September was the longest month of my life. I started out putting my cat to sleep. I was in Rhode Island and had been so for a month. I came home, and everything had changed. And everything will keep changing. By this time next year I will not be where I am at, pandemic or no. The beginning of September feels like it was two years ago. And September only has 30 days, not 31. Something happened to time itself. It stretched out. Here’s what I watched in September.
Everybody Wants Some!! (2016; d. Richard Linklater)
God, I love this movie. I pop it in all the time. I reviewed for Ebert.

Suzi Q (2020; d. Liam Firmager)
This already feels so damn long ago but I sat out on the porch in Rhode Island with Mitchell, and we drank whiskey, ordered pizza and watched this movie. I had reviewed it for Ebert and I thought he would find it fascinating. He did.

The Argument (2020; d. Robert Schwartzman)
This one didn’t really work for me. I reviewed for Ebert.
The Leftovers, Season 1
I watched the pilot a couple of years ago and it was right up my alley. The aftermath of some global catastrophe … plus a chain-smoking CULT on the edge of town? But then I just didn’t continue for whatever reason. Been doing a lot of binge-watching during this extended period of mostly-lockdown. This time, it stuck. I knew it would be right up my alley. The cast is superb. Carrie Coon, especially. One of the things I love about Nora – and Coon’s performance – is how … aggressive Nora is, how unpleasant, really … and yet with all this vulnerability and trauma. This is actually true of all of the characters – everyone is sitting on top of a mountain of grief, and everyone deals with it in different ways. I got so sucked into the show. It’s a very strange show. But not strange for the sake of strange. It’s … sci-fi I guess you’d call it … but just as Supernatural may be in the “horror” genre (well, not anymore, but that’s another story) – the show is REALLY about family … The Leftovers shows a post-apocalyptic world, what it’s REALLY about is grief. It understands how difficult – how impossible, really – letting go is. It’s facile to say to someone suffering “You have to let it go.” I am in love with the show.

Ted Lasso, Season 1, e or 4 episodes
Allison had been dying to show me this. I have been missing our weekends holed up with one another so we made a plan. I went into New York City for the very first time since March – was too scared to use public transportation – so I drove in. The place is eerie now, a slightly sad and mostly empty ghost town. Allison and I crawled into bed and watched television. I stayed there a couple days. She works from home now, so she worked, and I sat in her bed writing. She made me watch the pilot of Ted Lasso. I love Jason Sudeikis and this whole project (if I’m not mistaken) was initiated by him. Allison loves it for its silliness, its light-heartedness, and the funny performances – a perfect escape for our dark times. (People who keep wanting art to reflect Right Now seem to forget that the biggest box office hits during the Depression were Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers movies.) I absolutely loved it and Hannah Waddingham, who plays the owner of the football club is – quite literally – brilliant. Some of her moments made me gasp. These British actors, man … they know how to do it. The character is so perfectly coiffed, so imperious but as you get to know her (we watched a couple of episodes), you see her misery, the bright frigid smile popped on top of a howling crevasse of pain. Anyway, I’m very intrigued and Allison and I will eventually watch the rest of it.

The Vow (2020; d. Jehane Noujaim, Karim Amer)
I had been waiting for this. I plowed through most of the episodes last month (I got a screener, as a critic) and finished it off this month. He disgusts me so much it’s hard for me to even LOOK at him. And it’s hard to fathom why people would look at him and think he was wise, or enlightened. This is the fascination: the people who got involved in this thing were smart, educated, driven. Studies have shown that people who join cults have, on average, higher IQs than the general population. So … this eradicates the idea that only gullible dumb follower-types join cults. He offered something, he presented something in such a way that people fell for it. Here’s the thing that is so interesting about The Vow and how it’s structured: The documentary holds off on “unmasking” the leader until way WAY into the proceedings. I mean, it’s obvious this was a cult and a very destructive “organization” but they don’t start off with “This guy is a con-man grifter.” They sort of insinuate themselves into the stories of the survivors, and through that … you see why these smart people succumbed. In a way, the documentary forces you to join the cult, just to get an idea of why these people stayed. And … Allison and I discussed it – we both could see the appeal. Nobody joins a cult. They join an organization that they think will help them and help them be better people, more useful citizens. It’s way too easy to look at the pudgy gross face of that leader and think “The people who followed him must have been out of their minds.” Well, no. They weren’t. And he ruined their lives. I also never thought I would say the following words in the course of my life: “Catherine Oxenberg is a fucking hero.” But I have. This story is very very disturbing and extremely trigger-happy. Be warned going in. But it’s extremely well done. Very impressed. I had been following this story since it first broke. I listened to the podcast. But there’s so much here I didn’t know. Excellent doc.

Witness to Murder (1954; d. Roy Rowland)
The shadows are black as pitch in this noir. Figures emerge from the liquidy black. The shadows of people are practically disembodied spirits the lighting is so dramatic. Barbara Stanwyck sees something in the apartment across the way, she sees a man murder a woman. She reports it. She is not believed. The murderer (George Sanders) begins a campaign of both intimidation and coercion to get her to retract or … to shut her up for good.

To Be or Not to Be (1942; d. Ernst Lubitsch)
It’s hard to believe this film even exists. It’s even harder to believe when you consider the year it came out. It’s a black BLACK comedy, barging into the catastrophe of the day – Germany’s overrunning all of Europe – and making fun of it – making fun of the Nazis – but also mourning what is happening. There’s one sequence in a movie theatre which Tarantino leaned on heavily for a similar sequence in Inglorious Basterds. Honestly, To Be or Not to Be is a sui genesis masterpiece. Most of the films coming out after American entered the war were anti-Nazi. So is this. But this? This has the melancholy touch of a European refugee. It’s different.

