September 2022 Viewing Diary

The Deep End (2022; d. Jon Kasbe)
I’m into cults but I actively avoid woo-woo, so somehow Teal Swan escaped my radar. Well, she’s on my radar NOW. This Netflix doc is extraordinary because Teal Swan participated in it, she allowed the camera crew to enter her home and inner circle. Is this due to vanity? She assumed she would come off looking good? She is rather frightening and the footage of her workshops are truly disturbing. The whole “repressed memory” thing is scarily persistent. It’s been debunked by psychologists, psychiatrists, over and over again, and still it persists. Isn’t it incredible that so many people witnessed Satanic murders of babies as children and yet … there were no missing persons reports for missing babies, no coroners’ inquests, nothing about all the murdered babies across the land. There’s one really chilling moment where Teal Swan’s assistant – this brainwashed woman, Ugh, it was so sad – described her own “ritual abuse” as a child, where she witnessed her parents or babysitters or whatever – holding babies over a fire, grilling them alive. The interviewer off-camera asks, “Why were they doing that?” For a second, this woman looked confused – a teeny tiny moment of cognitive dissonance – In HER world, such revelations are not questioned. Ever. This is a total shitshow and very dangerous. And Teal is an intriguing subject for the camera. Her VOICE is so interesting: it’s hypnotic. I was also fascinated by her use of curse words. It feels very deliberate and imposed and over-determined. It’s a way to dominate and threaten.

Roustabout (1964; d. John Rich)
Elvis and Barbara Stanwyck! The romance here doesn’t really make any sense – they rarely do in Elvis movies – but he looks fantastic – that black leather jacket! – and there are scenes between Elvis and Stanwyck that spark. She’s so good, so “in it”, such a pro, and you can almost see him appreciating her during their scenes together. He rises to her level. These are equally balanced scenes. People who say he can’t act have no idea what they’re talking about. THEY can’t act, that’s the real issue.

We Are as Gods (2021; d. David Alvarado, Jason Sussberg)
The more I think about this documentary and the de-extinction movement, the ikkier it all seems. And I should have done more digging into Stewart Brand. Poke a little bit and all kinds of shitty gross things are uncovered. I reviewed for Ebert.

True Things (2022; d. Harry Wootliff)
I really grooved to the emotional intensity of this, and its frankness about obsession and sex, about how we can be narcotized by “bad”-ness, that something that is “bad” for you has a much stronger pull than something that is recognizably good and normal. I reviewed for Ebert.

Girl Happy (1965; d. Boris Sagal)
Along with Viva Las Vegas, this is peak Elvis Formula Movie. We also get Elvis in drag.

Elvis (2022; d. Baz Luhrmann)
Once more unto the breach.

Tickle Me (1965; d. Norman Taurog)
One of my faves of Elvis’ movies and it’s really barely known outside hard-core fans. The movie takes place on a “fat farm” in the desert, where Elvis works as a ranch hand, and distracts the women from their diet goals by singing and wreaking havoc. Stupid, right? Add to that a ghost town – a haunted old Western hotel – a flashback to gold-rush times – hidden gold – a kidnapping plot – and some good old-fashioned quid-pro-quo workplace sexual harassment (i.e. Elvis’ lady boss propositions him and tells him she’ll up his salary if he … you know) … like, what is going on here. Well, if you think of this movie as a spoof and a parody – with tongue firmly in its cheek – an inside-joke, where every single person is in on the joke – including Elvis, especially Elvis – then the whole thing shifts into focus. It’s hilarious and confident and stupid and entertaining. They know what they’re doing. Nobody thinks they’re making a serious movie. They are literally spoofing themselves. It’s super fun. Plus Elvis does an INSANE number early on … I wrote a whole piece about this number, and what he’s doing, because it’s key to understanding him and the impact he had. Seriously: what he is doing here is nuuuuuuuuuuts.

Harum Scarum (1965; d. Gene Nelson)
We’re moving into the dark era (with a couple of shining moments). But in general: the Grimness begins now. I think it’s important to point out that Elvis Movies weren’t the only shitty movies happening in the mid-60s. It was a bad era for movies. The studio system was crumbling. As a way to fight back, movies suffered from gigantism (Cleopatra, Hello Dolly, Dr. Doolittle) which bankrupted everyone. Beach Blanket Bingo. A complete denial of the social reality was epidemic. The 1950s film industry addressed issues such as race relations, alcoholism, infidelity, mental illness, sexuality … the mainstream 60s movies snapped into a puritanical chaste attitude which was actually new in the industry. You watch movies in the 30s and 40s and the subject matter is wide-ranging, often socially conscious, and unafraid of tough subjects. So. Back to Elvis. Harum Scarum is bad – very bad – but – scarily – it is not the low point. The low points are to come. I feel I must point out though: The man made 31 movies, 3 a year, for over a decade and … there are more good ones than bad ones. The fact that this is not common knowledge is just outrageous to me. That’s why I’m here.

