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— The rough cut of our little film is done. There’s been tons of back and forth between me and the director, lots of conversation, and it’s been fascinating, nerve-wracking, and I love being back in the zone of something creative. Giving notes, getting notes, creative discussions … I was an actress for so long and I miss it. I have MISSED that rehearsal/creative process and it is so good to be back in that type of conversation, even if it’s from the writer’s side. It’s wonderful.

— It is difficult for me to maintain stability. It requires rigor. I am envious of those who are on more of an even keel, naturally. I am two years into my diagnosis now and I am starting to understand my illness’ cyclical nature. Although it is somewhat embarrassing to admit that things like the moon phases and the length of the day has such an effect on me (it makes me feel like a cave-woman) … I understand now the seasonal nature of this thing and that this time of year has been (historically) rather bad. It’s not rocket science what I have to do to stay sane. And I do it. I wish it wasn’t all such a chore though. Sleep, good diet, no alcohol, exercise (thank you, spring weather – I’ve been running and walking everywhere again), keeping a journal (haven’t done so in years but it really helps, so I started again), mantra-type internal comments – where I talk myself out of the spiral – allowing for pleasure in my life, to not be such a task-master hard-ass on myself. Like, give yourself a fucking BREAK, Sheila. Do shit just because you feel like doing it. Read for pleasure. Indulge in pantsfeelings as much as possible. Follow your hobbies. Go see a hockey game. Whatever. Like I said, not rocket science. It’s been hard since I came back from L.A. and there’s so much happening that is awesome! I feel like I have not been present to it. Or not present in the way I want to be.

— My 16-year-old nephew texted me recently. He’s going on a trip to Europe with his school choir. They are traveling through Amsterdam, Brussels, Bruges, and Paris. He wanted book recommendations. First of all, the heart-crack of this is almost too much to bear. It is like I have taken on my father’s role in the family. Like, this is what people would ask my dad. It is a huge responsibility. I take it very seriously. Second of all, when he texted me, even though he’s a teenager and everything, he texted, “Auntie Sheila …” which is what he has always called me. More heartcrack. So we went back and forth and I had some ideas for him and then I asked, “Have you seen Midnight in Paris?” He said yes he had seen it – and then he said to me: “So you’re thinking lost generation then.” Yes, kid. That’s what I was thinking. And kudos to you for knowing that term, and kudos to you in general for EVERYTHING.

— I’m reading a book now on the war in Chechnya. That, to me, counts as reading for pleasure.

— I finally have health insurance again (after three years of having none) and have been getting back on the coverage track, which has been part of the stress of this past month. Blood tests and mammograms and ultrasounds, oh my.

— I have good friends and an amazing family. I am very lucky! I love my nieces and nephews and love being an aunt.

— My new go-to workout song. Slightly obsessed with it.

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Review: The Ocean of Helena Lee (2015); directed by Jim Akin

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Helena Lee (Moriah Blonna) is a 12-year-old girl living with her father Micky (Tom Dunne) in the anything-goes vibrant beach community of Venice Beach. Micky is a drummer at a local strip club. He surfs. He bums around. A parade of women tromp through the little beach house, and Helena Lee lies in her “bed,” an improvised situation with a mattress on the floor of the closet.

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Helena wants to be a writer. She is interested in the meaning of Stories, not just what happens in the plot, but what it all might signify. What do stories mean, what purpose do they serve, and what is her story? If she can figure out what her story is, perhaps she will understand the direction she needs to take. And maybe if she knows the story, she will be able to avert disaster. She spends her days wandering around the beach, seeing things, thinking about things, enjoying the water, the sun, the sand, tracking it home into her mattress on the floor.

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She is not lost, not really. It’s her father who is lost. He is a man who has never grown up. He doesn’t want his daughter to feel the pressure to grow up, either. When she asks him questions about life or death, he answers seriously, interested in throwing ideas around with her. He is an amateur philosopher. He appears one day in their living room, wearing a suit, saying, “Okay, time for work!” The next shot shows him surfing, in his suit, all as she frolics in the waves at his side.

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Helena’s mother is dead and she appears repeatedly to Helena, sometimes walking at her side along the cliffs, looking down on the water, sometimes cradling her in her lap as they sit in the sand together. Helena’s mother is a watchful and mysterious presence, veiled in white. She is played by the great Maria McKee (Akin’s wife and co-collaborator).

