb inside the lyrics they are a morass of self-doubt, hatred, and questioning.

To a sheltered kid at college it was like a bolt of lightning from the sky. I had been wrong! The Who were as amazing as everyone said. And subversive! And ballsy! At the height of their fame they’re singing about getting picked up in a bar by a young guy and being a “well-fucked sailor”. I mean, are you kidding me? Total bad ass-ness.

In the middle of the album is a small song. It doesn’t call much attention to itself but I think it is The Who’s finest moment. It is called “Blue Red and Grey”.

I’m going to include the entire lyric sheet here.

Some people seem so obsessed with the morning
Get up early just to watch the sun rise
Some people like it more when there’s fire in the sky
Worship the sun when it’s high
Some people go for those sultry evenings
Sipping cocktails in the blue, red and grey
But I like every minute of the day

I like every second, so long as you are on my mind
Every moment has its special charm
It’s all right when you’re around, rain or shine
I know a crowd who only live after midnight
Their faces always seem so pale
And then there’s friends of mine who must have sunlight
They say a suntan never fails
I know a man who works the night shift
He’s lucky to get a job and some pay
And I like every minute of the day

I dig every second
I can laugh in the snow and rain
I get a buzz from being cold and wet
The pleasure seems to balance out the pain

And so you see that I’m completely crazy
I even shun the south of France
The people on the hill, they say I’m lazy
But when they sleep, I sing and dance
Some people have to have the sultry evenings
Cocktails in the blue, red and grey
But I like every minute of the day

I like every minute of the day

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I was on the verge of adulthood. But I was still a kid. I had no responsibilities other than finding my favorite party or rehearsing some new play. This hint of optimism in the middle of that dark pool of regret and pain moved me very deeply.

The bravery it takes to say, “Hey, I love EVERY SECOND THAT I’M ALIVE”, the determined absence of jaded cynicism in that sentiment, got me through many of my darkest college days, days when I felt like a paint-by-numbers sketch myself, when it felt like I was an outline for others to fill in.

When I had no idea who I really was.

— Brendan O’Malley

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