Frankie and Johnny (1966; d. Fred de Cordova)
Bad. It feels endless. Good cast though – including Harry Morgan! The “black cat” number is good, although the sound mix is all off (a common feature in these mid-60s soundtracks). There’s one number that comes alive – purely because of Elvis’ self-belief – but you’ll have to watch it to figure out which one it is.

Paradise, Hawaiian Style (1966; d. Mickey Moore)
As far as I’m concerned, this is the nadir. It’s not even a movie. He barely has a musical number. It’s a travelogue. The one song with any “pep” is given to a child. The whole thing is insulting and unprecedented in terms of a major star. I literally can’t think of an equivalent. Elvis was such a professional he always “showed up” even for the silly stuff – he did his best – but here he looks openly bored. I almost clock him rolling his eyes a couple of times. Who can blame him.

Spinout (1966; d. Norman Taurog)
Light from the caves. This is fun. This has Shelley Fabares in it – she appeared as a love interest in three of his movies – they have legitimate chemistry (here she is particularly adorable) and it zips and purrs and crackles. Notice that Norman Taurog is at the helm. Taurog knew how to handle this formula (with one notable exception). Keep it moving. Add complications. Add women to the mix. Throw in the songs. Action scenes. Goof off. Never ever leave room for dead air and do not – under any circumstances – take any of it seriously. Give the audience a good time at LEAST. Spinout also features a girl drummer – which had an impact.

Easy Come, Easy Go (1967; d. John Rich)
Elsa Lanchester as a wacko yoga instructor! So this weirdo movie involves an Elvis-Movie version of the counterculture, plus a shipwreck with possible buried gold, and interminable underwater sequences where Elvis (or his double) attempts to defuse a floating sunken bomb and/or search for the buried treasure. The songs are bad. He looks amazing. But the Elvis Movie has, at this point, lost its way (with Spinout a brief respite)

Double Trouble (1967; d. Norman Taurog)
Here is the notable exception to Taurog’s Elvis movie track record. This is some really bleak shit. However: Michael Murphy is in it and he and Elvis have a deadly karate match. There’s also a connection with What’s Up, Doc? (including Michael Murphy) which I meant to write about here – and makes me think – no, makes me KNOW – that Peter Bogdanovich and/or Buck Henry were very very familiar with Double Trouble. Imagine being influenced by Double Trouble. lol It’s really bad. Everyone involved should be run out of town on a rail for making Elvis sing “Ol’ MacDonald”. To be fair though: Elvis, what would have happened if you just said “No, I’m not doing that”. Why couldn’t you just say “No, I’m not doing that.” I promise you nothing bad would have happened. Not by 1967. You’re 32 years old. Say “No, I’m not doing that.” I beg you.

Clambake (1967; d. Arthur H. Nadel)
Nadir #2. Even his costumes are bad. He’s clearly gained weight (although his weight fluctuated wildly) and his costumes accentuate the weight gain as opposed to hide it. The movie feels endless except for the interactions with Shelley Fabares, who always brings a sweet sense of truth and charm to the screen. Again, you can clock Elvis not giving a fuck, which was rare.

Stay Away, Joe (1968; d. Peter Tewksbury)
There are many many problems with this movie – including racism, called out in the reviews at the time (lest the younguns feel like saying “Stuff like this was accepted back then.” No it wasn’t. Not in 1968. History exists. Learn.) The book on which it was based also was controversial for its stereotypes, etc. So okay there’s that. But I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again: It’s 1968, Elvis is one year away from being released from the prison of his contract, and the formula – already toppling – has now crashed completely. Elvis is unleashed. He’s lean, gorgeous, modern, and sexual. Elvis movies were mostly chaste – there’s no chaste-ness here.

In fact, in one scene it appears that he has sex with three separate women (all of whom seem very happy about it). This is the same year as the comeback special, and it shows. He looks fantastic. He rolls around in the dirt with a pigpile of men, laughing hysterically. He’s part of an ensemble. He only sings a couple of songs. And then there’s this

…… see what I mean?