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Similar to Helena Lee’s thoughts on Story, Jim Akin’s thoughts on Story are personal, evocative, and inclined towards the symbolic. Language can bind you up in abstractions. But images like the beach, and the colorful murals, the streetlamps of Venice Beach, the piers sticking out into the water wreathed in colored lights, the feeling of what it means to grow up in a beach town like that … these are things that have meaning in and of themselves, calling up personal associations and memories and dreams. And that is the atmosphere Jim Akin creates in his film (and he did so in his first feature as well, After the Triumph of Your Birth, which also starred Tom Dunne). The Ocean of Helena Lee is semi-autobiographical. These are streets Jim Akin knows well. But it takes a poet, it takes an artist, to look at that which is familiar and see it anew, examine it, upend it, revel in it. This process could be self-indulgent or narcissistic, but not in the hands of an artist. James Joyce had very mixed feelings about Ireland, felt he could never live there, and yet Ireland was all he wrote about. He wrote about all of it: its prudery, its hypocrisy, its love of martyrdom, he wrote about all its ugliness, but he wrote about its beauty too. Akin knows these boardwalks and piers and cliffs like he knows the back of his own hand: and that knowledge shows in the film. It’s a collage, a mood piece, in many ways, with one fantastic image after another. He is incapable of setting up a shot in a boring or “stock” way.He has an incredible eye, for angles for juxtapositions, for the striking and memorable.

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But his style is in service to the story. Eventually what ends up happening is the rhythm of Venice Beach, captured so effortlessly in the film, the waves, the ocean in all its moods, the wide streets, the little beach houses, the carnival atmosphere on the boardwalks and sidewalks … these things become a part of us, watching. I didn’t even need the ongoing soundtrack of the waves in order to hear its eternal presence. The Ocean of Helena Lee is so rooted in its specific world that I felt the sand between my toes watching it.

Young Moriah Blonna makes her film debut, and she is beautifully natural, a thoughtful and serious presence, the anchor of the film. Her worry for her father is palpable. Her missing of her mother is omnipresent. She has a friend, a peer, whom she hangs out with, skipping down the streets at night, and it’s one of the only times that you are reminded … Hey, wait a second, this is a little girl here. Her father, kindly and harmless though he may be, is a wreck. Her anxiety about what will happen to her if something happens to him … is a huge part of why she wants to be a writer, of her obsession with Story. What is going to happen? If she could write it out, maybe she could find a “Happily Ever After.” Maybe.

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Jim Akin and Maria McKee have collaborated on all aspects of the film (as they did with After the Triumph of Your Birth). They have written an unforgettable score, featuring the powerful vocals of McKee, accompanying Helena Lee on her wanderings across the beach, along the cliffs, through the cool nighttime streets. McKee’s voice is one of the best voices out there: the first time you hear it, it becomes a part of you forever. It is a voice visceral with emotion and power, trembling with courageous vulnerability, and yet she has complete control over that instrument: It does what she wants it to do, it goes where she wants it go. There’s one lament in particular so raw it made the hair on my skin rise up.

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Jim Akin’s work is personal. His care and affection for his topics (and the images he chooses) is apparent in every frame. He really looks at things, he really sees. After the Triumph of Your Birth took place in the industrial wasteland sections of Los Angeles, the drying-up canal, the old warehouses, the blasted-by-sunlight empty factories. It is part of a California rarely seen in film. And so, too, his vision here. Venice Beach has its own character, its own vibe, and Akin captures it, in its loneliness and isolation, in its beauty and its sleaze, and also in its cacophony of community and expressiveness.

Whimsical and poignant, devastating and hopeful, The Ocean of Helena Lee stayed with me long after the final frame.

You can read more about The Ocean of Helena Lee here, and check out the trailer below.

The film will premiere at the American Cinematheque (Egyptian Theatre) in Los Angeles on May 8th, and will be available on iTunes and Amazon on May 14th.

THE OCEAN OF HELENA LEE Trailer from The Shootist on Vimeo.

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Review: The Girl Is in Trouble (2015)

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Director/writer Julius Onah is on the rise. The Girl Is in Trouble, made a couple of years ago, is his first feature, and it’s finally getting a release. Executive produced by Spike Lee.

I reviewed The Girl Is in Trouble for The Dissolve.