This Gun for Hire (1942; d. Frank Tuttle)
One of my favorite movies. I pop it in all the time. Alan Ladd, making his extraordinary debut. This character has been imitated over and over and over again. He basically started a cottage industry. The French New Wave sure loved him (Jean Pierre Melville’s Le Samurai is an unofficial yet totally obvious remake of This Gun for Hire). And Veronica Lake is adorable, earthy, real. With the best hair in show business. Still. Her magic act is a wonder, and the slow way she gets under this hired-gun’s skin is beautiful to behold. Tenderness. I wrote this on Instagram: “When Alan Ladd’s contract killer character screams, ‘THAT GIRL’S MY FRIEND!’, it surprises me every single time, even though its one of my longtime faves and I’ve watched IT so many times. No matter how many times though, I am not ready for that moment, for what it feels like to hear this taciturn damaged chilly man say the words “my friend.” AND his back is to the camera when he says it! (Back-ting!) The sound of his voice when he yells those words gets the job done.”

Big City Blues (1932; d. Mervyn LeRoy)
Poor innocent (annoying) country bumpkin (Eric Linden) comes to New York with stars in his eyes. Over a long night, during which his cousin (Walter Catlett) throws him a debauched party, bumpkin’s innocence is lost. And Jesus, it’s about time, you’re an adult, pallie. Joan Blondell plays a showgirl and – basically – a professional escort, who takes said bumpkin under her wing, all as the party wheels totally out of control. I love Pre-Codes. They’re so frank.

Infidel (2020; d. Cyrus Nowrasteh)
I reviewed for Ebert. It’s a bifurcated movie, one half having nothing to do with the second half, but I did enjoy a lot of it.

The Swerve (2020; d. Dean Kapsalis)
What an upsetting experience. What an incredible performance from Azura Skye. Jesus, this actress “goes there.” Watching The Swerve, it is impossible to stay neutral or distant. It is impossible to not feel for this woman, even if it’s just watching in horror as she goes off the rails. If you’ve ever been mentally sick, like REALLY sick, you might see yourself in her. You also might not want to watch, it hits so close to home. Amazing performance. I reviewed for Ebert. I highly recommend it.

Misbehaviour (2020; d. Philippa Lowthorpe)
A new movie about the women’s movement’s attempts to disrupt and take down the 1970 Miss World pageant in London. I reviewed for Ebert.

Only Lovers Left Alive (2013; d. Jim Jarmusch)
What a movie. I hadn’t seen it since it came out. I wrote about it here. The movie weaves a spell. It’s about vampires, of course, but it’s mostly about the central relationship, their devotion to one another, their need to be together but also apart … Watching Tilda Swinton and Tom Hiddleston as a couple, you get the sense – you really do – that they have been together for centuries. Their devotion to one another is so moving. I love this movie so much. Also, KILLER Wanda Jackson needle-drop. And it made me sad to see Anton Yelchin.

Possessor (2020; d. Brandon Cronenberg)
Reviewed for Ebert. Not really a fan, unfortunately. Some may love it! But as I always say: it’s not my job to tell you what YOU think, OR to align myself with the consensus. All I can do is tell you what Me-Myself-I think.

A Call to Spy (2020; d. Lydia Dean Pilcher)
I thought this was very good and feel fortunate it was one of my assignments for Ebert. It’s a fascinating and well-told history lesson, a slice of history never before told. I really dug it.

Vox Lux (2020; d. Brady Corbet)
I reviewed for Ebert. Should have given it 4 stars. Inspired by posting my brother’s essays about Scott Walker. This movie is so so good. Brady Corbet … I am so excited to see what he does next. From Childhood of a Leader to THIS? Both so excellent? I love a movie that makes bold choices, big big choices, choices that many people might not like, or “get”. At a certain point, all good artists have to say “fuck ’em if they don’t get it. This is for the people who DO.” Fantastic film.

The Leftovers, Season 2
I am curious to hear from fans of the series. Season 1 haunted me and gripped me. Season 2 was also really good, but it didn’t grip me like the first season. There were sequences that blew me away: the whole episode in a hotel was unbelievable. Matt Jamison’s whole journey. Regina King is already on my list of Great Actresses – ever since Jerry Maguire – and it is so so good to see her here, in such an interesting and complex role. I love Margaret Qualley in general (she was excellent as the Manson girl who drags Brad Pitt back to Spahn Ranch in Once Upon a Time in Hollywood). Good to see Steven Williams, too, as Virgil, the pedophile in the trailer, who gives Justin Theroux poison, because that makes sense. Williams, of course, plays Rufus on Supernatural, a handful of guest spots which cast a long LONG shadow. He’s a great actor. Rufus and Virgil have some things in common. In fact, and this will only be understandable to Supernatural fans, a LOT of Season 2 reminded me of certain arcs in Supernatural, particularly the dying and then rising again. Also Sam’s arc of walking around with Lucifer, unseen by everyone except him, is present in the whole Kevin-is-haunted-by-Patti, who follows him around, a devil on his shoulder. Is Kevin crazy or is Patti really there? This is Supernatural playbook. The whole environment of “Miracle” – with that crazy tent city outside of town – the bridge to get in – all of this feels extremely REAL, even though the series is extremely surreal. I just feel like … in the aftermath of some huge humanity-shifting event – this would be very very plausible. I just finished up Season 3, which turned me into a puddle on the floor. The whole series is extraordinary. I love the fly-by-the-seat-of-our-pants energy to the whole thing – I know it drove some people crazy. I loved that aspect of it. I was always on the edge of my seat. Would love to hear from other fans.