Plus, he has a sexually suggestive super hot scene with the great Joan Blondell.

This movie is notorious for the song Elvis was forced to sing about a recalcitrant bull. Elvis was literally in tears, begging the powers-that-be that the recording of this song would never see the light of day. Not an exaggeration. He cried. It was that bad. It IS that bad.

The Justice of Bunny King (2022; d. Gaysorn Thavat)
Essie Davis continues to astonish. I reviewed for Ebert.

Sins of Our Mother (2022; d. Skye Borgman)
Wow. I knew the bare bones of this story, but never dug into it further. Now I know more than I ever wanted to know, and this shit is legit chilling. Like, I’m truly freaked out. Those poor children.

Speedway (1968; d. Norman Taurog)
Thank you, Taurog, for re-asserting the formula, while also revitalizing it. There are some low points – the song to the IRS (the choreography is pretty funny: still though, Elvis isn’t a musical star who does choreography. Stop trying to make him something he’s not.) Nancy Sinatra is a very strange cinematic figure, but her number is fun, and the whole nightclub set is worth the price of admission (as are the numbers Elvis does there). Quentin Tarantino obviously felt the same way. Damn, he looks good in this movie. It hurts.

Live a Little, Love a Little (1968; d. Norman Taurog)
There is zero reason this movie shouldn’t be counted as a pleasing and entertaining ’60s romantic-comedy romp. It’s superior to many of the others in that particular genre. I’ve written a lot about it, and also spoke of it in the talk I gave in Memphis on Elvis’ movie career. I wrote about it here – and I included it in my piece on Elvis for Film Comment.

Charro! (1969; d. Charles Marquis Warren)
Formula no more. Elvis only sings the theme song (and it’s a beautiful almost operatic number, steeped in melodrama). This is Elvis’ semi-Spaghetti-Western, and he’s very good in it. So is Ina Balin as the love interest slash local bordello Madame. Again, there is no reason this movie shouldn’t be remembered. It can be enjoyed on its own terms. Unlike, say, Tickle Me or Girl Happy, you don’t need any context to understand what’s happening. Elvis is IN this, but it’s not “an Elvis movie”. I mean, come on, he has a raggedy beard. Plus, he works his angles!

The Trouble with Girls (1969; d. Peter Tewksbury)
No apologies need to be made for this movie. You do not need to grade it on an Elvis curve. (Not that Elvis needs to be graded on a curve – but his movies require a little adjustment in order to understand what the hell is even going ON). But this? It’s just a good movie, period, and almost totally unknown. It’s an ensemble movie. Elvis isn’t even the lead, although he is the central figure. But long long sections go by where he’s not even in it. The cast is all very good (Dabney Coleman is great, as are all the women, particularly Marlyn Mason and Sheree North – plus Vincent Price is in it) – and Elvis gets to sing gospel. All of the songs are justified, woven into the action (the movie is about a traveling show on the Chautauqua circuit) … plus there’s a murder mystery, plus Tewksbury has some Altman-like effects – long zooms and pans … giving it a very different look and feel from the normal Elvis fare. I recommend this movie with no reservations. The title is meaningless. The movie has nothing to do with “the trouble with girls”. It’s about the end of an era – the Chautauqua – and a group of people trying to find their place in a changing world. It’s also about Elvis in a white suit and Elvis’ sideburns.

Change of Habit (1969; d. William Graham)
Elvis’ final narrative feature. He plays an inner-city doctor, because of course he does. Mary Tyler Moore is the love interest. I refer to this as “Elvis’ Vatican II movie”.

Sirens (2022; d. Rita Baghdadi)
I just reviewed this documentary about an all-girl metal band in Lebanon. I highly recommend it.

Blonde (2022; d. Andrew Dominick)
Percolating about this phantasmagorical body-horror ode to the 20th century pagan Death Cult which has little if anything to do with Marilyn Monroe.

Strawberry Blonde (1941; d. Raoul Walsh)
A fave. Excellent performances (unsurprisingly) from James Cagney, Rita Hayworth, Olivia de Havilland, and Jack Carson. Subtle, too: deep character development, each person has an arc.