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Supernatural, Season 10, Episode Hamster-Necklace Redux?, Open Thread

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I am buried in screenings for the Tribeca Film Festival, and hope to see the new episode at some point today. Carry on!

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March 2015: Viewing Diary

Supernatural, Season 2, Episode 14 “Born Under a Bad Sign” (2007; J. Miller Tobin). A re-watch for my re-cap.

Tales of Hoffmann (1952; Michael Powell and Emeric Pressburger). Saw a screening of the lushly-colored new restoration print at the Film Forum, and then interviewed the legendary Thelma Schoonmaker, who supervised the restoration.

Supernatural, Season 8, Episode 17, “Goodbye Stranger” (2013; Thomas J. Wright). I re-watched this one to watch Dean’s body language during the fight scene with Castiel. This was in connection to the fight scene in “Born Under a Bad Sign” which I was in the process of writing about and I wanted to make sure my memory of it was accurate. Listen, I don’t mess around.

Call the Midwife, Season 1. My friend Kate had sent it to me a couple of years ago, which is her way of saying, “YOU MUST WATCH THIS.” She did that to me with Slings and Arrows too, and I will forever be in her debt. I am in love with Call the Midwife and have now started watching the rest on Netflix. One of the main things I love about it: It’s a mostly female cast. All of the women live and work together. And while the series itself has TONS of drama, the drama is not amongst the women. They collaborate, they support, they care about each other, they work together, they are not “out to get” each other. It’s a hospital show, basically, but it just goes to show you that you can actually have a show featuring relationships between women that does not include cattiness/competition for men/passive-aggressive bullshit – whatever. I’ve only watched two seasons, so maybe there’s more to come, but as of now, it’s just so refreshing to see women … get along! And you DON’T sacrifice ANYthing when you have women get along. It’s wonderful.

The Bigamist (1953; Ida Lupino). I had never seen this one before. I love Ida Lupino as an actress but I am even more interested in her groundbreaking career as a director. This film is on Youtube in its entirety and it’s really interesting. It’s extremely sympathetic towards “the bigamist” which is like, What? Come on, guy, pick a woman, and stay with it. Joan Fontaine is pretty under-used, but Ida is great, and I really want to hang out in that weird Chinese restaurant.

Whiplash (2014; Damien Chazelle). Had been having a lot of conversations about Whiplash so decided to watch again. It’s a masterpiece of editing, and I just now learned that the editor is a friend of my sister. And J.K. Simmons is a friend of my cousin Mike’s. So it’s all very exciting when people one-degree away from you win Oscars. I liked the film a lot. I especially liked the look of it, it’s dark greens and blacks.

Call the Midwife, Season 2. I continue to enjoy the series very much.

Muhammad and Larry (2009; Albert Maysles). I re-watched this the day after I heard of the passing of Albert Maysles. It was one of my favorites of the entire 30 for 30 series (which is fantastic already). I highly recommend checking it out.

The Last King of Scotland (2006; Kevin Macdonald). A well-deserved Oscar for Forrest Whittaker. I’m borderline obsessed with Idi Amin, and it was interesting to see how much of the footage here was a direct copy of Barbet Schroeder’s unforgettable and chilling documentary. Those ridiculous medals on the chest.

Sorry Wrong Number (1948; Anatole Litvak). Barbara Stanwyck is the most energetic bed-ridden victim I’ve ever seen! The film is moody as hell, though. I’ve always enjoyed it.

JFK (1991; Oliver Stone). You know, I realize it’s not a history lesson, so there’s no need to remind me of that. What I treasure about this film is its editing. The collage aspect of its footage. There are a couple of things that grate (Costner looking right at the camera – every time I watch it, I think, “Oh, Oliver, no!”). I love the acting performances too. It makes me miss John Candy!

48 hours – the Ryan Ferguson case. Allison saved that one up for me so we could watch it together.

Home Sweet Hell (2015; Anthony Burns). Terrible. I reviewed for Roger Ebert.

Treading Water (2015; Analeine Cal y Mayor). Strange little movie, but I enjoyed a lot of it, especially its strangeness.

Going Clear (2015; Alex Gibney). I saw that at an HBO screening. I’d already read the book. It premiered on HBO on Sunday night. To those of us who have been watching that organization for years and years on end, the events of the last, say, 5 years, have been nothing short of mind-blowing. We can’t believe what has happened.