Out of the Fog (1941; Anatole Litvak)
Moody, grim, gripping moral and ethical dilemmas, insightful character acting by all involved: John Garfield, Ida Lupino, Eddie Albert, Thomas Mitchell, John Qualen. Thomas Mitchell is, unsurprisingly, absolutely heartbreaking. He has moments that are legitimately difficult to look at. Interesting to consider the following year Ida Lupino and Thomas Mitchell would team up again in Moontide – which I wrote about for Film Comment

where their relationship is totally different. In Out of the Fog they are father and daughter, and what a beautiful complex relationship they create. In Moontide she is a tough girl – read: prostitute – saved from suicide, only to be raped by Thomas Mitchell’s closeted gay psychopath. Terrifying: one of Mitchell’s very best performances, but then again, with Mitchell it’s hard to choose.

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Review: Sirens (2022)

I really enjoyed Sirens, a new documentary about Slave to Sirens, an all-girl thrash-metal band in Lebanon (the only band of its kind in Lebanon, and probably the Middle East as a whole). I’m a big fan of these young women. I reviewed for Ebert.

Official trailer:

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Even Tweedle Dee Can’t Look Away

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R.I.P. Louise Fletcher

There’s only one tribute to actress Louise Fletcher you need to read and that is my friend Dan Callahan’s over at Ebert. So many revelatory details, particularly from the Vanity Fair interview with Fletcher in 2018. (She thinks Nurse Ratched was a virgin, and that she was turned on by McMurphy.) I love the stories about how Jack Nicholson constantly goofing off, etc., trying to make Fletcher break character. Exhibit A:

Then there was the one notorious day, when Fletcher finally needed a break from playing this inhuman woman, and stripped to the waist to pose like Bettie-Page to the hooting appreciation of the cast and crew. Lol. You can’t be Nurse Ratched 24/7.

But back to the matter at hand. Here’s Dan:

In our final glimpse of Nurse Ratched, after McMurphy has been lobotomized, she wears a neck brace, and her manner is very soft, very “kind.” But we know what she is underneath. Fletcher has shown us. Anyone who has had to deal with bureaucracies knows that there are Nurse Ratcheds, both male and female, in every one of them, and their voices are “friendly” as they twist their knives. There is no other performance by any actor that shows this type of person in such a substantial and revelatory way.

But there’s more: the way Forman was at first resistant to casting her, and then – after he did cast her – being uncertain about some of her choices. But Fletcher showed him, calmly, that her way was the right way. She didn’t have a “take” on Nurse Ratched. She had INSIGHT into this woman. (I made this point about De Niro and Jake La Motta in my Raging Bull video essay.)

On the first day of shooting, he told Fletcher not to tilt her head because it would read as weak, but Fletcher wanted to emphasize the soft and placating attitude this woman puts on for her inmates, and Forman eventually saw that she was right and re-shot this scene her way.

Please go read the whole thing. Pieces like this are why we need writers like Dan. Keepers of the flame, torch-bearers, those who can express the things we want to say, or … help us understand why something was important, why it’s important to take a moment when someone passes from this earth, and pay tribute to their contribution.

And Dan’s right. Her Oscar acceptance speech is one of the most touching in the entire history of the Oscars.

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Women leave Elvis messages in the mirror: A recurring motif


Girl Happy


Live a Little, Love a Little

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Elvis back-ting, part 4

Part 1 and 2. Part 3. These two shots (from Charro!) are also a great example of working your ANGLES.

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Review: The Justice of Bunny King

What a remarkable directorial debut, and WHAT a performance from Essie Davis. I reviewed for Ebert.

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Eating in cars with boys: QT tips his hat


Pulp Fiction (1994)


Speedway (1968)

I assumed most people knew where the Pulp Fiction nightclub set came from, and the inspiration it acknowledged, in a no-bones-about-it kind of way, but that would mean people would need to watch Elvis movies, which … is not the case. I clocked it instantly, though, the first time I saw Pulp Fiction – at a matinee in a movie theatre in Ithaca, New York, with Michael. Dear Michael. I whispered excitedly, “Oh my God, that’s from Speedway.” Michael was a good boyfriend. He had no idea what I was talking about but he asked me about it after, and listened to me rapturously – yes, rapturously – as I described Speedway to him. The rapture came because I provided a piece of the puzzle for this movie we had just seen and were blown away by. You have to realize how Pulp Fiction hit when it first came out. It was so DIFFERENT from anything else that was out there. It opened up possibilities. It changed everything. For better, for worse. Tarantino’s imitators are usually awful. They still walk among us. But Pulp Fiction exploded our minds. Plus, 1. we loved Reservoir Dogs and 2. there was our shared adoration of John Travolta. So we were ALL IN. And so me providing this RANDOM reference was so exciting to him. We didn’t have the Internet, yo, so I couldn’t pull up a picture and he had to just take my word for it. But he believed me.