Ali (2001; Michael Mann). A rather lugubrious tone for such an inspirational figure. Will Smith’s “Ali” is great – his vocal quality has changed, his body language – he has clearly done his homework – but there’s something missing here. Maybe WHY everyone loved Ali so much.

Design for Living (1933; Ernst Lubitsch). Love this movie! Someone had mentioned it on Twitter and it had been a long time since I’d seen it. Gary Cooper, Fredric March and Miriam Hopkins … living in Paris in an ongoing menage a trois situation … bohemian and free. Can it last?? So good.

The Best of Everything (1959; Jean Negulesco). In a recent Vanity Fair piece, Matthew Weiner (creator of Mad Men) talked about the list of movies he made his cast watch, in preparation for the series. The Apartment was high on the list, of course, but so was The Best of Everything. I love this movie. I love the New York exteriors, I love the friendships between the women, I love Joan Crawford – humanizing her “villain” role in ways both touching and unexpected. The film is a dream to look at.

Mildred Pierce (1945; Michael Curtiz). I read James Cain’s book for the first time this month, and then began a mild obsession with the movie. I’ve seen it before, of course, but I watched it three times in three days this past month. Good times.

5 to 7 (2015; Victor Levin). A sweet and very different romantic comedy, written and directed by Victor Levin, whom I interviewed for Rogerebert.com.

The Central Park Five (2012; Ken Burns). Blood-boiling watching this damn thing.

Supernatural, Season 10: Episode 15, “The Things They Carried.” Phone call for Tim O’Brien. An improvised homoerotic (but not enough) sweat lodge. Squirming disgusting worms. PTSD. Doesn’t quite hold together.

Humoresque (1946; Jean Negulesco). One of my favorite Crawford performances. Watch it back to back with Mildred Pierce and then tell me she “only played herself.” I dare you. And John Garfield is a hunk. Ruth Nelson, his Group Theatre colleague, is heartbreaking and great as his mother. Very good film.

Les Bonnes Femmes (1960; Claude Chabrol). So depressing. That ending. Ugh. I adore Chabrol.

Dial M for Murder (1954; Alfred Hitchcock). I love how much talking is in the film. “Here is what I will do. Here is how it will go. You will walk here. You will do this. You will stand here.” And then, of course, one tiny thing goes wrong … and the perfect murder runs off the rails. I find it very entertaining and Ray Milland is totally creepy in his matter-of-fact-ness.

Holiday (1938; George Cukor). I’ve had a bit of a rough month. Holiday is like comfort food. I fall into its mood of magic and possibility, humor and escape. I love every second of it.

Supernatural, Season 2, Episode 15 “Tall Tales” (2007; Bradford May). Re-watched a couple of times in preparation for next re-cap. Very behind though. I have two film festivals this month, Tribeca and Ebertfest. So … it will have to wait. “Tall Tales” is one of my favorite episodes ever.

The Assassination of Jesse James by the Coward Robert Ford (2007; Andrew Dominik). I don’t think it entirely holds together, but I treasure it for Roger Deakins’ cinematography, and Casey Affleck’s performance. I’ll write about it one of these days.

The Ocean of Helena Lee (2015; Jim Akin). The latest film by Jim Akin and Maria McKee (their first being After the Triumph of Your Birth, which I reviewed here.) I will write about The Ocean of Helena Lee as soon as I can because I love to highlight good personal work that resists classification and carries with it emotional weight.

30 for 30: The Price of Gold (2014; Nanette Burstein). It was painful to re-live this whole Nancy Kerrigan/Tonya Harding drama! I was living in Chicago at the time and we were OBSESSED with the winter Olympics that year. Tonya Harding remains staunch that she knew nothing about the planning of the attack. Kerrigan was not interviewed for the doc. I remember Pat saying to me once (because he was obsessed too), “I don’t think Kerrigan is as nice as everyone says she is.” Like, that was the level of gossip we all had descended to.

30 for 30: June 17, 1994 (2010; Brett Morgen) I’ve seen most of the 30 for 30 series. This one is the best. It is unlike anything else. If you haven’t seen it, I highly recommend it. Although talk about bringing up memories. Jeez Louise. And it was in the same year as the winter Olympics. A great year for sportsmanship and heroes!

The Jeffrey Dahmer Files (2013; Chris James Thompson). Focusing on three people whose lives intersected with Jeffrey DaHmer (the detective who got the confession, his neighbor, and the medical examiner), this documentary takes a sideways look at a horrible event we all know well. It’s very good.