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Memphis Madness

I had a big crackup in 2012 – which everyone who knows me already knows, and which was completely obvious from the increasingly crazy things I was posting here. (I left them up because it is an accurate record of where I was at, and it’s my domain, so fuck it.)

Impulsively, with a desire to escape (increasingly urgent, the word “escape” taking on sinister meaning at times), I booked a trip to Memphis from the day after Christmas, or maybe the 27th, to the 9th or 10th of January. A long one. I was going to spend New Year’s Eve there by myself, because, yeah, that’s normal. I was sleeping 3.5 hours a night. The clouds rolled in around 2 pm. So I kept waking up earlier and earlier so I could have a normal productive day. This had pushed me into a wild state of near-psychosis. I was both manic and depressive – simultaneously – an experience I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemies. Being depressed is one thing. Being in a state of nervous excitement while also being suicidally depressed is perhaps the most dangerous psychological state anyone can be in. I flew to Memphis in that state.

A coda: It was an amazing trip. The clouds lifted. I did everything by myself. I drove around Mississippi. I went to Tupelo on Elvis’ birthday, but at 7, 8 in the morning when no one was there. I went to church. I woke up (again) at 4:30 in the morning and walked around deserted Memphis, which … considering the murder rate … was so stupid, but they are still beautiful haunting memories. I went to the park across the street from my hotel, when it was still dark out, a park right on the bluff overlooking the Mississippi River and sat and watched the dawn lighten the sky. Again: sitting in a park at 5 o’clock in the morning is not perhaps the best choice. It was during one of those morning meditations when I met a pimp. We had a lovely chat. I went to Graceland and took a tour, and I was by myself on the tour. Maybe because it was January 2nd. I don’t know. But I was alone in Graceland, I was alone on the grounds, I was alone on the planes (I admit it: I lay down on his bed and took a picture of myself doing so). It was frosty and cold. I went and had Bloody Marys at the Peabody Hotel, read Keith Richards’ memoir, and watched the parade of ducks. I took hours-long walks through the city. Daily. I walked out to Sun Studio. I walked back. I felt uplifted, exhilarated. (Again: I now recognize the danger signs.) Meanwhile, though, my family were all afraid that I was going to Memphis to do something final. I do not discount the possibility that that may have been in my mind, even subconsciously.

So let’s backtrack. I had basically ruined Christmas with my state of wild anguish. I was sunk into this toxic witches’ brew of self-loathing, fatalistic despair, and hopelessness. Good times. The day after Christmas, I woke up at 6 in the morning and drove to the airport for my flight. This means that I snuck out of the house – where we all were staying – without saying goodbye to anyone. Everyone was horrified and terrified. My sister later told me she thought she might never see me again. I have guilt about putting everyone through that. I have tried to let it go. I was baffled at why everyone was worried, believe it or not. As far as I was concerned, what I was going through was a completely understandable reaction to the reality of this world. Everyone else was living in La La Land. I alone perceived the shape of reality. Nobody ever said a rampaging manic-depressive episode makes people charming and thoughtful.

I get off the plane. It’s early morning in Memphis. The sun is bright. It’s cold. I’m on the sidewalk in front of the airport, and about to go pick up my rental car. I check my phone. There were four voice messages, one from my mother, and three from my siblings. I have written this story so I won’t go over it again too much. Every message said “We are very concerned about you. Please don’t do anything while you’re there. We want you to come home safe. Have a good trip but when you come back we are going to help you get into treatment.” Or some such variation. They all said they loved me but that something was very very wrong and they were going to help me get better. It was clearly a coordinated ATTACK. They all left messages while I was airborne and couldn’t receive them. So I stood there on the sidewalk outside the airport and listened to all of them.

I was mortified and irritated. I had been living this way for so long I didn’t know what the fuss was about. If I can re-create my state of mind, think myself back into who I was then, embarrassment was top-level. I don’t like people being worried about me and people had been worried about me since I was 16. I had been slugging it out by myself for years. This is just what I had come to call a Bad Time, and it would pass. Don’t they all know it would pass?