Dreamcatcher (2015; Kim Longinotto). Documentary about Brenda Myers-Powell and her organization Dreamcatcher Foundation, which helps gets prostitutes off the streets. I reviewed for Rogerebert.com.

Goodnight Mommy (2014; Veronika Franz, Severin Fiala). An Austrian art-house horror film featuring two identical twin boys and their mother, whose head is wrapped in bandages. Tremendously creepy, really really uneasy film about identity and masks. I interviewed the two directors last week and it will eventually go up on Rogerebert.com when the film gets a release. It’s great.

Mildred Pierce (2011; Todd Haynes). The Mildred Pierce obsession continues. The mini-series is great, and is much more faithful to Cain’s book (like, word for word faithful, even to the insane last exchange between Mildred and her first ex-husband). Winslet is great. I loved the film.

The Girl Is In Trouble (2015; Julius Onah). A first feature from Onah, who is now helming God Particle for Paramount and J.J. Abrams. He’s rising quickly as someone to be watched. I reviewed the film for The Dissolve and that should go up sometime this week.

Supernatural, Season 10: Episode 16. “Paint It Black.” WTF. No, seriously, I’m asking: WTF.

Many many episodes of Intervention. Like I said I’ve had a rough month. Intervention gives me perspective that things aren’t all that bad. At least I’m not shooting heroin in an abandoned house with an infected nose ring and my eyes rolling back in my head. Kidding aside, I think the show is kind of brilliant.

Song of Lahore (2015; Sharmeen Obaid-Chinoy and Andy Schocken). A documentary about a group of jazz musicians from Pakistan. It will be playing at the Tribeca Film Festival (press screenings going on this week and next).

In My Father’s House (2015; Ricki Stern, Anne Sundberg). Another documentary seen in Tribeca press screenings, about the Oscar-nominated rap artist Rhymefest and his quest to re-build a relationship with his homeless alcoholic father.

Palio (2015; Cosima Spender). Another Tribeca documentary about the Palio, the oldest horse race in the world. Also maybe the fastest and most violent horse race in the world? Most of these films are under a press embargo until they premiere at Tribeca, so that’s all I’ll say for now.

Gored (2015; Ido Mizrahy). Another Tribeca documentary about Antonio Barrera, a matador who has the honor of being the most gored matador in history.

Call the Midwife, Season 3, Episode 1. Continuing on …

Cartel Land (2015; Matthew Heineman). Documentary about the drug cartels in Mexico. Tribeca Film Festival. Under embargo.

Democrats (2015; Camilla Nielsson). Documentary about the 2013 contentious cross-party creation of the constitution in Zimbabwe. Tribeca. Under embargo.

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5 to 7 (2015): Interview with Writer/Director Victor Levin

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I interviewed writer/director Victor Levin about his delightful upcoming feature, 5 to 7, which opens in New York and LA on April 3 (other cities to follow).

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Review: Dreamcatcher (2015): Premiering Tonight on Showtime

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An excellent documentary about prostitution and human trafficking, focusing on one dynamo activist, Brenda Myers-Powell, and her organization The Dreamcatcher Foundation. Directed by veteran documentarian Kim Longinotto. It premieres on Showtime tonight.

My review of “Dreamcatcher” is now up at Rogerebert.com.

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Ebertfest 2015 Lineup

It’s going to be an awesome festival. I can’t wait. And, even more exciting, my mother is coming with me! She and I attended the 2013 Ebertfest together, mainly because I had just been diagnosed and was still in the midst of the crisis. Still spiraling up and down, not stable at all. I needed her to help me manage my illness in the midst of all that film festival activity. She was amazing. And she also got Haskell Weller’s autograph. So, you know, it was a win-win for all involved. Now, though, I am stronger … so we will just have a blast, seeing movies, hanging out, and talking about everything we just saw.

It’s a wonderful lineup of films – the latest Godard! the magnificent Ida! Groundhog Day! – and I am really looking forward to it.

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Supernatural: Season 10, Episode More Peril, Please. Open Thread.

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Catch ya on the flip side.

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Starsky & Hutch Unleashed

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It’s Paul Michael Glaser’s birthday today and my friend Mitchell posted this photo on Facebook, commenting: “No wonder why I loved this show.”

The photo has made my day. I want it framed on my wall.

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