However: what happened to me on the sidewalk in front of the airport was very very different. Yes, I felt a knee-jerk embarrassment, even more so since everyone was speaking to me in such a direct “You need help. Now.” manner. Nobody had ever said that to me before. They would talk about whatever issue I was going through at the time, helping me to sort it out. Nobody ever went up higher, and said “In general, you have a huge problem.” lol Something about their loving concerned voices, one after the other, did something to me. It shifted something. It was like somewhere, deep inside, I always knew something was really wrong. It was unconscious, though. And I have been stubborn and also, maybe, childishly pissed off that no one had come along to save me when I was young. The time to help me was back THEN so fuck you all, look at the horrible result of my horrible lonely life. Take THAT. I know it makes no sense. But rampaging undiagnosed mental illness does not usher a person into clarity and grown-up thought processes.

So to hear all of them, the people I love the most, speak with that much clarity … cracked through. I suddenly felt I wasn’t totally alone in the world. It was a crucial turning point, because instead of throwing the phone into the trash and going totally off grid – another Fuck You for concerning yourself NOW – where have you BEEN all these years – an option I could have taken – I let their worry actually speak to me, I HEARD them. And somewhere I thought: Okay. Something is very wrong with me. It’s not the guy who just fucked me over. It’s ME. I actually felt better. Shell-shocked, too.

I moved off in a daze to pick up my car. I typed the address of my hotel into the GPS, and headed off into the Memphis morning. There was a lightness of spirit in me, a burden lifted. I knew when I got back home, I would have to deal with whatever it was that was scrambling my brain. No turning back now. It was like an intervention for drug or alcohol addiction. Once you are confronted by your family in a direct manner, it is very hard to turn your back and say, “Nope. I’ll figure it out myself.” It’s a turning point. Get busy livin’ or get busy dyin’.

I drove towards downtown Memphis. I have no idea what I did wrong when I typed in the hotel address. Clearly, I got something wrong. Maybe I inverted some numbers. I don’t know. But it feels to me now, in retrospect, that the GPS-lady, with her soothing voice, had her own plans for me. And maybe she was working on concert, on some spiritual plane, with my four family members and their worried urgent voice messages. GPS lady tells me to turn right, then left, then left again, I’m in Memphis proper, she’s taking me left and right, until finally I pull into a circular driveway in front of a huge bluish-white building. A building that does not at all look like a hotel. Over the entranceway were the words: “Memphis Mental Health Institute.”

I rolled to a stop, staring up at the building, and the GPS-lady said, soothingly, “You have arrived at your destination.”

You really can’t make this stuff up. It was actually funny. I started laughing. I actually started laughing. I don’t think I said this out loud, but I thought it: “So, GPS-lady-slash-Universe, are you saying I should forego the trip and just check myself in here? Is that what you’re trying to say?”

It’s still such a weird memory and I still can’t explain it. Of all the locations my mistake could have led me to … it could have led me to a random storefront, a private home, a community center, a beauty salon … nothing with a personal message attached to it. I don’t believe in woo-woo stuff but I admit, staring up at the sign, I wondered if woo-woo was involved.

I sat there in the drive, checking the address, re-entering the hotel address, and continuing on my way. And I had a good trip. Things got much worse when I came home. Memphis was just a brief respite from the hell that was the previous fall. I was put into treatment in a state of high emergency. It took my whole family – not just immediate – to get me there. But while I was in Memphis, where I went days without speaking to a soul, beyond the waitress at the diner, or the bartender on Beale Street, I lived in a cocoon of silence and meditation. (And at least I knew where the loony bin was. Just in case.)

Two years later, Inherent Vice came out, and the first time I saw it, this scene rolled around …

and I thought immediately of sitting in the circular driveway in Memphis, staring up at the sign. Wow. That’s just what I saw. It looked just like this.

I’m going to Memphis again, and I’m going for the same date-span. It’ll be ten years exactly, not since I’ve been to the city, but since the trip where the GPS lady echoed the voice mail messages from my family, and ushered me to the mental hospital in my first 20 minutes in the city. I need to go to Memphis for other things, and have been trying to plan it, but my work schedule – and the autumn – with New York Film Festival and other obligations – means I have to wait. So I thought … why not go for the same dates? Let’s re-visit, but in a different head-space … because …

I’m even staying in the same hotel. Symmetry.

Let’s see where the GPS-lady takes me THIS time.

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Dynamic Duo #35

Tennessee Williams and Marlon Brando, 1948

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